Nothing Else Matters II
Your love is a Thorn Without a Rose
by Tituba Parris
I'm as dry as a seven-year drought
I got dust for tears
And I'm all tapped out
(Sometimes I feel broken and can´t get fixed)
I know there´s been all kinds of shoes underneath your bed
Now I sleep with my boots on but you´re still in my head
(And something tells me this time I'm down to my last licks)
´Cause if it´s over, Then it´s over
She had given up her pride. Had given up her families respect and love. Had even given up her father's approval to be with him. To be with a Sayijin. She watched as the purple sheets on her bed wavered in front of her eyes. Lately, she hadn't found much to be thankful for. She had one feeling of gratitude though. She was so grateful that her family would let her be with them. Even if nothing could ever be the same, she could at least glimpse at the people who loved her before she had went to Earth. The people who pushed her to be a great warrior, and who would have protected her with their lives some where in time.
Goten... I don't know what to do. She thought of their first time together. It doesn't matter. She could have laughed at her stupidity. How could she believe a Sayijin would be interested in her for long? She didn't even look like him! For god's sake she wasn't even his species!
I've been waiting for you. Memories flooded her mind, and with a disgusting clarity she remembered what was now her shame. I love you Goten. she had said those words with such innocence, unknowing of her future.
I've never met anyone like you. Their horrible dialog replayed itself. She shuddered in the memory that she gave herself to some one who didn't care. She panted, needing air but not wanting it. I love you. Her heart jerked inside her chest, twisting painfully in her thoughts. Let me fight fight for my lady, for you. I want you to marry me. Then at least I'll be out be out there in a battle for a cause worth fighting for. He had made her believe him heart and soul. He probably thought he was being truthful at the time. He just needed someone to warm his heart after being casually thrown aside by some girl that didn't want him.
When she thought of it. She didn't blame Parisu for what happened. Parisu had nothing to do with Goten's actions. Goten himself was. Yet strangely, she didn't blame him either. Goten was still so young in his mind and didn't seem to fully grasp everything around him. Scarlet could only blame herself.
I shouldn't have got so caught up in it all. She smiled up at her ceiling. He loved me as his friend I think... and he just took that the wrong way. The feeling was so different for me... I love daddy, but this is different. With a realization she knew she could not shake she knew that she still loved him. It was so hard to believe. She still loved him, no matter what he did, no matter the consequences she suffered, she loved him. Oh, just let me have strength to forget him. She prayed. Please let me have the strength to survive without him here with me.
* * *
And it´s driving me insane
Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who twists the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find there´s nothing there girl
Yeah I swear, I'm telling you girl yeah ´cause
There´s a hole in my soul that´s been killing me forever
It´s a place where a garden never grows
There´s a hole in my soul, Yeah, I should have known better
´Cause your love´s like a thorn without a rose
It was five months now since her wedding and still she hadn't forgotten him. It was so hard now that he father was gone. Her grandfather would openly insult her now. Would say he would teach her something she would never forget. She didn't care though. Nothing else mattered to her anymore. Her heart beat for no one, she even selfishly wouldn't let it beat for her father who had lost so much. Daddy is a survivor... he loved mommy so much. Yet, he got over her for me.
"Why do you continue to shame up by staying?" Her grandfather's voice boomed into her ears. "It would have been better if you had died after you sent us away from Earth so you could be with that disgusting monkey." He sneered at her. "If you were so desperate I would have solved your problem for you."
Scarlet couldn't believe it... but she could feel even more sickened by her grandfather. He had just told her that he would have taken her. It made her want to throw up.
Kold sensed her disapproval at his statement. "What? Not good enough for you? I guess you like to make love to animals more than you like to with people." he grabbed her by the arm and jerked her close to him, and she looked up frightened. "I should you know... your not worth your weight here anymore. Your nothing to us... I don't know why you even bother living here anymore." He took her pink face in his hand, squishing her cheeks cruelly.
A flood of depression consumed her body, as did a growing awareness that her grandfather might just carry out his threats. He was going to hurt her, and he was going to enjoy it. There was nothing she could do to stop him unless she transformed. He seemed to have read her thoughts because in that instant her reached behind her and shattered her tail. She let out a high pitched shriek that was quickly muffled by his mouth. She started to kick at him, claw at his face, but she couldn't fight him in her state of pain and agony. Whenever she would try to defend herself he would just hurt her again. He ran his tongue across her teeth and twisted her tail again. Soon she had a growing expectance to what was happening to her. The pain would stop as long as she would remain still and do as he said.
His hand reached for the back of her neck and made her to look at him. "Think of all the fun we'll have." These were his last words before he forced her to the floor.
* * *
"Are you feeling better my dear?" Frieza asked for the hundredth time. Scarlet only nodded her head shakily. Kold wouldn't kill her father as long as she wouldn't speak. As long as she wouldn't speak. "Please... talk soon my little darling." Frieza took her in his arms and rocked her as if she were but a small child. "Please do not let that Sayijin's betrayal consume you."
But father... it is so much more than that now.
* * *
Scarlet watched she odd power in the bottle as if fluffed around in it's casing. She had smuggled it into the palace. No one would know... until tomorrow morning. Then she would be gone. She popped the cork to the small thing and choked down it's contents with a glass of water. She placed the little glass object down with a small "Tink."-ing sound. She curled up on her bed, raising the covers up above her face, looking at the light that shined through the purple sheet. That old lamp that he father had given her when she was but a baby. It wasn't too late to turn back was it? No, she wouldn't. It was better this way. Soon she would never think of Goten again... and he father would be safe. Goten... my dearest... my love... I'm so sorry that I wasn't the one for you. I hope you will not be sad by my passing, I hope you never learn of this and remember me the way I was forever. I hope you have a happy life with the one that could give you love and children to seal that bond. Something I could never have given you.
She closed her eyes, and with a smile on her lips, she took her last breath, and exhaled it very slowly, her last thoughts were of Goten. A single tear rolled down her face. Nothing else matters... except for you...
* * *
Scarlet's eyes fluttered. When she looked up she saw Goten standing above her with a worried look on his face.
Scarlet is crying for some reason. I wonder what is happening to her? Goten thought. "Scarlet... wake up... you've had a fever for the past few days. It's almost gone... you can get up now." He nudged her. "What?" She eyes opened fully to see his face. "Was that j-just a dream?" She asked shakily, her voice sound almost too hopeful. "You didn't leave me for Parisu right?"
"Oh that? Of course I left you for Parisu!" Goten tittered.
"What?!" Scarlet felt as if she had been torn from one night mare and been strategically placed in another.
"Yeah... and you know what? That's not all!" He tore his skin off to reveal her uncle... Kooler?! "Surprise!" He blew the her bangs back with his mighty yell. "Fooled you didn't I?!"
* * *
Scarlet woke up with a start. Her uncle.... really Goten?! Whoa that's way past weird! Well... considering her uncle's love for pranks anything was possible. She felt someone touching her in familiar places, she looked beside her. A hand curled over her shoulder and brought her closer to him. His face was a sleepy one, yet so full of love and contentment she was almost afraid to speak.
"You must have had a bad dream." He said knowingly, he calmed her with warm kisses to her lips and neck before settling her down beside him again. Covering her with the warmth of his body.
"Yes... a very bad dream." She snuggled her face against his chest, blushing. "I love you Son Go-chan."
"I love you too." He smiled, resting his chin on the top of her head, breathing in the scent of her hair. "Always."
ha-HA! Got you didn't I?! You should know better than to believe everything I write! *Laughs* You all probably think I'm an asshole right now for doing that but I just could resist! Have fun with the next chapters in my stories!