This is a little dark, but I don't think it's that bad. Of course that could just be me. I haven't really written anything like this before though, but I wanted to try something different. If ya'll would actually be interested in reading this let me know how I did with it. I guess it would take place after "Shells" and I changed a few things. Wesley isn't the one that shot Knox and you'll have to read to find out who did it. I know it would be a bit hard to believe, but this is just my messed up mind. Angel never called Giles to ask for Willow's help. Wesley also never stabbed Gunn because that just wasn't cool. Also, ignore everything that Andrew said about the gang. I really did things differently. I also have Buffy in it like you've never seen her before. I'm sure it will be confusing, hell I even confused myself and it probably won't make much sense at first, but all shall be revealed. Don't hate me; this is just one of my many moods. I'm obviously just making everything up, like it could really happen on the show. Like I said, I just wanted to do something different. It's not long either because I wasn't planning on doing much with it. Wow, that is a long paragraph. Anyway, it's still Buffy and Spike, more or less. I think it's time that everyone knows how truly evil I can be, love ya=)

Chapter 1

Angel and Spike were pacing around his office waiting for Wesley to return. They were all taking Fred's death hard because she was a good friend to everyone, but they didn't know what Wesley would do. He finally was with Fred after all this time and to have her suddenly get taken away from him was something that had to be very difficult. They knew how much he loved her, how much he has always loved her. Wesley then walked into his office and Angel looked at his friend. "Where is she?" He asked him.

"She is being detained in the lab. I have decided to help her adjust to this world, maybe bring some humanity back into her." Angel and Spike looked at each other and then back at Wesley.

"Wes, I know you think you're doing the right thing, but she's not Fred. Nothing you do can bring her back." Wesley ran his hands through his hair.

"I know she's not Fred, but she came to me for help and I can't deny her that. I still feel that a part of Fred is still inside of her. I have to do this." Angel nodded and put a comforting hand on his shoulder.

"We're here for you, mate." Spike told him and Wesley gave him a small smile.

"I almost forgot. We still don't know who shot Knox, not that I'm sorry about it or anything. Are you sure it wasn't you, Wes?" Angel asked and Wesley shook his head.

"As much as I would have had pleasure of that, it wasn't me. Someone else fired a gun from behind me before I even got a chance to. I didn't see who it was." He told them.

"We have to find out who did this. We need to know who else we're dealing with here. I may have hated the little bastard, but I still have a no killing policy. If it was someone else from Wolfram and Hart they need to be found and dealt with." Angel stated and they both agreed.

"Why don't I save you the trouble." They all turned at the familiar voice to see Buffy standing there, but it wasn't a Buffy that they remembered. She was wearing a black shirt with a black leather jacket and tight leather pants along with leather boots. Her hair was long and instead of her usual blonde color it was a very dark color.

"Buffy? What happened to you, I mean what are you doing here?" Angel said still not believing that she was standing there. Spike couldn't believe that this was his Buffy. She looked amazing, but something about her didn't seem right. Buffy just reached into her pocket and pulled out a gun, she then handed it to Wesley.

"Take it, that was a one time thing. I'm not using it anymore, not much of a gun person." Wesley was too surprised to say anything as he took the gun from her. Angel then thought about what she said.

"It was you, wasn't it? You shot Knox." Angel said and Spike wouldn't believe it.

"Don't be bloody insane. She would never do that." Spike said trying to defend her. He turned his gaze back to Buffy and she had a cold look on her face.

"If you're talking about that annoying Scientist guy then yeah, I did that." Spike was surprised and so were the others.

"Why would you do that?" Wesley asked still not believing it and all she did was shrug.

"Well, to be honest he was kinda pissing me off. I could tell that he was evil and besides, looks like you were about to off him yourself. I just beat you to it." Angel didn't know what to think.

"What's going on with you? You don't kill people, Buffy. That's not you, even if they are evil." Buffy just shrugged again.

