Title: Saying Everything
Sam/Jack, post-The Lost City Part 2, pg
Summary: Jack resigned.
Author's Notes: Thanks to Jess! (Angel Leviathan) for the beta! (hugs!)
"I'll make it easy for you. I resign. You're in charge."
"Okay…" she paused. "Sir, at your house, before Daniel and Teal'c showed up, what I was going to say was…"
He cut her off. "I know."
"No, Sir." She paused. "Jack. I need to say this."
He looked up, surprised by her use of his first name. He made to say something, but she cut him off. "We've not said everything too many times. I need to say this, this time I just need you to know."
He nodded silently.
"First of all, and seeing as technically you're no longer my commanding officer I can say this, what you did was stupid. Brave, and noble, and selfless, but stupid." She took a deep breath, and when she looked up he was surprised to see tears in her eyes. "I hate you for doing this to yourself. For doing this to me," she took another deep breath before finishing, "to us."
He looked at her, shocked. Had she just said what he thought she'd said?
"Sam…" he began, unsure of what to say to her. He was completely out of practice when it came to speaking of his feelings, and he had never really been any good at it anyway.
So he settled for the honest truth. "I'm sorry," he whispered, looking into her eyes sadly. "God knows I don't want this to be happening to me, to you. To us."
She smiled, lightly. "I know," she replied, shaking her head slightly. "I'm being completely selfish here."
He took a step towards her. "No. You're not. After seven years, I don't think anyone could call you selfish."
She understood what he meant. And relief coursed through her veins that he knew what she was trying to say. Involuntarily, silent tears began to fall from her eyes. "I love you," she whispered. "I just need you to know that."
He closed the distance between them and took her in his arms. Wrapped in his arms Sam almost burst into tears as she realised she had never been so close to, and so far from him at the same time. Had Jack really been thinking further than the woman in his arms he would have laughed at the irony too.
"I know," he murmured back, his face in her hair. He pulled back so that he could see her face, his arms still wrapped around her. "I have always loved you, Sam. And I always will. And as much as I hate to sound so clichéd, I'm glad I've told you before we reach a point where I can't."
She smiled, trying to hide her pain at his last comment, and leaned in to press her lips to his. It was a lingering kiss, full of love and hope, and bitter sadness at what they had only just found but feared they would lose all too soon.
They pulled back, looking in to each others' eyes. Small, sad smiles. They stayed in their warm embrace until they heard Daniel calling; the world owed them more than just a few minutes in each others' arms. Breaking apart, they settled for holding hands as they walked back. Just before entering, they leaned in for another lingering kiss.
"I…" he began, as they broke apart.
She placed a finger to his lips. "I know."
There was nothing left to be said.