Title: It Doesn't Matter
Disclaimer: I don't own CB.
Summary: What if Julia never died? Which would mean that Spike didn't run off to fight Vicious. Which means Spike never died. And neither did Vicious.
All right, listen up. This is my first, FIRST Cowboy Bebop story. No, not my first Fan Fiction or first story ever, just my first Cowboy Bebop fiction. I tried to make it as Cowboy Bebop realistic as possible, but we don't really know much about how Spike acted like around Julia and vice versa, so I tried to use my judgment and be sweet but not too sweet at the same time! And I tried to make all the characters the way they would act, so if they're a little off, please forgive me! I tried my best! So go easy on me! ^_^ I wasn't sure if I should put this up or not, and I'm still not sure. I just hope you all like it at least a little. Believe me, I hate Julia too but really I thought that this would be interesting. It takes place after Spike goes off to meet with Julia. So he and her never stayed to fight all of Vicious' men at Annie's shop. They just come back to the Bebop. Oh yeah, and if someone already has a story with this type of plot/story line, then I totally didn't and still don't know. So forgive me, I'm not copying anyone, I swear! Please don't hurt me! ^_^ Well then, on with the story. I just hope that all the italics and bold works…Chapter 1
Faye sat on the couch with her legs crossed, her arms draped lazily over the back and a cigarette in her mouth. Jet still hadn't repaired anything around here, not the Redtail and not the Bebop. And Spike still wasn't back yet. He'd been gone for at least an hour. Meeting Julia 'there.' Wherever that was. She had to admit, she liked the girl. She was cool, she thought so the moment she met her. But she was Spike's everything, his life, his only reason for staying alive. And Faye despised her for that.
She heard the hanger doors open. She sat up straight and quickly removed the cigarette from her mouth, smashing it out on the ashtray. Footsteps. She looked up to find Spike walking in with his hands in his pockets.
"Where have you been?" Faye asked. She didn't have to ask; she knew he had been with Julia. But she felt she had to say something
Spike stopped and just looked at her. It was of those absolutely blank looks that had no feeling or expression. You couldn't tell if he was angry, happy, pissed off or drunk. After a minute of simple staring in silence, he looked back ahead and continued waling down the hall.
And someone was behind him that Faye completely failed to notice. Julia. She stopped, and looking at Faye, smiled faintly. "Hello Faye."
Faye just stared in shock. Of course Spike would bring her here, what else did she expect? But this was going to change everything. Faye blinked and swallowed. "Hi…Julia…"
Julia followed Spike down the hall. Faye held her breath until she heard Spike's door close.
* * * * *
Spike locked the door after he shut it. Julia stood against the wall, studying the place he had been living for the last three years. She turned her attention back to him. He was sitting on his bed, smoking a newly lit cigarette with his eyes closed.
"This is where you've been the past few years?" Julia asked softly.
"Yeah…It's not much, but it's home." He smiled a little smirk before taking a drag from his cigarette.
"With her?" She added.
Spike let his head fall against his back. "Well, there's also Jet. And there was Ed, but she left a few days ago."
She only arched an eyebrow. She wasn't going to ask. She knew that Spike didn't like to talk much about this sort of thing. So she brought up something else, something worse. "What about Vicious?"
He pulled his head back up straight. He pulled the cigarette from his mouth and let out a stream of smoke. "What about him?" His voice was rough. It was that deep, serious tone that he would use.
"He'll find us Spike." Julia stated. "No matter where we go."
He let out a small sigh, smoke curling in the air. He stood up and dropped his cigarette into the ashtray on his nightstand. He looked at Julia, and they just stared at each other in silence. With one hand in his pocket, he strode over to her. She looked up at him; into the mismatched eyes she missed so much. She missed getting lost in them; she missed the funny feeling she got after staring into them for a while.
Spike raised his free hand to touch her face. Gently running his finger down her jaw. He moved his hand to her hair, silky and soft. Heaven to touch. He cupped the back of her head and tilted her face up closer to his. "We'll worry about that later." He said in a whisper. He leaned down to kiss her, the kiss they both dreamed of and longed for everyday the past three years. The one they'd both been striving for since that day.
