I was fully set on my decision the day before. I knew that it was for the best for both of us. But at that moment of her in my arms, I knew that I couldn't go through with it. We were right together; we fit. There was no denying it. And I wasn't going to run away from us. I knew my life wouldn't be complete without her.
I smiled at her glow; she was trying to bear through it, and I new that it was just a facade. I wasn't going to break her; I loved her too much to do such a thing. And I knew I couldn't live a day without those lips. I bent down to kiss her sweet and tenderly on those luscious lips of hers.
She knew something was up, she could see the giddiness planted all over my face. My smile widened and my hands found her face. As I bent my head to touch her forehead with mine, that smile that melts my heart began to shine.
"God," I whispered, "I love you," I closed my eyes and smiled, "I love you!" At my sudden outburst she began to laugh. I looked up to see her giggling away. "What's funny now?" I asked, that same smile planted on my face.
"You. You are so adorable, you know that?" She asked rhetorically as her fit of giggles died down. I nodded, our foreheads back together. "I love you too," She kissed my nose and I attacked her charming lips again. "Nate," she moaned and I couldn't help but proceed further. I allowed my hands to travel down to the small of her back, forcing her closer to me.
This is what I wanted, and I was rejoicing in the fact that I knew what I wanted, and I knew that I wasn't going to give up. This was it, this was the moment that I had mad up my mind. Screw New York! I lifted my lips away from her body to look up at the sky and scream.
"Screw New York!" I began to laugh as I began to spin around yelling, "God! Screw it!" I looked back down at Haley, and I laugh even harder. She thinks I went crazy as she's staring at me with her beautiful brown eyes wide open. But I haven't gone crazy, I just realized what I wanted and for once I'm not going to run.
I walked back towards the love of my life and lifted her up. I began to twirl her in the air until she fell back on me with laughter. She knew now what my decision was, she knew that I wasn't going away. But I knew she was waiting for me to voice it. And she deserved to hear it.
"God Haley!" I screamed again my smile still wide as the Pacific Ocean. " I love you!" She nodded and kissed my cheek. I slightly pushed her back so she could see my face. "I'm not going anywhere,"
I took delight in the picturesque view of her face brightening up and her beautiful straight white teeth shinning my way. She jumped into my arms and she cried out to me.
"God I love you!" I laughed as I began to kiss her everywhere, every part of her belonged to me now. Her neck, her arms her chest, everywhere I kissed she began to laugh with giddiness. "Wait, Nathan. You can't. I won't let you stay because of me."
"This is my life, Haley," I said, "And I make my own decisions." I could tell she wanted to believe me, wanted to forget about the future. And of course I did too. I didn't want to think of all the possibilities and what 'if's' of the future. I just wanted now. "And I choose you."
She screamed as she filled with even more laughter as I kissed her shoulder. She gently took my head and brought it up to her lips.
Through our kisses she was able to say, "I. Love. You. So. Much. You are so. Adorable." I lifted my head up to meet her eyes, and now we both were done laughing. "Let's go to my room," I nodded and quickly took her hand as she led us up the stairs.
In no time we were in her room, half naked, clothes everywhere. Her lips started to attack my body and I couldn't help but moan with pleasure. Her hands were so soft and gentle and as she pushed us down on the bed, she purred in my ear.
"I will always love you," I smirked and caressed her bare shoulder. I quickly pulled her down on top of me, our bodies completely bare. My lips peacefully found their home on her neck as I began to suck gently there. I could feel her hands on my bare chest, her nails digging in me. It wasn't painful; I actually enjoyed it. "Wait," I barely heard her mutter, my lips still stayed firmly on her neck, "Wait," She pushed me slightly away and I began to worry, "Are you sure?"
I looked up at her in confusion. "Sure about what?" Because I was fully ready to devour her into oblivions. But Haley always had a way of confusing me, which I thought was endearing. I raised my left eyebrow in concern. I waited a second before she planted her lips on my forehead.
"About staying," I began to loosen my muscles as I realized what she meant. I smiled up at her concerned face and I nodded. I wasn't going to leave her, it was settled. I've made up my mind and no one is going to change that. I was about to say something but before I could she began to blabber on. "Because I mean, I want you to be happy here, even if the colleges here aren't exactly high profile like New York is, I mean I want you to have what you want and I guess if its NYU you want, then you should have it, if it makes you happy. I don't want to be the cause of your unhappiness." I chuckled slightly.
"Breathe Haley," She half smiled at me as she lied on me, her warm body cuddled with mine, and her head resting on my chest. I took a pause before I was to confess. She had to know that with her I'd always be happy. "It's true, I wanted NYU, but that was before you came into my life. And it's true, I was close to leaving, but it wasn't because New York is high profile that I wanted to go, it was because I wanted you to find yourself. You see I know you're the right one for me. But am I the right one for you?" I didn't let her answer and I continued, "But I realized, that if you had the chance, I wasn't going to let you. I wasn't going to walk away from the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I love you, more than anything."
She raised her head up and I could see tears in her eyes. I was afraid that she might say something that I didn't want to hear. But I was glad when she kissed me.
"Nathan, I've loved you since forever, you know that," I half smiled, knowing that I had been a stupid kid and didn't realize how special she was then. "And I always will. I believe we fit, and I believe you are the one for me," She sighed as my smile took over my features, "We're meant to be," I took in the beauty of her face and my arms began to snake around her body, pushing her closer to mine.
"I love you,"
"And I love you,"
men say - Only fools rush in,
But I can't help falling in love with you
I stay - Would it be a sin,
If I can't help falling in love with you.
a river flows
Gently to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
my hand - Take my whole life too,
For I can't help falling in love with you.
For I can't help falling in love with you "
Shall I Stay- Would It Be A Sin?