Epilogue17th July (evening)
(Note: Song is Possession by Sarah McLachlan, I only used bits though).
And I would be the one
To hold you down
And kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close your eyes, dear
"Tomorrow…" she said softly to herself. "Tomorrow…damn it."
"Honey, did you say something?" asked Angel.
"Yeah, but it doesn't matter. Just thinking out loud."
Buffy rolled over onto her side and faced Angel. He smiled sleepily at her, Buffy reached out and touched the side of his face.
"Thank you, Angel. For everything."
"It was my pleasure. What's wrong?" he said more seriously and more awake. Angel propped himself up using his elbow. "Buffy…?"
"Just worried. Still worried and won't stop worrying for the foreseeable future. But at least I don't have to worry about you or us. That's a huge relief, let me tell you."
"It is. And I'm worried about tomorrow too."
Buffy sighed in frustration and fell back onto her back. "This is a majorly screwed up situation and I can't think of a way to make it better or easier. I have so many what ifs going through my head. What if they try and drag me back to Sunnydale? What if they find and bring Riley here with them? What if they never speak to me again? What if you-"
Angel suddenly kissed her out of nowhere. Buffy didn't mind of course, she out her arms tightly around his neck and pulled him closer.
"That was nice of you." She said smiling as they pulled away. "You sure know how to make me feel better, don't you?"
"And succeed in every way." Buffy looked at the clock on the bedside table. "Oh, crap. Look at the time."
"Why, what time is it?"
"Dinner. I'm hungry. You wanna make me something?"
"Sure." He sat up and swung his legs over the edge of the bed. Buffy also sat up and watched Angel as he got dressed, after he put his pants on, Angel turned to his fiancé. "You're gonna have to learn how to cook."
"One day I will, but who wants to cook when their wonderful boy – oops – fiancé can do it for them?"
He considered the question. "Fine, I won't cook then."
Buffy glared and threw the pillow at him, Angel easily ducked and left the room chuckling.
Through this world I've stumbled
So many times betrayed
Trying to find an honest word
To find the truth enslaved
Oh, you speak to me in riddles
And you speak to me in rhymes
My body aches to breathe your breath
Your words keep me alive
Buffy watched Angel make their dinner from where she was sitting on a chair in the kitchen. It still amazed her that he was human, that they were together, that she could kiss him, tell him that she loved him without feeling bad or hating that they can't have more.
I'm getting married to that man. She thought, happily. Finally we can have that ending we've wanted for so long. But it's not the end. Nope, it's the beginning of our life together.
"Did you speak to your sister?"
"Yeah, she picked up the phone. I told her the good news, at least she thinks it's good news too."
"Pity Dawn's not coming tomorrow then. We could use another person on our side."
"We've got Cordy, remember. She's like having three people on our team. Plus, I reckon we can swing at least one of them. I'm hoping Giles acts grown up about it."
He sighed and looked into her eyes. Such sadness. Such remorse, they hadn't lost their haunted, guilty look yet. It made Buffy's heart ache.
"Buffy, they have every reason to be upset. To be angry at both of us, most of all me. They have every right to hate me. I hurt them all. Let's-"
"What? No. You didn't hurt anybody, Angel. I know you better than anyone, and you would never do that."
"Are you kidding? I know that you regard me and Angelus to be different, but he's in here. He and I are essentially one and the same-"
"I refuse to believe that."
"And I love you for it. I really do, but-"
"No." she said firmly. "I don't want to hear what comes after that 'but.' I love you, not that monster. If you are the same like you say, does that mean I love him too, because you're him! Do you think that I could love him!" she cried, tears coming to her eyes.
"No. You couldn't." replied Angel, tears filling his own eyes.
"So, that means you're wrong. You and Angelus are not the same. I don't, I can't love something without a soul. You have a soul, the most beautiful one I've ever met. For as long as we're together, I don't want to hear you say that every again."
"Buffy, I'm sorry." He ran to her side and put his arms tightly around her small body. Buffy cried into his shoulder. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I love you, you know that I do."
"I know. Angel, I love you so much."
"Hey," he pulled back and wiped the tears from her cheeks. "No more tears." Angel smiled at her. That half-smile that makes me forget to breathe. "No more."
"No more. For a while anyway."
"Come on. I'll make the rest of dinner, we can eat it, then have a wonderful night together before the Inquisition shows up tomorrow and ruins our fun."
"Sounds like a good plan." Buffy smiled and hugged him.
Angel smiled and they let each other go. He went back to making the dinner for two. At least we can be happy for the moment…I hope it lasts for as long as possible…
Into this night I wander
It's morning that I dread
Another day of knowing
Of the path I fear to tread
Oh, into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
Nothing stands between us here
And I won't be denied
Riley Finn sat in a room by himself, he hated himself for being by himself. Buffy's meant to be with him, according to the ex-commando, but she's with the vampire. No, he's not a vampire anymore. Angel is a human.
"Human…that thing can't be human. He may have a heart beat and might not drink blood anymore. But he's not human, it takes more than that to be a human."
Riley Finn looked at the object lying next to him on the bed. His revenge on the monster that took his Buffy from him would soon be complete. He picked up the gun from the bed and laughed.
I'll hold you down
Kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
Just close you eyes…
Coming soon…Nothing But Heartache, the 2nd in the trilogy. Thank you so much for reading this fic in it's entirety. Don't forget to review, I'd love to hear from you, Maddy.