* * * * *
Faye sat on the deck of the broken Bebop. Resting her elbow on her knee, and her chin in her hand, she gazed at the all the stars. She was tired, but she couldn't sleep. And to make it worse, she just couldn't ignore or block out the sounds of the lovemaking. It made her sick.
If Jet would just hurry up and fix the ship and the Redtail, she'd go away for a while. Until morning at least. If her ship were working she'd be getting drunk right now. She figured that no matter how good that sounded, it was probably better that she couldn't go.
With a sigh, Faye looked down at Ed's goodbye scribbled across the deck. She envied the kid. She had a place to go besides this tin can. Faye on the other hand, didn't. Which was the only reason she came back. That, and him, but now…She just wanted to leave.
As she lit up a cigarette, she heard the soft patter of feet inside the ship. It was probably just Jet or Ed…No, just Jet getting a snack. That was something they all had a tendency to do at night. She ignored it and went back to her thoughts. She didn't get very far however. The door opened behind her. She held her breath, knowing that someone was there, watching her. A chill went up her back as there was a long silence.
"What are you doing out here?"
She bit her tongue and closed her eyes. It was Spike. The last person she expected it to be. And she really didn't feel like dealing with him now.
"I could be asking you the same thing." Faye replied with irritation.
"Couldn't sleep." Spike walked over and sat down next to her.
Faye smirked. "Well, what a coincidence. Neither could I." She could feel his eyes on her, but she wouldn't look at him.
"Aren't you cold?" He asked softly.
She was a bit taken aback by this question. She looked at him with plain confusion. Why did he come out here? Normally he would have just shrugged his shoulders and went back to bed. But he came out here, and asked if she was cold.
She growled and looked away from him. "As if you'd care!"
Spike sighed. "Well I'm cold."
"Then why don't you go back inside with her?" Faye spat, still not looking at him. "You two sure know how to keep warm."
The silence that fell after that made a huge knot form in her throat. She bit her lip; she wanted to take those words back. Spike didn't say anything; he just stood up and started to walk away, back towards the door.
"Spike…" His footsteps stopped. Faye swallowed and lowered her head. "I'm sorry." She said weakly.
There was another silence. Faye held her breath, waiting for him to reply. But he didn't. There were a couple soft patters of his feet, and then the door slid closed.
She let out a long breath, letting the cigarette fall from her mouth. She started to tremble and she covered her eyes with her hand. She was sorry that she said that to his face. Yet she was screaming it at him in her mind even now. That's all she wanted to do, scream at him. She wanted to let out all her frustration. Just yell and scream at him until her throat is torn. But at the same time she wanted to chase after him and beg for forgiveness.
At least he didn't slam the door.
* * * * *
Spike closed his door behind him with a soft click. He looked over at Julia, wrapped in the sheets of the bed and the dark shadows spilling over her angelic form. It a sight he truly missed.
"Where'd you go?" Julia asked sleepily as she sat up.
He smiled at her voice. So soft and warm, like a mid summer breeze. "I just went for a snack."
Julia smiled faintly and closed her eyes halfway. "Come here." Spike walked over and sat on the bad. Julia reached up and gently put her hand I his hair. She rested her forehead against his; staring into his two tone eyes. "Where will we go?" She whispered. "Where can we be alone, away from everyone? What place can we go where it will be like watching a dream?"
He stared back at her, gazing into her deep blue eyes. He softly stroked her face. "We'll find it. It's out there, we just have to find it."
Julia leaned back and removed her hand from his hair. She stared at him "No matter where we go, Vicious will find us. You know that Spike."
Spike stood up and went to the window. He stared out at the desert around them in silence. "Yeah." He said in that low, soft voice. "I know. And I'll be waiting for him."
She stepped off the bed and stood behind him. "He'll kill you Spike."
He smiled a little. "That's what you said last time. And I'm still here, three years later."
"Things were different then. He's the leader of the Red Dragons now." Julia reminded him calmly. "He'll have his men looking for us on every planet." She lowered her head. "How can we live in a dream if we're being hunted? If everywhere we go we have to carry a gun and look over our shoulder?" She looked up at his reflection in the window. "We can't go anywhere until Vicious is dead."
Spike closed his eyes. "I already told you Julia, I'll be ready for him. And when he finds us, I'll kill him. It won't be long now."
