Chapter twenty three – Love always conquers pride
"James! Wait!" Sirius called after James, running fast to keep up with him.
"No, Sirius. I gave you the opportunity to tell him yourself but you said no, so I'm going to have to do it for you" James yelled back.
Sirius was beginning to panic now. Would Snape find out? What will Remus say? What is going to go wrong? But then Sirius stopped suddenly as a rather pleasant thought crossed his mind. What if Remus wants to get back together with him? Sirius smiled and felt a breathless Peter crash into him.
"Sorry" Peter managed to pant out. Sirius merely nodded and sped after James again, his panic slowly decreasing. 'Everything might work out for the best' he thought happily. Eventually, they reached the hospital wing and Sirius pushed open the door and saw James standing next to Remus' bed.
Sirius suddenly felt afraid. What if things didn't turn out ok? What if Remus was angry at him for lying? Sirius swallowed hard and stood at the other side of Remus' bed. He looked up quizzically at James, who shook his head to clarify that he hadn't told Remus yet.
There was an awkward silence where everyone stared at their shoes, not knowing what to say. Remus had a look of curiosity on his face and kept opening and closing his mouth as though he was about to say something but then decided not to.
A few seconds of awkward silence later, Peter burst through the door, panting like a dog. The three of them looked up in surprise but did not comment. However, this did break the silence.
"You said there was something you needed to tell me, James" Remus said, looking at his friend.
"Yes, unless Sirius would like to tell you" James said, looking pointedly at Sirius. Sirius avoided James' gaze, he knew he wouldn't be able to tell him.
"Sirius?" Remus asked. Sirius stayed silent and continued to stare at the floor. He just couldn't face Remus' eyes staring into his own. "Sirius, please look at me" Remus tried again. Sirius continued to look at the floor. He then felt a delicate hand on his chin and his head was lifted up and he found himself looking into Remus' amber eyes.
Remus lowered his hand and looked at Sirius curiously. "Are you going to tell me or is James going to?" Remus asked. Sirius tried to open his mouth to speak but he found that he had lost himself in Remus' eyes. He hadn't looked him in the eye properly for a long while and now that he was, he found that he had lost his voice.
Remus looked back at him, waiting for an answer so Sirius nodded in James' direction and reluctantly dropped his gaze.
Remus was disappointed that Sirius couldn't tell him but he looked at James expectantly. "I guess it's down to me then" James said, wondering where to begin. Sirius sat down in a chair and stared at his hands, he didn't want to see what Remus' reaction would be.
"Well… I'm going to say it bluntly and explain what happened" James began. Sirius was curious what James was going to say but he didn't dare look up.
"Sirius never wanted to break up with you" James said. Remus looked at him in disbelief but that quickly changed to anger.
"Then why did he break up with me?" Remus asked irritably. James sighed and continued.
"What about him?" Remus asked, confused.
"He blackmailed Sirius. Saying if he didn't break up with you, he'd tell the whole school about your… well you know your changes at the full moon" James replied. Remus looked at him, his mouth agape and his eyes wide.
"He also said that if Sirius told anyone, he'd spread not only that secret around the school but he'd tell everyone about you two as well" James continued. Remus felt more shocked than he had ever been in his whole life, except for when he first discovered he was a werewolf.
"Sirius did love you Remus. He never meant to hurt you" James said softly. Remus nodded and looked at Sirius, who was still staring blankly at his hands.
"But why? Why did Severus do this?" Remus asked, still feeling confused.
"Because he loves you and so do I" Sirius said, looking up at Remus. Remus stared back at him and they all fell back into an awkward silence.
"I think we'd better leave you two alone to sort this out. Come on Peter" James said, leading him and Peter out of the door. Once the door closed behind them, Remus opened his mouth to speak but he had no idea what to say.
"I'm sorry" Sirius said, averting his gaze to the floor.
"It's ok, I understand" Remus replied. "But what does this mean about-" Remus was cut off when someone entered the hospital wing. It was Snape.
"Hello, Severus" Remus said in a fake cheery voice. Snape looked worried at seeing Remus and Sirius together and the look in Remus' eyes told him something was wrong.
"Um hi, what's going on?" Snape asked.
"What's going on is, you blackmailed Sirius and don't even bother to deny it" Remus said harshly.
"You filthy bastard, you told him!" Snape yelled at Sirius. Sirius flinched slightly but Remus stood his ground.
"Actually he didn't. It was James" Remus replied.
"How did he know?" Snape asked, shooting a glance at Sirius.
"He heard us talking" Sirius said. Snape nodded and looked at Remus.
"I'm sorry" He said quietly.
"You're sorry? You lost me the love of my life, caused me more pain than you can ever imagine, almost make me kill myself in wolf form and all you can say is sorry?!" Remus said through gritted teeth.
"I know it was wrong but you weren't supposed to find out" Snape said, realising Remus wasn't going to forgive him. "Why couldn't Potter keep his mouth shut. He's going to pay for that" Snape said under his breath.
"No he's not. If you don't stop blackmailing Sirius and harm James in any way, I'm going to tell the whole school that you're gay" Remus said. Snape looked shocked at Remus but his expression turned into a scowl.
"Fine. Forget the blackmail. Forget my feelings. Forget you" Snape said, leaving the hospital wing. Sirius and Remus remained silent for a while after he left. Eventually, Remus broke the silence.
"I never stopped loving you" Sirius looked at him in surprise.
"Same here. I never wanted to break up with you. It was horrible without you, I hate Snape for what he did" Sirius said angrily.
"So do I but there's nothing we can do about it now" Remus replied.
"That's true. But where does this leave us?" Sirius asked nervously.
"I'm not sure. What would you like to happen" Remus asked.
