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Song: The Real Folk Blues (Yoko Kanno)
Lyrics and Translations courtesy of animelyrics.com


Aishiteta to nageku ni wa
Amari ni mo toki wa sugite shimatta
Mada kokoro no hokorobi o
Iyasenumama kaze ga fuiteru

"It's too late to cry I love you.
The wind still blowing, my heart still aching"



Colocation: A place to rot for a server in Otaku City. Nothing there but a 24/7 'net connection and a bottomless supply of nikuman. Not a dump in the strictest sense – controlled climate, good food, steady maintenance. But it's a hard thing to be a thousand miles from those who care about you, only hearing from your folks when they need to upload something – a few times a week at most.

You could see it all in the expression on the girl-bot's face. Cutecute server-rin though she might be, anyone with a heart could see she wasn't happy there.


Hitotsu no me de asu o mite
Hitotsu no me de kinou mitsumeteru
Kimi no ai no yurikagode
Mo ichido yasurakani nemuretara

"One side of my eyes see tomorrow,
And the other one see yesterday
I hope I could sleep in the cradle of your love, again"



Update night: It's hard on the heart to watch a 12 year-old girl curled up in the fetal position, watch her shudder in pain as thousands of fanboys hit refresh every five seconds. Goodness knows, they must ache for the morrow even as their fellows dredge up the long lost forum threads buried deep within her memory. Having to look in so many directions was surely as painful as anything else.

"Awuuu~~~ Ukyo-san... I want to go home..."


Kawaita hitomi de dareka naitekure

"Cry for me, somebody, with dry eyes"



Sad, isn't it? You'll never see her cry. She's not human, you see. No tear ducts.

Try telling that to the sad puppy-dog eyes that gaze up at you when she asks to go see her father.


The real folk blues
Honto no kanashimi ga shiritaidake
Doro no kawa ni sukatta jinsei mo warukuwanai
Ichido kiri de owarunara

"The real folk blues
I just want to feel a real sorrow
It's not bad a life in the muddy river
If life is once"



You catch her on the forums from time to time, it's almost like being free for her. She reads everything... Discussion, advice, haiku, speculation, art, poetry, RP, songfic, drabble, filk... Everything. She pops in to give technical advice, egg those fanboys on. Given half a chance, they'd gladly adopt her.

But that's not the same as having a life. I think she knows that. It's more like looking at a picture of a window and saying "This is what I could see... If I could just reach it." And some days I'd give anything to be able to let her go.


Kibou ni michita zetsuboto
Wanagashikakerareteru kono chansu
Nani ga yoku te warui no ka
Koin no omoi to kuramitaita

"Hopeless hope, and the chance with traps
What is right, or wrong
It's like a both side of a coin"



The problem being, we need her like this. Nobody else can do what she does. There's a lot of fanboys out there who'd be sad or upset if she left. And that's not even counting the "FanboyNumberOnes." Some of the ones that scare us most live right here in Otaku City. Besides, it's not always bad for her.

"Look what they wrote in the haiku thread, Ukyo-san! Isn't it funny?"


Dore dake ikireba iyasareru no darou

"How long I must live till I release?"



She's supposed to be getting help soon. Piro's new server is taking on the main page, and Makoto will only have to handle the forums. Seems like she never stops wondering about it.

"Ne, when will Nayuki-chan get here? Her picture looks cute – does she like nikuman?"


The real folk blues
Honto no yorokobi ga shiritai dake
Hikaru mono no subete ga ougen to wa kagiranai

"The real folk blues
I just want to feel a real pleasure
All that glitters is not gold"



Quiet weekend: It's the worst when it's slow. Being locked away from all the world is draining for the poor girl, and when it gets quiet it makes her feel unwanted. For all their community, it can get painfully obvious that the forums aren't quite real.

"Minna-san? Where did everybody go? Come back... please... Minna-san..."


The real folk blues
Honto no kanashimi ga shiritaidake
Doro no kawa ni sukatta jinsei mo warukuwanai
Ichido kiri de owarunara

"The real folk blues
I just want to feel a real sorrow
It's not bad a life in the muddy river
If life is once"



She wants out, I know, and she's not very good at hiding it. She wants to be with Piro, to live with the man she calls father and live out her life as normal children do. I can see it written all over her face that she'd go home in a second if she could.

It's probably the forums that do it for her, keep her hanging on. Some of the folks in No Save Points, or OLSAL – they're as bad off as she is. She wants people to be happy, you know, and some of those folks – they need her to be there. She told me once, when the going gets really hard, and she just wants to shut down, those people...

They help her to be brave.