"So what do we do until then?" She asked.
He opened his eyes again to gaze out at the red landscape. "We stay here. Right here on Mars."
* * * * *
She was getting bored. She tossed the stupid magazine to the floor and rested on her hand. There was nothing to do in this place. And the atmosphere was different now that Ed and Ein were gone and Julia came on board. Why did everything have to be so broken? She needed to go to a bar, bad. And maybe a casino before or after.
"Hey Faye," Jet said as he walked in, still leaning on the crutch to support his leg. "Has Spike come back yet?"
Faye looked at him. "He got back last night. And he brought Julia with him."
His back straightened and he stiffened. "Julia?" Then he relaxed and a soft smile spread across his lips. "So he finally found her, huh? That's good, I'm happy for him."
She stood up abruptly. "Yeah that's fantastic Jet." She said with sarcasm. "Is the Redtail fixed yet?"
"No, not yet." Jet shook his head. "I was gonna ask Spike to help me out with it, with my leg being the way it is."
Faye snorted. "Sure, if you can pry him from his precious Julia."
Jet raised an eyebrow at her. "What's with you?"
She looked away from him. "Nothing." She whispered, looking down. "Nothing at all."
* * * * *
Julia walked into the main room to find Faye sitting on the couch. Spike and Jet were both working in the hanger and she had nothing to do. Besides, she and Spike were going to be here for a while. Might as well get to know Spike's friends, the ones he's been living with. Besides, Faye helped her out a lot back on Mars. She owed her a lot.
She sat on the opposite end of the couch. "Hi Faye."
Faye quickly glanced at her from the corner of her eye. "Hi."
"I wanted to thank you for helping me out on Mars."
She shrugged. "It was nothing I couldn't handle."
"I, also wanted to thank you for relaying my message to Spike." Julia added. "If it weren't for you, Spike and I probably would have never seen each other again. I owe you everything."
Faye's breath caught in her chest. Was it really because of her that Spike and Julia were reunited? She thought about it, and then came to the conclusion that it was true. It made her sick to her stomach. If she hadn't given Julia's message to Spike, Julia wouldn't be here. And Faye would have him all to herself. Well…sort of…
She realized that Julia was waiting for her to respond. So she shrugged and kept her eyes on her magazine. "Sure." She mumbled. "No problem."
And you're not welcome.
"Faye?" Julia said her name to get her attention. Faye turned her head to face the woman. Julia had this empty look on her face. Empty, blank and emotionless. Just like Spike does it.
"What is it?" Faye finally asked.
Julia smiled her soft little smile. "Could I have a cigarette please? I ran out."
Faye just stared at her. She wanted to jump up and scream, 'heck no!' But part of her still liked Julia. So instead she smiled and laughed softly. "Sure!"
* * * * *
Spike wiped some oil off his face. He frowned. This was so lame; it was Faye's ship. Why didn't she help fix it? "Jet, this isn't fair." He complained.
"Oh quit complaining you big baby." Jet said with a roll of his eyes. "Faye's bandaged you up twice and it saved your life. I think you owe her at least this much."
"Is that what this is about?" Spike asked. "You coulda just told me. I would have-"
"No Spike, that's not why I asked you to help me." Jet interrupted.
Spike frowned again as he looked at Jet. "Then why did you?"
Jet's face scrunched up with anger and frustration. "Because the quick I get the Redtail fixed, the sooner Faye will go and find something to amuse herself. Then she won't be pestering me and I'll finally be able to fix the Bebop so we can get off Mars! And besides, it's not like you do much work around here anyway."
Spike didn't really plan on telling Jet what his and Julia's plans were concerning Vicious. But if Jet got the Bebop fixed before Vicious showed up, he might have to. And he really didn't want to have to.
You better hurry up Vicious.
"So Spike," Jet said, breaking Spike from his thoughts. "Where's Julia? I want to meet her when we're done."
"Oh, she's around here somewhere." Spike answered with a light sigh.
Jet smiled a little. "Does she like bell peppers and beef, without the beef?"
Spike chuckled. "Couldn't tell ya. Guess we'll have to find out, huh?"