"I don't know" Sirius said, stepping closer to Remus. "Let's find out" He added before he pressed his lips against Remus' in a long awaited kiss. Once they broke away, they both smiled at each other.
"I think this means we're getting back together. Don't you think?" Remus asked.
"Yes definitely" Sirius said, pulling Remus into another soft kiss.
"How do you think its going?" Peter asked James on their way back to the common room.
"Very well I hope. I swear if they don't get back together, I'm going to hit them" James said, laughing. Peter laughed in return and then the two boys stopped when they saw a figure in front of them. Snape.
"Alright Snivellus?" James asked.
"No, thanks to you Remus knows the truth. Him and Black will get back together now" Snape said with disgust evident in his tone.
James grinned widely. "That's brilliant! Lets hope they do" James said brightly and him and Peter walked away laughing to themselves whilst Snape sneered at their retreating backs.
Back in the hospital wing, Sirius was lying next to Remus on his bed and their hands were entwined. "I'm so glad we're back together" Remus said, kissing the top of Sirius' head.
"Me too. I missed you" Sirius said.
"I missed you too" Remus replied, kissing Sirius softly on the lips.
"So, when do you think we should tell everyone?" Remus asked.
"Oh you mean James and Peter?" Sirius asked, twirling a piece of Remus' hair between his fingers.
"Not just them, I mean the rest of the school" Remus replied. Sirius froze suddenly but hoped Remus didn't feel him doing so.
"Did you just flinch when I said that?" Remus asked. 'Oh crap, oh crap' Sirius thought to himself.
"No of course not" Sirius said, his heart beginning to pound uncomfortably in his chest.
"Yes you did. Don't you want to tell everyone?" Remus asked.
"Can't we just stay the way we are?" Sirius suggested. Remus shuffled away from him and glared.
"I thought after everything we'd been through you'd want everyone to know about us. Obviously not. Get out"
"Please, Remus, don't do this" Sirius pleaded.
"Get out!" Remus yelled. Sirius left the room quickly and punched the wall beside him.
"Why do I always screw these things up!?" He asked himself angrily. He made his way back to the common room and saw James sitting by the fireplace with Lily sitting on his lap.
"Hey, have you and Remus sorted things out?" James asked hopefully.
"We had but I messed it up again" Sirius said sadly.
"I think I'll leave you two to talk. See you later" Lily said, kissing James on the lips.
"Bye. So what happened, Sirius?" James asked.
"Well, everything was sorted out and we were back together but then Remus suggested telling people and…" Sirius began.
"No! You did not say you didn't want to!" James said, eyes widening in disbelief.
"Not exactly. I kind of flinched when he said it and he guessed" Sirius replied.
"Oh god you're such an idiot! Don't you want everyone to know?" James asked.
"I don't know. I don't want to be judged and abandoned by the whole school" Sirius said.
"You never know, some people might understand. If some don't, who cares? As long as you have Remus what's the problem?" James replied.
"You make a good point but I'm still not sure…" Sirius said uncertainly.
"Come on, Sirius! What would you rather have? The school thinking you're straight with girls chasing after you and no Remus. Or the whole school knowing you're gay and having Remus?"
Sirius thought about James' words for a moment and he realised what an idiot he had been. How could he choose his pride over his true love?
"You're right, James. I'd choose Remus over anything, except for you of course, that would be a tough choice" Sirius said. James laughed a little.
"I think you'd better find him before its too late then" James said. "If you need me, I'll be in the Great Hall for dinner" James added before leaving through the portrait hole.
Sirius sat there for a moment before jumping up, climbing through the portrait and making his way to the hospital wing. When he arrived, he saw that Remus' bed was empty. "Where's Remus?" He asked Madam Pomfrey.
"He's gone" She replied.
"Gone where?" Sirius asked, panicking slightly.
"To the Great Hall for dinner" She said.
"Oh right" Sirius said, calming down slightly. "Thanks"
He rushed down to the Great Hall and saw Remus by the doors. "Remus!" He called out. Remus looked around and saw Sirius, then turned back, ignoring him.
Sirius rushed down and grabbed Remus' arm gently. "Please, just let me explain" Sirius said. Remus sighed and rolled his eyes.
"I've been a complete idiot, not wanting to tell anyone but I'm just scared about how people will react. But I had a talk with James and he made me realise that it shouldn't matter what people think because as long as I have you, I shouldn't care. He was right, as usual and I just wanted to say I'll do anything to prove to you that I don't give a crap about what people say, because I really don't. I don't want to lose you because I love you. Please forgive me" Sirius looked at Remus expectantly but he just seemed to stare at him.
"Of course I forgive you" Remus said, wrapping his arms around Sirius. "I can understand that you're scared but whatever happens, we'll get through it together because I love you too" Remus said, kissing Sirius' cheek after they withdrew from their hug.
"Ok, let's do it. Let's make everyone find out right now" Sirius said, grinning.
"Really?" Remus asked, smiling happily.
"Yes" Sirius said, taking Remus by the hand.
"Ready?" Remus asked.
"For you, I'm ready for anything" Sirius replied, pushing open the front doors.
The reaction was amazing. Many girls looked close to tears whilst others were either shocked or happily surprised. Some of the boys grinned at them whilst others looked at them with disgust.
"They're staring" Remus whispered.
"Let them stare. The only person I care about at this moment. Is you" Sirius said, kissing Remus passionately.
A/N: Oh my god! It's finished, noooooo! I'm really gonna miss this story. I'll probably do a few one shot fics with this pairing so don't worry, this isn't the last you'll see of me. Please review and tell me what you thought of the story. Thank you to everyone who reviewed during the story, you all rock!