Disclaimer: I don't own anything. J.K. Rowling owns everything. I'm just a speck of dirt compared to her. Blah! Blah! BLAH! I'm just nothing at all!

Name: I'm Not As Gone as You Think

Censor: PG-13 (If you're under thirteen like me keep reading and don't tell your parents even though mine let me watch R rated movies! I'm SUPERIOR TO ALL MWAHAHAHAHAHA!)

Summery: Sirius is gone! GONE FOREVER!! Hermione can't take it! She is so depressed she may do the unthinkable! (spoilers: 1-5)

Chapter 1

Hermione was getting so depressed when she heard that Wormtail had been caught and if Sirius were alive his name would have been cleared. But he was gone! Dead and never ever coming back! Just thinking about what he would be like now made her burst out in tears. Why did he have to die! He was an innocent person! That Lastrange woman should have not killed her own cousin! If I ever see her I will kill her, she thought in tears, shaking uncontrollably in her bed at 12 Grimauld Place. A muscular arm wrapped around her. Hermione lifted her face to see two emerald green eyes gazing into hers, filled with concern.

" 'Mione, 'Mione everything is going to be ok! Don't cry! Please 'Mione! I'll always be with you! Don't worry!" Harry's voice was mature and kind. He kissed Hermione's head, whispering words of comfort to her. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying, she slipped her arms around harry pulling him closer to her. Her head on his shoulder, pouring out all of the emotion inside her.

"He's gone! He's gone! All the untold things I wanted to tell him! O, Sirius please come back or I swear I'll kill myself!"

"Hermione, you shouldn't say that...stop acting like you think you're only that. 'Cause I know that your the most amazing person I know. I love you, and it'll eat you inside out. I need you now! Now that he's gone, you're one of the only people left..."

"NO! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL! NO ONE DOES! AND NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME! I'M JUST HERMIONE, THE CRYING, WHIMPY NO-IT-ALL!" She ran away, tears flying through the air, leaving a frustrated Harry.

"Why does she do that! I just can't figure out girls! Hermione! Hermione! COME BACK NOW!!!!!!! I NEED TO TALK TO YOU!!!!!" he yelled to only hear whimpers coming from upstairs. Harry ran up the creaky old stairs to his own room. He looked through the door to see Hermione curled up in a ball. She was rocking back and forth.
He's gone. I guess I'll just kill myself to be with him! It shouldn't be too bad? Should it! Why did I have to be unconscious when he died! I could have stopped it from happening! It's all my fault!

"Herm! Stop hurting yourself! You're one of the only people I have left to love! I can't have another to go! I love you too much!"

"Stop treating me like a child! Just leave me ALONE! ALONE I SAY! JUST GO AND NEVER BOTHER ME AGAIN! I HATE YOU! I HATE EVERYONE NOW! LIFE ISN'T WORTH LIVING ANY MORE! JUST GO!!!!!!!!!!!"

~@ An @~

It's so sad! I love stories like this! Harry and Hermione seem to have switched roles! Now she is the one who needs a m!!!! Sry it's short I need it to be if u no what I mean!

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