Love is Cruel

By ArtikGato

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. If I did, KIKYO NO BAKA WOULD BE BURNING IN HELL!!!

Author's Notes: This is a bit different from my usual stories about fluffy romance or insane humor. This is an angst story from Kagome's point of view, about Inuyasha (of course). I was inspired to write this because I am in a (kinda) similar situation to Kagome's right now, and I recently had to come to terms with my feelings toward a certain Inuyasha in my life.

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Why?

Every time you see her, you always walk away in such pain. I can see it. You may not cry, you may put on a somewhat cheerful face, or if you are particularly saddened, an angry or blank face, but I know that inside you are crying, full of pain and sadness. Why do you keep going to see her when you know what it will do to you? You say that it makes you happy to be near her, but how can she make you happy when you are in such pain afterwards? Has love really made you blind?

Yes, because you don't notice how much it hurts me to see you in such pain.

But then again, I don't show it, either. I just put on a happy face and try to cheer you up as best I can. But inside I am in such pain...for you. You don't see it, do you? Of course not, you overlook me. You don't ignore me, but you overlook me. I want more than anything to be able to comfort you, to take away your pain...and, most of all, to make you happy in a way that she never will be able to. But you just look past me, never even considering what I might truly be feeling. I guess I hide my true feelings well.

Haven't you ever considered that maybe, just maybe, I could love you as much as you love her? The thought never crossed your mind, did it? Of course not. You are blind from your so-called love for her.

But I'm not bitter, I do not hate her, and I will never stand between you and her. I could not bear to see you mad at me. That is why I hold back my emotions, why I put on a cheerful face for you, why I hide my heart from you. I wish that I could be there always to comfort you, but I know that I cannot.

But haven't you ever noticed, even once, how much it hurts me to see your eyes so full of pain and loneliness? It doesn't have to be this way. You don't have to be lonely, you know. For the longest time, I've wanted to tell you that, but I have held back, because I love you. Yes, I do love you, more than you will ever know. More than I will ever let you know.

I know you, and I know that, no matter what, you will never stop chasing after her, and I cannot do anything about that. I also know that I will not always be there to help you after she has sent you away, depressed. That is why I will never tell you how much I really do love you, because you will not stop chasing her, no matter what happens. It hurts me to see you in the pain she causes you, it hurts me to even be near you, but I will stay with you as long as I can, just a friend in the background, ready to catch you when you fall.

Sometimes I wonder if love is really worth it for all of the pain and sadness it causes. Love is cruel...

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Owari. Sad, ne? I was literally in tears writing this thing.