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This is a companion piece for 'The Happiest Day of My Life'. It's probably best if you read that too, but it's not essential.

No More Wishing

How can I do this?

I know we promised each other we would, but I just can't.

How can I live without you?  Your smile, your eyes, your smell… I need you.

I need you.

But it still feels like betrayal. I wonder if you've done it too.

I wish I knew.

I'm such a terrible person. Thinking of you on today of all days.

My wedding day.

I love her, I really do. But it's still strange. But I won't wish it were you walking down the aisle towards me.

Mary and my mother are smiling proudly. Mary's almost like an aunt or, something now.  She helped us get back to our feet.

The girl I'm going to marry is nearly at the altar. I see her smile, bright beneath the veil. She knows about you. I had to tell her. She's a wonderful person. She lost someone she loved too.

Her name is Sara.

I think you'd like her, Lyra. She's quite like you. Not in looks, but sometimes I see her concentrating so hard, it reminds me of you and the alethiometer. She and Mary are working together on a cure for my mother. She's already much better.

I wish I could see everyone. Iorek, Serafina, Pantalaimon, and especially you.

Kirjava is standing at my side. Mary taught Sara how to see Dæmons. Sara's is a fox. He's called Tylanos. 

Oh, Lyra I wish-

No! No more wishing. Not today, not ever. It's not fair on Sara or you. Or me.

But I'll see you seen. In the garden.

That's where we can be together. Sara knows about our adventures together. She was a bit sceptical at first, but now she believes me.

I know she'll make me happy. I hope I can do the same for her.

But remember…

No more wishing.

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Well? Hope you liked it!

Lotsa luv

Katie