I'm not going to say much except that this idea's been bugging me for the last couple of days and I finally sat down and wrote it all out in one- shot. *whew* It was fun though. I hope you like it and please, no flames. This is a slash between Eric and Steven. Just in case you didn't read the summary thing and got here because you thought the title was cool. Read on!


Part One: Reality Check

I had never thought that any one of us would die before we were old. I never thought that it would be Donna. I never thought that it wouldn't be me.

I admit it. I mean, I am skinny, and a dork, and stupid sometimes, but really, why did I get left behind? Why did Donna, who everybody loved, have to go?

Hyde came down into the basement the night after and found me sitting there in front of the TV. Not really watching it, but just having it on. He didn't say anything but he turned the TV off and led me back upstairs. I never forgot that night.

It all happened so fast really. I'm holding our engagement band in my hand. I don't want it. I throw it across the room. I should get up and find it, bring it to the jewelry store, make sure I don't loose it. But I don't care. I let my head fall down into the pillows.

There's a knock at the door. I pretend I don't exist. The last thing I want is someone to comfort me. They can't say anything; they don't know enough. They can't help.

It's Hyde. He doesn't say anything, just sits on the end of the bed and waits. He knows how to wait. He's never been very good with words.
So he just sits there, waiting. I feel like a millennia has passed before I move so that he's hugging me. I'm crying and I can't help it. Hyde's there just rocking me, whispering into my hair that it's going to be all right. But how can it be all right? Nothing can go back to the way it was before. Jackie won't have anyone to talk to anymore. No one will punch Kelso for me again. No one with red hair is going to laugh and play basketball with us like any other guy-

And the list goes on.

Most of all, there will be no Donna for us to miss.

It's really late now, probably past midnight. I know Red and Kitty are asleep and that Hyde probably should be too. But I don't want him to leave. I don't want the light to be turned off. I don't want to be alone right now.

As if anticipating my thoughts, Hyde shifts a little and answers them.

"Go to sleep man, I'll be right here. I have to sleep in this same house, might as well sleep in your room." He pushes me over and we both lay stretched out on my bed. Me in yesterday's jeans and shirt and Hyde in a pair of sweats and an ACDC t-shirt. Two totally different worlds mixed together because we're both too scared to be alone. One too proud to admit it, and the other too scared to care.

I guess I'm not really alone.

But it feels like it.