Jet also chuckled. "Guess so." He stood up and cleaned his hands off best he could with a rag. He leaned on Faye's ship for support, since his crutch was out of reach. He watched as Spike lit up a cigarette. "What're you gonna do now that you found her?" Jet asked quietly.
Spike blew out a stream of smoke and shrugged. "I don't know. Never really thought about it."
"Well," Jet grunted as he grabbed his crutch. "You're welcome to stay here as long as you like. The longer the better."
Spike smiled. "Thanks Jet."
* * * * *
After Jet had set the food out for everyone, he took a seat next to Faye. Julia blinked at the bell peppers a couple times, then glanced at Spike who was already digging in. She shrugged and started to eat. Faye kept her eyes on her food and only her food. She didn't want to look at Julia or Spike right now. After she had given Julia a cigarette earlier, she excused herself and locked herself in her room.
"So Julia," Jet began. "Spike hasn't really told us about you. Why don't you tell us about yourself?"
Spike instantly halted his eating. He glanced at Julia, but she had her eyes on Jet. "There's not much to tell really. You already know all there is to know."
"Well, I won't pry." Jet said with a shrug. "Keep to yourself if you want."
"Why don't you?" Faye said in a small voice. All eyes moved to her. She snapped her head up to glare at Spike and Julia. "Why don't you tell us all about it? Tell us how you met!"
Jet was glaring at her. "Faye…"
She kept going. "Tell us how you knew Vicious and how you all became enemies! Tell us about your past!"
Spike and Julia only stared at her in silence. They both had the same look. Long and blank, totally empty. It was bone chilling. And it completely pissed her off.
Faye bit back her anger as she stood up. "Fine. Keep to yourselves for all I care." She turned on her heel and walked out of the room.
She headed straight for the bathroom. Once she closed and locked the door, she leaned against it and sighed. A quick, cold shiver ran down her spine. She shook it off and pulled off her cloths. She started the shower and steeped in. As soon as the water hit her skin, she let out a yelp and rushed out of the shower. Her teeth chattered as she dried herself with a towel. She cursed.
Stupid Julia had used all the hot water.
* * * * *
Spike looked back at his food. Faye had pissed him off enough the night before with her little comment. And now she was only making it worse. She always was rude and inconsiderate. But what she just did was going too far. And if she did it again…
"Sorry about that." Jet said to Julia. "She's been through a lot lately. She's not usually like that."
Julia nodded. "I understand."
"No," Spike put down his fork. "She's like that every day. She can be a real pain in the butt sometimes." Julia looked at him and Jet glared at him.
Jet spoke up again. "Anyway, it's just one of those days for her." He took his plate and stood up. "I have a ship to repair." And he left.
Julia looked back at her half eaten food. "Is this how you've been living Spike?"
"Yeah, pretty much." He answered as he stretched his legs out in front of him. "It's not all that bad actually." His voice lowered. "Better than my blood stained life with the Syndicate."
She turned to face him. "Spike, what's your relationship with Faye?"
His eyes shot open. "Relationship?!"
"I'm only asking because of what just happened. She's very upset."
Spike studied her before answering. "There is no relationship, Julia. She's a team mate we never wanted."
"You don't care about her at all?"
"Then why did you go to save her from Vicious?"
Spike sat up and looked straight at Julia. "I went for Vicious, not for Faye. You know that."
They stared at each other in silence. Julia let out a small sigh. "Oh Spike…" She leaned into him, hiding her face in his neck." I've just missed you so much." She whispered.
"Yeah…" His wrapped his arms around her. "I've missed you too."
"How long will we have to wait?" She asked quietly. "When will he come?"
"I don't know."
"Spike, I don't know how long I can wait." Julia said, looking up at him. "I've been waiting to see you again for three years. I'm tired of waiting."
He cupped her face with his hand. "Just a few more days Julia. He'll come."
So? What'd you think? Feed back is very welcome! ^_^ I want to know how I did and what you guys think of it so far. Good? Bad? Really Good, or Really Bad? HORRIBLE or TERRIFIC??? Just right or way off? Okay I think you guys get the point, sorry about that! ^_^ Just be kind, okay? Thanks! Chapter 2 is in the works, and is being done very quickly! It will be up soon, so check back soon! ^_~