Chapter 11

Lost souls.

Angel was pacing in the hospital waiting room looking for a nurse, doctor anyone that could tell him something about how Sarai was doing. She had taken a really bad fall. Connor had managed to stop himself from rolling all the way down...Sarai couldn't. Finally Angel saw a nurse in the hall.

"How is she?" he asked.

"Who?" The nurse said.

"Oh right....Sarai....Sarai Angel."

"I can't give that information out without consent I am sorry, unless you're a relative." The nurse told him.

"I am her father."

"Oh, I am sorry. Follow me" the nurse said leading Angel into a room.

"It shouldn't be much longer" the nurse told him leaving the room.

Angel stood next to the bed holding Sarai's hand.

"Daddy" she mumbled.

"Yeah Sarai."

"I am so sorry...I have to go now." She said as she closed her eyes and Angel watched the lines on the monitors turn red and go flat.

"NO!" Angel yelled waking up from his nightmare. Angel turned his head from the chair he was sitting on and never thought he'd be happy to see Sarai in a coma, but compared to the nightmare he had, he'd take it. She'd been out for almost 3 days and that whole time Angel hadn't left her bedside. She looked paler then he did and she had broken her right leg and her left ankle. As well as having several cuts and bruises from the rocks on the way down, the most severe ones were on her throat and her head. He couldn't believe all the tubes and machines she was hooked up to.

"Any news?" Gunn asked walking in with balloons and trying them to her bed.

"Not good news." Angel said.

"You mean there's bad news?"

"One of the cuts...there not sure which one has caused an infection. A bad one....her temp was 104.3 (f) last time they checked.

"But it can be treated right?"

"There are several different medicines they can try....they're pretty confident one of them will work. There are other things to consider to though."

"Such as"

"Such as how long until she wakes up, how long til they take out that breathing tube, how long until....."

"What? Angel why do I get the feeling you're holding something's back?" Gunn asked.

"Because I am. Because if I say it out loud it really means it's a possibility"

"Angel just tell me. It'll be good for you to say it plus....I gotta know."

"You really care for her don't you?"

"Yeah, she reminds me of myself at her age. And stop going off the subject. What is going on."

"The doctors aren't sure how hard she hit her head .so when she wakes up she might...there's a chance...brain damage." he blurted out. "Maybe not sever maybe not at all but it could happen. Also her maybe fractured they're not really sure. They want to wait for the breathing tube to come out and her temp to come down before they run more tests."

"So they're expecting her to wake up soon?"

"I am....I know she will."

"How?" Gunn asked,

"Same way she survived Quartoth without becoming completely hateful or crazy....she's the strong one. Maybe not physically but where/when it counts she's stronger then all of us."

Gunn didn't get a chance to respond because Connor, who was wearing a cast on his left arm and sporting a few cuts of his own entered the room.

"How is she?" he asked, Gunn walked out of the room.

"How does she look?" Angel responded darkly.

"Look I didn't mean-"

"If you apologize, or say it was an accident that you didn't mean it I will take that cast off your arm and hit you with it. There's a lot of reasons I decided to give you a different life, not just because I didn't want you to kill yourself, or Cordy but one big reason is because I knew somehow you'd hurt Sarai."

"But I wouldn't have. I didn't want to hurt her but she double crossed me. You saw it."

"Right because you showing up here with Holtz with some master revenge plan...not knowing what you to would do to her if she didn't join your team...that couldn't possibly have hurt her." Angel said sarcastically.

"I still don't know why she played me."

"That makes two of us. I guess only she knows that."

"Do you think she can hear us? Or knows that we're here?" Connor asked.

"I don't know. But I want you to go and never come back." Angel said.

Sarai found herself in a gray room filled with fog and she was wearing a white dress.

"You're not supposed to be here." A voice called out. Then a women with blonde hair and wearing a blue dress stepped out of the fog.

"Where is here?" Sarai asked the women...although she'd never met her before, she felt like she knew her.

"This is the dimension of lost souls, for people who are stuck between crossing over and going back." the women said looking closely at Sarai, then smiling. "You have my eyes" she then observed touching Sarai's face.

She knew who this women infront of her was, she didn't know how she knew but she did. "Mother?" Sarai asked.. "You're my mother aren't you? Why are you here? Why am I here?"

"Yeah its me Sarai. I was sent here to help, to tell you which way you need to go. You're not lost like all the other souls that come through here. You need to go back."

"I can't Its to hard...I can't do it anymore." Sarai confessed.

"I know its hard...but you can do it. You have to. Angel needs you to go back to him."

"I am sure he'll get over it. I mean can't he and Connor mend things up so I could stay?"

Darla looked saddened by Sarai's request "its to late for Connor, sadly he is a lost soul, just in a very different way. He's so filled with hate and rage that he can't be brought back. Angel was right when he gave him up. It was the best, the only way to help him. Like I said before, you can't stay, you don't belong here. Why didn't turn on Angel?" Darla asked suddenly.

"Because he's grown on me during these past few months I've learned to...I well... I guess I learned to love him. I couldn't betray him."

"Have you ever told him that?"


Darla smiled. "You need to. He loves you too more then you can ever begin to realize and that is why you can go back. You have someone waiting for you to return, ready to welcome you back into the world, which is one more person then most people pass through here have. He really does need you. You're all he has."

