Sometimes Buffy wonders if she isn't crazy. She knows that it is real enough to her, but isn't that what makes deletions so believable, that they seem so real? Buffy knows that she has to keep the fact that she's the Slayer a secret, but she doesn't know why. Maybe Merrick is just messing with her mind. Maybe he is making her kill innocent people. Or maybe he is telling the truth and everything she has believed for the past fifteen years is a lie.

Sometimes Buffy wonders if she isn't just insane, if she isn't just loosing her mind. And she sometimes wonders if anyone would miss her if she died.

And more often then not, she thinks they wouldn't.