Title: Puppy Love - Lunar Love Part I
Summary: Remus and Sirius' lives and relationship - as seen from Sirius' point of view.
Companion to Puppy Love - Stargazing Part I.
Timeline: From when they meet, up til when Harry is born. Aka, 1971-1980.
Warnings: Slash!! That means guy-on-guy lovin'. Dont like it? Dont read it! Simple enough.
Pairings: Sirius/Remus, James/Lily
Disclaimer: I do not own Remus, Hogwarts, Platform 9 3/4, etc...I do own Sirius, James, and Lily, cause JK Rowling killed them off, and we all know you cant lay claim to dead persons, right? Mwahaha. Nah, I dont own them, so dont sue me for dreaming. Bah.
Puppy Love - Lunar Love Part I
Chapter One: Love at First Sight
I love him. I've always loved him. I've loved him since I'd first seen him, a young, awkward boy that stood hesitantly at Platform 9 ¾. He looked so confused, so anxious, so…alone. I saw him gaze helplessly at the bustling crowd of parents that were sending off their children, at the swarms of students milling around the station, his soon-to-be schoolmates. I saw him timidly approaching a rather severe looking lady, only to have her hurry off before he had reached her. I saw his face fall as she left. I saw him look around, seeking out a source of help. Our eyes met for a brief second, and I loved him. But he continued looking, and finding noone, he looked down, defeated. His short, wavy hair, a deep, rich gold, hung down in his eyes. It broke my heart to watch him crumble, ever so slightly.
I walked over. He glanced up at me nervously, but I could see he was hopeful. "Hello," I said, extending a hand out to him. He smiled a small, shy smile as he took my hand, and stared at me in wonderment. I loved his smile. It seemed to light up the world just a little bit more. And his eyes…I loved his eyes. Seeing them up close, they were a rich, golden chocolate that just took everything in with compassion and understanding. It made me feel like he could read my soul, that everything about me was naked to him, and it was alright.
"Hi," he said softly. I loved his voice. I felt, just from that single syllable, that I could listen to him forever.
"I'm Sirius." I introduced myself. "Black." I added.
"Remus Lupin." He gave me that shy, quiet smile again. "Are you alone too?" he asked, taking in the fact that I, too, had been standing alone, with only my suitcase and owl. I grinned, feeling rather giddy about the fact that not only was I the recipient of his smile, and now knew his name, but also because I realized, in a rush of joy, that he had noticed me.
"Well, actually, I'm with my mate James," I told him.
"Oh." His face seemed to fall, just a little. Obviously, he had been hoping to meet someone as lonely as him. I suddenly felt horrible that I had come with James. If Remus wanted someone who was alone, I wanted to be alone. I wanted to be whatever and whoever he wanted.
"My parents didn't want to bring me here," I suddenly found myself revealing. I don't know what possessed me to tell him that. My family's disapproval of me was not something I usually told a perfect stranger. Then Remus looked at me, and I knew. I could not hide anything from those perfect cocoa eyes. I didn't want to. "They kicked me out a while ago, and James' family took me in."
He looked a little surprised that I was telling him so much about myself. I was beginning to wonder if I should have kept my mouth shut. But then he smiled, a little sadly. "That's nice of them."
"Yeah, well…" I shrugged awkwardly. "I was lucky, I guess." He nodded. "So, uh, what about you?" He immediately cast his gaze down to his shoes. I mentally kicked myself. Way to go, Sirius. Talk about tactless. "Uh, I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to –" I fumbled for words to get myself out of my predicament.
"It's alright," he quickly cut me off.
There was an awkward pause. "You must think I'm a total nutter, coming up to you and blabbing about my life and intruding on yours and everything…" I said apologetically. "I'm sorry. I just tend to…" I shifted about nervously. "I'm sorry."
"It's really alright," Remus assured me with a smile, slightly wider than before. "I was just a little…thrown. You caught me by surprise there." I stared at him, completely captivated. His smile really was beautiful. And he was being really nice about me being a complete idiot. He looked at me, and seemed to think my gaze was an apologetic one. "It's really alright, Sirius. I mean, we all get our foot in our mouths sometimes, right?" Merlin, I loved how he said my name. My name had never sounded so good until then.
"Y-yeah…" I managed to get out, which was a pretty good feat, considering my head was spinning from hearing him speak my name. "Uh, wait…who has their foot in their mouth? Must be rather uncomfortable."
He chuckled. I loved his laugh. "It's a Muggle saying. It means you say the wrong thing at the wrong time."
"Oh. I don't know much about Muggles, really. I've never really met one," I explained. "Sorry."
"Stop apologizing, will you? It's alright. I just happened to grow up with Muggles." Remus gave me that wonderful smile of his again, but I couldn't help noticing it was tinged with sadness.
"Oh, are your parents Muggles, then?" I asked curiously. "I don't mean to pry." I quickly added. "I just thought that I'd heard the name Lupin before, so I assumed you were from that family, but maybe you just have the same name, and I think I have my leg in my head again."
"It's foot in mouth," Remus corrected, with a laugh. "And you're right, I am from those Lupins, but I just…my parents sent me off to live with my aunt and uncle, who are Muggle."
Somehow, I sensed from his demeanor that this was not a topic to pursue, so I tried to steer the conversation away from it. The problem was, it would be too obvious for me to change the topic completely, but I could think of nothing that would be a gracious deviation from that subject. Luckily, I was saved by a sudden blur of messy raven hair that appeared at my side.
"Sirius!" I turned to face my best friend, and saw him glance at Remus. "Hello," he said with a friendly smile and outstretched hand. Remus, apparently still in that shy shell of him, shook his hand quietly.
"Er, James, this is Remus Lupin. Remus, James Potter." I quickly introduced them.
"Nice to meet you," Remus said politely. James grinned.
"Sure, that's what they all say at first." He winked at Remus. "So where are your parents?"
"Er," Remus looked down again, as I nudged James in the ribs harshly. James looked at me, confusion written all over his face, and I shook my head at him. He seemed to cotton on.
"It's alright, we'll all just hang out together then. Sirius came with me, and well, my parents just left."
Remus smiled again, and I found myself torn between several different emotions. I was thrilled to see Remus' smile, but I couldn't help wishing it had been me that had put it there. And I was rather jealous of a certain James Potter right then, for being the one who had. Of course, the absurdity of being jealous of my best friend was not lost on me, and a tiny wave of guilt washed over me. Merlin, what was it about this Remus Lupin that was, rather literally, driving me insane?
I was dragged out of my swirling mass of thoughts – rather abruptly – when a loud bell rang. I startled, and looked at James and Remus. "What was that?" I asked.
Remus and James looked just as confused, but their expressions quickly changed to ones of panic and horror when a loud whistling sound pierced the air, accompanied by a deep rumbling.
"The train!" Remus cried. "I think it's going to leave!"
AN: So, as mentioned (several times by now, I fear), this is the companion piece to Puppy Love - Stargazing Part I, which is dear Remus' point of view of all the events. And again, dont worry, it wont all be exactly the same events, because no matter how much I like to think they do, they really dont do everything together; and anyhow, I'll only focus on the important events, more or less.