Tourniquet

Chapter One

~I tried to kill the pain,

But only brought more.

(So much more)

I lay dying,

And I'm pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.~

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Kagome sobbed as she slit her wrists once again with the sharp razors, her salty tears falling down her bruised cheeks to drip into the warm bath water. Steam swirled around the bathroom, making the air thick and heavy. Her blood trickled down her wrist and dispersed into the water, tinting the water pink. Dark purple blotches that matched the ones on her face marred her pale skin, making her look as if some young child had gone crazy with a giant purple marker.

Intermixed with the bruises were puncture wounds and thin scratches, injuries that were still red, much like the color the water was quickly becoming.

"Inuyasha..." the black-haired girl said softly as more tears slid down her cheeks, falling onto her shoulder, making the shallow cut there sting.

All her bruises had been caused by the inu youkai. It had been all his fault. The puncture wounds and scratches had been done with his claws. The silver-haired demon had abused her so horribly that she hurt even on the inside.

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~I'm dying,

Praying,

Bleeding,

Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved?

Am I too lost?

My God! My Tourniquet,

Return to me salvation.

My God! My Tourniquet,

Return to me salvation.~

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The young miko slashed her other wrist once more, watching her blood taint the water with a morbid fascination. She was soon going to die, which was what Inuyasha had done to Sango, Miroku, and even little Shippou. He had killed them all, and she hadn't been able to do a thing about it. The rosary around his neck had been broken off during the battle with Naraku.

She hadn't worried about the loss of the subjugation spell at the time, but after they had defeated the evil hanyou and finished putting the Shikon no Tama together, he had demanded the jewel. Of course, she had given it to him, expecting him to wish for his Kikyou back.

Instead, Inuyasha had wished to be a full demon. His eyes had turned red and dangerous; his fangs and claws had become longer. The transformed inu youkai had terrified Kagome. Once he was fully transformed, he had quickly proceeded to killing Sango off.

Then, Miroku, in a blind rage, had attacked his old traveling companion. The monk quickly joined his lost love, tears in his eyes.

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~Do you remember me?

Lost for so long.

Will you be on the other side?

Will you forgive me?


I'm dying,

Praying,

Bleeding,

Screaming.~

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The miko had stood, transfixed in complete horror at the scene in front of her, when Inuyasha had turned to her. The dog demon had walked towards her, a dark, eager look in his eyes.

Shippou had tried to protect her, but he had quickly died, shredded to pieces. With no one to protect her, the transformed Inuyasha had pounced on her, taking off his clothes and then ripping away hers. He had then proceeded to beating her, using his fists, his open palm, his claws, and even his fangs. Once she had begun sobbing and pleading with him, he had raped her, being as rough as he had known how to be, which had been almost rough enough to kill her.

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~Am I too lost to be saved?

Am I too lost?


My God! My Tourniquet,

Return to me salvation.

My God! My Tourniquet,

Return to me salvation.~

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Once Inuyasha had finished with her, he had left her to die. Somehow, Kouga had shown up a little later, taken one look at her, and quickly taken her to his wolf tribe to be cared for. The wolf demon prince had seen to her wounds and had given her a comforting shoulder to cry on.

Kagome had just been beginning to heal when the dog demon had suddenly decided to show up. He then had begun to slaughter the pack mercilessly, laughing in joy.

Kouga had ordered the miko to run, which she had done, fearing for her life. Unfortunately, she had witnessed the prince's death before going too far.

In tears, she had run. After traveling for weeks, she had arrived back at the well, went through, and came home to find her entire family dead. Inuyasha had killed them all.

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~(Return to me salvation)

(I want to DIE!)


My God! My Tourniquet,

Return to me salvation.

My God! My Tourniquet,

Return to me salvation.~

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Kagome had attended the funerals with tears on her face, mourning her family as well as all her friends back in the Sengoku Jidai. Of course, she had placed ofuda all over the well to keep Inuyasha from ever coming back to the present. That did not make her feel any better though. She wanted to be with her friends and family, wanted the pain to end. She wanted to be free from the heart-wrenching torture that she was going through. She hurt so bad, which was why she was ending it.

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~My wounds cry for the grave.

My soul cries for deliverance.

Will I be denied?

Christ! Tourniquet! My suicide.~

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"So dizzy," the miko whispered softly, knowing that her life was slipping away as the seconds passed by. In a way, that idea pleased her. Soon, she would be in heaven and happy once again.

"I'm sorry, everyone, for not saving you. Please forgive me." Then, knowing that her friends and family had forgiven her, her eyes closed and her heart ceased to beat. She died with a smile on her face.









CotA: Okay, now that was just sad. I can't believe I wrote that. *Begins to cry*

Sigmund and Sesshoumaru-clone: *walking in*

Sess-chan: What's the matter with you?

Sigmund: Is the little baby having problems again?

CotA: Shut up, jerk!

Sess-chan: *hitting Sigmund on the head* Do not insult her.

CotA: Thanks, Sess-chan. *sniffling* I'm crying because I wrote a really sad story. I don't even know why I wrote it.

Sess-chan: I would say you wrote it because your short muse gave you the idea.

CotA: *Blinking* I guess that's possible. He does seem to like putting Kagome through all sorts of crap. That stupid gnome has suggested all sorts of mean things. *glares at Sigmund*

Sigmund: *gulps* Bye. *runs off*

CotA: *Sighs* I'm still depressed.

Sess-chan: Then write something happy.

CotA: *ponders that idea for a moment* Hmmm... I could continue this little one-shot if enough people review and say that they want me to. I have an idea that just might work.

Sess-chan: What?

CotA: *kisses him on the cheek* You'll find out soon enough. If the reviewers don't ask me to continue it, then I'll tell you later. Promise.

Sess-chan: Very well.

CotA: You're such a sweetheart. *turns to readers* Press the little purple button down below and tell me what you think of this please. Gracias. Arigato. Thanks.