Title: Puppy Love - Stargazing Part I
Summary: Remus and Sirius' lives and relationship - as seen from Remus' point of view.
Companion to Puppy Love - Lunar Love Part I.
Timeline: From when they meet, up til when Harry is born. Aka, 1971-1980.
Warnings: Slash!! That means guy-on-guy lovin'. Dont like it? Dont read it! Simple enough.
Pairings: Sirius/Remus, James/Lily
Disclaimer: I do not own Remus, Hogwarts, Platform 9 3/4, etc...I do own Sirius, James, and Lily, cause JK Rowling killed them off, and we all know you cant lay claim to dead persons, right? Mwahaha. Nah, I dont own them, so dont sue me for dreaming. Bah.
Puppy Love - Stargazing Part I
Chapter One: Love at First Sight
I love him. I've always loved him. I've loved him since I'd first laid eyes on him, a young, handsome boy milling around Platform 9 ¾. It was the very first day of school, and I was waiting by myself at the station, not quite sure what to expect. Or what to do, for that matter. There were so many people, and they all seemed to know exactly where they were going, where they belonged. Including him. I had tried – more than once – to ask for help, but everyone was too busy or preoccupied or just didn't want to bother with an eleven year old boy, so I was left still looking for someone to tell me what exactly I was supposed to do. That's when I saw him.
It was just for a brief moment, really. I had been taking a quick glance around the platform, when my eyes met his. I fell in love with him. Unfortunately, I was caught up in the momentum of turning around, and I broke our eye contact. I guess it would have been rude if I had kept staring, anyway. But I was still disappointed. There was just something so…magical about that boy. I wanted to just stare at him forever. Instead, I found myself examining the top of my shoes. They were rather ratty, and I was just contemplating if I could afford new ones, when suddenly there was a presence beside me. Instinct told me it was that beautiful boy, and my heart jumped with joy. But logic also told me not to be too excited too quickly. With a mixture of both roiling about in my head and stomach, I looked up.
Straight into deep, rich, beautiful sapphire eyes.
"Hello," said that magical boy in the most wonderful voice I'd ever heard. I was captivated by his voice. I could spend hours…days…months…years…forever…listening to that voice. He held out his hand, and I felt a smile on my face as I realized he was giving me an opportunity to touch him. I didn't hesitate for very long, and a heady rush of blood made me want to swoon the instant our skin made contact. Warmth spread all over my body with a tingle, and I wondered if he could tell how I felt, since his piercing eyes were locked onto mine. Merlin, he had beautiful eyes. They were a soulful ocean blue that glittered, but not from light. From something within him. Magic, I thought. The logical part of me wanted to point out that yes, he had magic, but I had magic too. That was why we were there. But another part of me, something in my soul told me that the magic in this boy was something more.
It was then that I realized I'd been so caught up in my thoughts that I hadn't returned his greeting. He probably thought I was rude and uneducated and all that nonsense. I quickly managed a quiet "Hi".
"I'm Sirius," he told me. As an afterthought, he quickly added, "Black." So now I knew his name. Sirius Black. I loved it. It was mysterious and promising and impressive and unique, like the owner of the name.
Somehow I was able to introduce myself. "Remus Lupin." He looked at me and I couldn't help but smile at him. There was a tiny pause, and I looked him over, seeing that he was alone with only his things. "Are you alone too?" I asked him.
He grinned at me, and I fell in love again. It might have been an odd time to start smiling, but it didn't really matter to me. Nothing really seemed to matter anymore, as I took in his stunning, radiant, perfect smile…
"Well, actually, I'm with my mate James," he said.
"Oh." I had to admit, I was disappointed. I'd been hoping that he was alone. Then, since I was alone too, we could've been alone. Together. Something must've shown on my face, because Sirius suddenly looked rather uneasy. I'd just been about to assure him nothing was wrong, when –
"My parents didn't want to bring me here," he suddenly blurted out. I blinked. Well, that was unexpected. I gazed at him, and he met my eyes. They seemed a little cloudy, as he continued.
"They kicked me out a while ago, and James' family took me in."
I continued to gaze at this magical boy…Sirius. I could see the uncertainty on his face, and I knew he was wondering if he should have told me all that. It was rather personal, after all. But I wanted to know…I wanted to know everything about him. And I didn't want him to think otherwise. "That's nice of them." I tried to smile, but I couldn't help but feel a little upset about the fact someone had actually kicked out this perfect boy.