"I'm not the same person I was, a lot has changed and he wasn't the first. I don't seem to care about a lot these days. I do what I want and if some poor bad guy gets in the way then so be it. It's not like I'm taking innocent lives." They still couldn't believe what they were hearing.

"The Buffy I know would never say that." Spike stated and Buffy glared at him.

"The Buffy you know is dead and she's never coming back. I'm here for a reason and I'm not leaving until I get what I came for." She told them with a harsh tone.

"Why are you here?" Wesley asked her and she then turned her gaze on him.

"I'm actually here to help you. I know all about Illyria and about what happened to Fred and I'm here to bring her back and destroy Illyria in the process." Wesley was now intrigued.

"How can you do that?" Buffy crossed her arms over her chest.

"I know of a way to take Illyria out of Fred and put her into another body, one that would easily kill her." She told them and they all looked at each other not sure what to think.

"You have any bodies in mind because I don't think anyone sane would volunteer for that." Spike replied and she looked at him.

"Yes, I was talking about me." Spike's eyes grew big as he looked at her.

"You can't be serious. If you do that you'll die, Buffy." Spike told her a little upset and Buffy looked at him and for a second she seemed like the old Buffy again.

"That's the idea. I'm going to offer my life in exchange for Fred's." Spike didn't like where she was going with this.

"We all want Fred back, but not if it means losing you. You can't be serious about this, Buffy. I don't know what happened to you, but this isn't you talking. Just think about your friends and Dawn, you can't leave them again." Buffy's look hardened as she looked at him.

"I don't care, I have to do this." Spike looked like he wanted to knock some sense into her.

"How can you be so cold hearted all of a sudden? You don't know what they had to go through the last time you died and you can't put them through that again. Why are you doing this?" Spike asked and Buffy lost her patience.

"You really wanna know? I'm doing it because there's no one left. So, it won't make much of a difference because they're all dead." They all seemed stunned after her explanation and Spike didn't want to believe it.

"Dawn?" He asked in a low voice.

"She's dead and now I'm dead too." Spike didn't know what else to say when Angel spoke up.

"How did it happen?" He asked also in a low voice and Buffy looked at him.

"There was a fire at the new Watcher's Council. They were all inside when it happened and as far as I know there were no survivors. If I was there I might have been able to stop it or at least get them out, but I wasn't. They all died because of me. I just can't do this anymore. I was supposed to have a normal life, but that got shot to Hell. I mean just look at me. I turned into someone that I don't even recognize anymore. I might as well be dead inside because that's how I feel. The power inside of me is too strong and it's turning me into something that I hate. I want it all to end. I know of a way to take Illyria out of Fred and put her in my body. The power that I have inside would be too much for her and it would destroy her along with me. I just can't be here; I want it all to be over. I don't have anything to live for anymore." Buffy stated and Angel and Wesley didn't know what to say. Spike just looked at her and couldn't believe everything that happened.

"What about me?" Spike said and she turned to look at him. "I can't lose you again, Buffy. I love you, I never stopped and I don't think I could." Buffy walked closer to him.

"I'm sorry, but it's not enough anymore. You didn't seem like you were all that interested in finding me. I guess you didn't want to." Spike shook his head.

"That's not true." He told her even though he knew it wouldn't be enough.

"Wait, you said you have a lot of power in you. I'm guessing you mean more than just Slayer power." Angel said and Buffy looked at him.

"No, I'm not a Slayer anymore. I can tell you one thing about what's inside of me. It's not human." With that she grabbed Angel's shirt in one hand and lifted him off of the ground. "I'm doing what I came here for and no one is getting in my way." She said as she threw Angel into the wall. Wesley tried to attack her but she kicked him and sent him flying into the wall also. She then turned to Spike.

"I don't want to hurt you, Buffy." Buffy's eyes then turned black as she raised her hand and this blue energy ball came out of it. She looked at it and then back at Spike.

"Like you could." She stated in a sinister voice and then threw the energy ball at Spike. It hit him and he also flew into a wall. She looked at the three unconscious men around her. "I'm sorry it had to be this way, but you just don't understand." She said as she walked out of the office.