At 6:30 the phone rang. I picked it up nervously.



"Soda?" I said. I was anticipating it to be Mira so badly that I couldn't hide my disappointment.

"Dad said to call to check on you" he replied softly

"I'm fine" I said a little annoyed. What do they think I am? A baby!

"Oh ok then" he was silent for a minute then Ponyboy came on, "Darry are you ok?" he asked. He still sounded so cute, like a baby. He hadn't reached maturity yet.

"Yeah I'm ok Pony what are you guys doing?"

"we were riding horses just now but grandma made us come inside for dinner" he placed his hand over the phone then came on again and said "dad said we're coming back tonight"

I heard dad say "tell him late" in the background

"Late at night he said" Pony repeated

"Ok, I'll see you guys then ok."

"Bye" he shut the phone.

Hearing them made me feel a bit better but then I start to panic.

What if she tried to call me but the phone was engaged?

I convinced myself that she called me while the phone was engaged and became hysterical.

I became so mad that I ran out of the house and down to the park. I needed air.

As I came closer to the fountain, I saw an all-too-familiar figure sitting quietly on the edge. It was Mira. She looked up at me when I was close enough to hear her voice.

"I knew you'd find me here" she said without smiling. Her eyes still look sad but at least she was talking to me.

I got down on my knees and put my palms together, "forgive me" I said.

"I can't"

I wasn't expecting her to say that.

"I'm sorry. You know I didn't mean it like that"

"No I don't know that"

I got up and sat next to her on the edge of the fountain.

"I think maybe you liked me because you could control me. Because I did everything you told me to"

She caught me off guard with that remark.

"What the?" I said in shock, "how could you say that?"

"Its true"

"You think I'm a control freak?"

"You are. But that's not always a bad thing" she said softly, "it's just not for me. I've been through that too many times" her voice trailed off.

"I'll change" I heard myself say.

She didn't reply.

"I'm going to move in with my dad and his wife" she said after a while.

"Why?" I could feel my voice shaking.

"I need a change. Besides, Daniel's not going to be here anymore so I wont have a reason to stay" she said this with such bitterness that I felt my heart break in my chest.

It's over for sure.

I got up slowly. I was too proud to beg anymore.

 "I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself ok" I said then walked away.

I walked around the block for a while to clear my head before I headed for my house. When I got there, mom and dad were back. I was glad to see them. Soda and Pony had bought me a box of my grandma's favourite cookies. We sat in the living room and they told me all the things they did on the trip. I listened absent-mindedly. I couldn't help it.

I screwed up. It was all my fault no one else's. I just wish she'd given me a chance but she had been hurt too many times for that. What killed me the most was that I knew all about her hurting and I just added to it without thinking. She didn't love me anymore and I guess she had every right to. I only hope I will learn from my mistakes.


A/N: this story wasn't all that but I hope u guys liked it anyway.