He seemed to sense that, and he gave a small shrug. "Yeah, well…I was lucky, I guess." I nodded, silently thanking the parents of this James fellow for taking Sirius in. "So, uh, what about you?" he asked hesitantly. I tore my eyes away from his spectacular cobalt ones, and cast my gaze down, not wanting him to catch a glimpse of, or even guess, the truth. It would scare him away, the way it scared everyone else away. "Uh, I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to –" he stammered nervously.
"It's alright," I said quickly. Oh great, now I've got him thinking I'm some sort of nutter who cant talk about himself. There was an awkward pause, and I stole a glance at him. I wanted to tell him. But…what if he got scared, too? It would be understandable, of course. I was an abomination of nature. But I wanted to believe that maybe, just maybe, he wouldn't be afraid. That maybe he would be even more wonderful than I dared hope and he would learn to accept it, maybe even embrace it…but who was I trying to fool? I was nothing.
"You must think I'm a total nutter, coming up to you and blabbing about my life and intruding on yours and everything…" he said, breaking the silence. He was looking apologetically at me. "I'm sorry. I just tend to…I'm sorry."
He thought he was the nutter? And the way he shuffled slightly while rambling…it was adorable. I couldn't help grinning. "It's really alright," I told him. "I was just a little…thrown. You caught me by surprise there." He stared at me. He still looked rather apprehensive about everything. "It's really alright, Sirius. I mean, we all get our foot in our mouths sometimes, right?"
"Y-yeah…" He paused a while. "Uh, wait…who has their foot in their mouth? Must be rather uncomfortable."
I laughed. He was really cute when he said that, looking slightly confused. I explained myself to him. "It's a Muggle saying. It means you say the wrong thing at the wrong time."
"Oh. I don't know much about Muggles, really. I've never really met one," he replied. "Sorry."
Why did he keep apologizing? Sure, he was cute when he did, but I was feeling rather bad, like I was making him feel guilty. Why he'd feel guilty I didn't know. It was nowhere near being his fault. "Stop apologizing, will you? It's alright. I just happened to grow up with Muggles." I smiled as reassuringly as I could at him, even though I felt like I was lying to him. I wasn't, it was the truth that I'd grown up with Muggles…but I wasn't telling him why, and somehow that felt just as bad. I didn't want to lie to him.
"Oh, are your parents Muggles, then?" he asked, but before I could respond, he quickly continued in a rush. "I don't mean to pry…I just thought that I'd heard the name Lupin before, so I assumed you were from that family, but maybe you just have the same name, and I think I have my leg in my head again."
"It's foot in mouth." I couldn't help but laugh. "And you're right, I am from those Lupins, but I just…." I paused. How could I explain this without revealing too much? I figured the simplest answer was the safest. "My parents sent me off to live with my aunt and uncle, who are Muggle."
Sirius seemed to sense that I didn't want to talk about it, and we were in the midst of an awkward pause when suddenly a boy – with black hair just like Sirius', only in a state of great disarray – dashed up to us, calling out Sirius' name. Sirius turned to look at him as he reached us. The messy-haired boy looked at me with hazel eyes.
"Hello," he greeted me, smiling friendlily and holding out his hand. A little bit thrown, I just took his hand.
"Er, James, this is Remus Lupin. Remus, James Potter." Sirius made the introductions. I wanted to swoon when I heard him say my name. Merlin, everything just sounded good when he spoke. Then I realized who he'd said the boy was. James Potter. So this was James. I couldn't help wondering if there was anything between him and Sirius. I wanted to dislike him, just a little, just for being so close to Sirius. But he seemed like a nice guy. Not to mention it was his parents who had housed Sirius…I was torn now. Like him, not like him. Like him, not like him. I decided to stay neutral for now.
"Nice to meet you," I said, and he grinned at me.
"Sure, that's what they all say at first," he said, winking at me cheerfully. He looked around me. "So where are your parents?" he asked. Great. He had to bring that up.
"Er," I hesitated. I looked down again, out of habit.
"It's alright, we'll all just hang out together then. Sirius came with me, and well, my parents just left," James suddenly said, rather quickly, in that ever-upbeat way of his. I smiled gratefully.
Just then, a bell rang out loudly throughout the station. Sirius jumped a little, then turned to me and James. "What was that?" he asked. I was rather curious about that as well. It sounded like…. A loud rumbling started up, and an equally loud whistle pierced the air.
"The train! I think it's going to leave!" I yelped.
Also, as mentioned, this is the companion piece to Puppy Love - Lunar Love Part I, which is all the events from Sirius' point of view. And dont worry, it wont all be exactly the same events, after all, they dont do everything together; and I'll mostly be focusing on only the important events.