A/N: Hi everyone!!! Guess what? I'm sooo obsessed with Gravitation!!! I've watched the first ten episodes, the two OAVs, and read six volumes of the manga!!!! Oh, oh, and read 13 pages of fanfiction!!!!!!! You have to be proud of me!!!! And after reading all those, I've come to the conclusion that angst is good. In fact, it's better than good, it's..._divine_! Okay, enough exclamations, onto disclaimers.

Disclaimers: What'd I tell you? It's disclaimer time!!! *sniffles* *sobs* Me don't own anyone...*sniffles*

~*~ Never Look Back ~*~

-Prologue-

His hand clutched tightly at the thin slip of paper. It was his only source of support at the moment, the ticket that'll pull him out of this big...tangled...mess...

***

"The beef meal, Shindou-san?"

He smiled softly and shook his head.

"Chicken, please."

A small black tray of food was set gently before him.

"You know, Shindou-san, I've always been an avid fan of yours, so, if it isn't too bothersome, would you mind-"

"Your name?"

"Eh? H-Haru, Takani Haru!"

"An autograph for Haru-chan then?"

"Hai!"

Her look of happiness was so great that it allowed his heart to lift momentarily and discard those worries which had irritated him so.

***

Hot, scalding tears rolled down his colorless cheeks as he strained to catch what tidbits of sound drifted through the slight opening of the door...sounds that just added to the layers of pain which had begun forming around his happy, carefree heart.

Of course, he had known there was someone else in the house the moment he crept in. Looking back at it now, he wondered why he had crept in at all. Maybe if he had announced himself as loudly as he usually did, there would be enough time for them to stop their...-activities-, cover it up, and keep him in the dark. After all, who are they to deny him the bliss called ignorance?

But alas, fate was such that he -had- crept in, -had- wanted to surprise his boyfriend, that heartless block of ice, -had- snuck soundlessly to the bedroom door, -had- peeked through that little crack in the door, and finally, -had- discovered that the love of his life was cheating on him.

Oh yes, -cheating- on -him- with his boss's boss, that tyrannical dictator, Seguchi Tohma.

He should have guessed. Indeed, he had spotted Tohma's shiny, spotless, expensive black boots in the doorway, and since the smiling blonde had not been residing in the living room, as guests were bound to do, nor had he been anywhere else in the house, it was only plausible that he should be in the only place Shuichi had not searched yet: Yuki's room.

With Yuki.

On the bed.

***

With cold, blank violet eyes, Shindo Shuichi, one of the greatest vocalists Japan has ever known, stared out the window of the airplane at the endless blue sky and the occasional puff of cloud that dotted it. The flight attendant had left happily with his autograph and moved on to serve other customers, leaving him, once again, to solitude and loneliness.

***

"Yuki," he stated softly. "I'm going to America."

Silence filled the room as a certain blonde gazed intently at his beloved laptop, not really taking in what was going on around him.

"Yuki...Yuki, did you-"

"Shut up, brat. I'm trying to write, you're annoying me."

At this point, Shuichi couldn't help but have the thought 'well, love for writing certainly didn't stop you from taking time to sleep with Tohma' pass through his head. But he kept it to himself. He couldn't let Yuki know he knew, because that would just...

"Sorry."

The writer nodded slightly, eyes still trained on the bright screen. He could have screamed when the pink one besides him started talking again.

"Anyway, I just thought I'd let you know. Sakano-san informed me today that Sakuma-san's company in the U.S. said they'd accept me, and that Sakuma-san would be more than happy to have me stay with him. So there you have it. The contract goes for about three years, and I'll be leaving in a week, after the work's been all done and we inform the media about my departure. So um..."

"Are you done?"

"Uh..."

"If you're done speaking, get out. This chapter's due tomorrow."

Shuichi stared in shock at his boyfriend's indifference to the news. Of course, he hadn't expected anything particularly big, the one discussed being Yuki and all, but still...wasn't he...wasn't he just the slightest bit more important than some -chapter in a book-?

"Apparently not," he thought sadly, barely able to contain the incoming flood of tears.

He wouldn't have guessed that not a word of his explanation had went through Yuki's thick skull (which, by the way, was focusing on whether the heroine should be run over with a car or be drowned in a lake). Not that that wouldn't have lightened him up anyway.

"Well," he whispered softly at the door, "I guess this is...good bye."

"Good night," came the reply, not quite registering the 'bye' and putting 'night' in its stead.

***

"Hiro, will you miss me?"

"Yeah."

"Will you really miss me?"

"Yeah."

"Will you really really really miss me?"

"Yeah."

"Will you really really really really really really-"

"Just shut up."

At this point, Shuichi was enveloped in a tight, suffocating hug, a hug so comforting and familiar, that he couldn't help but burst into a whole new batch of tears.

"Yuki won't miss me, I bet," he managed through his sobs. "I bet he doesn't even know I'm gone! He-he..."

"Shhhh...don't talk about him now. Just forget about him."

"Hiro?"

"Hmm?"

"I'll miss you. A lot. I'll really really really really really really miss you."

"I know."

"Will you miss me too?"

"Yeah."

"Will you really really-"

***

Smiling slightly at the memory of his best friend and the irritation he faced with all those 'reallys', Shuichi felt just the slightest bit better.

"Well, I guess this is good bye to Japan...Hiro...Fujisaki, K, Sakano-san, Maiko, Okaa-san, Otou-san...Yuki."

~*~ End of Prologue ~*~

To be continued...

End Notes: WAHHHHH!!! I FINISHED THE PROLOGUE!!! DESPITE THE FACT THAT I WAS INTERRUPTED ALL THOES TIMES BY MY FRIEND WHO'S PLAYING THE VIOLIN IN THE -SAME- ROOM AS ME, AND HER LITTLE BROTHER WHO'S PLAYING THE PIANO JUST OUTSIDE THE ROOM!!!!!!!!!!! BE PROUD OF ME!!!!!!!!!

Okay, PLLLEEEAAASSSSEEEEE REVIEW AND SHOW ME YOUR SUPPORT!!!

Oh, and also, should it be Yuki x Shuichi or Ryuichi x Shuichi? Hmm...or maybe even...SHUICHI X K!!!!!!! No, just kidding. ^-^ K's going with Shuichi to America, by the way, since he's his manager and all...