"He has friends."

"But they're not family you are. Sarai you got lost the same way Connor did at one point but you didn't choose to stay that way, you found your way back. Learned how except your hard and unusual life and move on. Most importantly you learned how to live and love. And you did it because you wanted to, you choose not to live in your own private hell full of hate toward everyone who tries to love you. I am so proud of you for it, Angel is too I can feel it. You may have my eyes but you're his daughter I look at you and I see him everywhere. Finding out that not everyone is against you and what you did the other day, pretending to be on the other side, risking your life to save his because you thought it was the right thing? I know it was his influence that made you do it and that it works both ways too."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean you've changed Angel...loosened him up a bit."

"You call that loosened up?" Sarai questioned.

"Trust me for him, that's loose. You keep him in line, give his life meaning. You're the sunlight in his sunless world. Even though you two have had more then your fair share of problems you've come along way. And the journey isn't over yet. Now you've spent more then enough time here it time you back where you belong."

"Could you come with me?" Sarai asked.

"Baby, I am with you. I've been with you and watching you this whole time. There was a time when you were inside me, and now I am inside you. Right here" Darla explained putting her hand over Sarai's heart. "You shared your soul with me once, I know how pure it is and how much love you have inside you. You need to learn how to let it out though, share it with others, and let then know that you are."

"What'll happen when I go back?"

"I can't tell you that. But I can tell you you'll be fine and everything will work out for the best. I promise you."

"But what about Connor?"

"I'll handle Connor...I just said everything will be as it should."

"Ok...If you think I am ready. I'll go back."Sarai said.

"Very good. Always remember what I said. I am always with you and I always will be." Darla pulled Sarai close to her and kissed the top of her head and a white light flashed.

Back in the hospital:

Angel was sitting in Sarai's hospital room looking out the window when he heard a noise, someone moaning Angel turned around to see who it was Sarai trying to speak.

"Don't try to talk yet...let me see if I can find someone to take that tube out of your mouth first" Angel instructed going out to look for someone. He came back with a doctor and a nurse.

"Ok Sarai let out a big cough so I can take this out" the doctor said, Sarai did as she was told. As soon as the doctor took the tube out the nurse stuck a thermometer in her mouth for 60 seconds.

"Its amazing the fevers gone." the nurse said, making the usually broody Angel a very happy vampire.

"Sarai do you where you are?" the doctor asked.

"In a hospital." she answered with a low and raspy voice.

"And do you know who that is?" the doctor then asked pointing to Angel.

"He's my father....anything else you'd like me to tell you to convince you that all the lights are on upstairs?"

"father? What happened to 'daddy'?" Angel thought. "Are you in pain?" Angel asked Sarai

"My leg hurts a little and my throat"

"Well that's to be expected anything else?" the doctor asked.


"It's a amazing.... I don't know what else to say. I've never seen a case like this before. We'll give you two a few minutes alone before I come back for a full examination" the doctor said leaving the room with the nurse.

Angel then hugged Sarai almost as tight as he could. "Don't you ever scare me like that again" he ordered.

"So you're punishing me by squeezing all the air outta me?" she asked,

"Oh...I'm so sorry" Angel said letting go.

"Its what ended up happening with Connor?" she asked.

"Who? What are talking about?"

'Huh guess she sent him back to his other reality. Gotta cover this up now.' she though "Nothing...I must've been dreaming." she said.

"Oh....I though I lost you"

"I was never lost....just misplace for awhile. But I am back now and I am not going anywhere."

"Believe me I know that. You do realize I am never letting you out of my sight again right?" Angel asked smiling.

"Yeah, I know"

"And you're not complaining?"

"No....I am not"

"Sarai do have any idea how dangerous what you did was? I don't know what I would've done if anything had happened to you. Why did you decide to risk your life and pretend to be on Holtz's side?"

"Isn't it obvious?"


"I did it because I know what its like."

"Know what, what's like?"

"Not knowing what I'd do if I anything happened to you." Sarai said looking Angel in the eyes. Angel had never been so touched in his life.

"You have no idea how much that means to me but you don't need to protected me or look out for me. That's what I am supposed to do for you."

"No, that's what family does for each other." Sarai said sitting up and putting her arms around Angel. "I love you daddy."

"I love you too Sarai."

"Ok this getting a little to 'Camdens' for me we need to stop" Sarai joked. Angel looked blankly at at her. "Camdens....7th Heaven? Hello... Ah, never mind your actually better off not knowing that show, I often try to forget its on." Just then Sarai's hospital gown fell off her shoulder down to her elbow, Angel went to fix it for her when he noticed something on the back of the shoulder.

"Is that a tattoo?" Angel asked.

"Oh yeah...did I forget to tell you about that? Do you like it? Harm helped me pick it out"

Angel stared at the colorful unicorn that was on his daughters body and come up with only one conclusion, the hardest parts of raising a daughter were just getting started and he couldn't be more excited about it. Well, that and he needed to have a serious talk with Harmony.

The End.

A/N: So that's it. What'd you think? Be honest and all I asked is no flames please. Also Any requests for another fic? I am open to ideas. And thank you to everyone who has read and reviewed throughout the story. It's meant a lot to me. You can also now find all the other Sarai stories in my profile (aka by clicking Gigi13 at the top of this page.) Hope you like them.