A/N: Once again, this was co-written. I wont ramble on cos I have to post this before my son wake up. Enjoy! And R&R!

Chapter 6: Heartache Every Moment

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I'm lost
And no heaven can help us
Ready, willing and able
To lose it all
For a kiss so fatal
And so warm

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you

And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up
'Cause there's no smile of an angel
Without the wrath of god

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment
Baby with you
My darling with you

From lashes to ashes
And from lust to dust
In your sweetest torment
I am lost
And we sense the danger
But don't wanna give up

Oh it's heartache every moment
From the start 'til the end
It's heartache every moment
With you
Deeper into our heavenly suffering
Our fragile souls are falling
It's heartache every moment with you
That's right

~ Heartache Every Moment by H.I.M. (His Infernal Majesty)

His friend, his best and only friend Squid, was on his knees in front of a man. The man was older. He was groaning, moaning and thrusting his hips to…Zigzag didn't want to think that. Squid was giving that man pleasure. And he was only sixteen!

He looked at Squid. He was flushed, dazed-looking and messy. His brown eyes were open and Zigzag saw…vulnerability and helplessness? Zigzag felt something rising inside.

The man groaned loudly and Zigzag closed his eyes. He didn't want to see that. He heard a sound of a zipper being pulled up and a rustling of what sounded like money.

"There you go, pretty thing," the man said, smirking.

Squid just stared at ground, feeling empty and dirty. His eyes were dull and blank, staring at the $50 the man threw.

Zigzag hid behind a few boxes which were at the corner of the alley. Zigzag sighed in relief when the stranger walked to the other side. He waited for a moment and alerted when he heard a broken sob.

Zigzag stood up quickly and entered the alley. Squid's head snapped when he heard footsteps. He froze at his spot when he saw his best friend's face. Zigzag looked angry.

Before he could say anything, Squid found himself pressed against the brick wall.

"Squid, what the hell are you doing?!" said Zigzag. Squid winced when he pressed against the wall. A few nights before, a man kicked his back when Squid had done something wrong. It caused a big, purple bruise.

Squid, except being shocked, was angry, scared and confused. He was scared because of Zigzag's anger. He'd never seen Zig that angry before. He didn't have time to think. Zig wasn't supposed to be here. He wasn't supposed to know. Squid felt somehow like he'd betrayed him. It felt like as if Zigzag owned him or…was his lover. And he was angry because it was none of Zigzag's damn business!

But, Squid found himself saying nothing, just staring at his best friend. Zigzag, on the other hand, was hurt. He couldn't believe his eyes. A moment ago, Squid had knelt in front of a stranger, giving him something that no sixteen-year-old should give to an adult.

Zigzag loosened his grip. Squid was looking at him in disbelief.

"Well… what the fuck?" Zigzag said

Squid shook off Zigzags hands and crouched down to pick up the money he'd dropped when Zigzag had grabbed him.

"You're getting paid for this?" Zigzags anger had died down. Now he was just confused.

"Leave me alone," Squid mumbled, trying to walk away.

"Leave you alone?!" Zigzag grabbed his shoulder. "What are you doing out here?! With that man! You can't just-"

"Can't just what?!" Squids anger flared up and he jerked out of Zigzags grasp, "I can do whatever the hell I want! If you don't like what you see, stay the hell away from whore street!"


But Squid was already gone. Shoving his money into his pocket, he vanished into the night.

Zigzag was walking down the street with X-Ray, Armpit and Magnet. They were talking about some band Magnet had seen perform, but Zigzag wasn't paying attention.

"I think Squid's in trouble," he threw out into the conversation.

X-Ray, Armpit and Magnet all stopped walking.

"What sort of trouble?" X-Ray asked.

"I dunno. Like, I think he might owe people money or something. He just seems to really need some cash right now…" Zigzag trailed off.

"Who would he owe money to?" Magnet asked.

"Lots of people," Armpit shrugged. "Loan sharks or drug dealers-"

"You think Squid's on drugs, Ziggy?" X-Ray narrowed his eyebrows.

"Nah, I didn't say that." Zigzag didn't want this to get out of control. He didn't know what X-Ray would do.

"Is that why he took Caveman's mums earrings?" Magnet asked.

"You don't know he took them," Zigzag argued, beginning to regret starting the conversation. "She might have lost them."

"Why don't you ask him?" Magnet said.

Armpit rolled his eyes, "Yeah right, what? We just gonna go up to him and say, hey, did you take Caveman's mums earrings? What do you think he's gonna say to that? Oh yeah, sure, I pawned them to fuel my drug habit. Get real. Besides, he's not here, is he?"

"He's just up there." Magnet pointed further up the street. They all looked up just in time to see Squid walk into the Liquor Store.

"I thought you said he needed money. What's he doing buying booze?" X-Ray glanced at Zigzag.

"He can't be buying booze. He's not old enough."

""Maybe that's what he needed the money for."

Zigzag frowned. "Squid doesn't drink."

"How do you know?" Armpit asked.

"He did pass out in the cafeteria that time…" Magnet said.

"He fell asleep!" Zigzag argued, "That's not the same."

"Well, I'm going to talk to him." X-Ray marched forward.

Zigzag, Magnet and Armpit followed.

"I've never seen Squid drunk," Zigzag insisted.

X-Ray just kept going. They reached the entrance of the Liquor Store just as Squid was walking out. He was carrying two bottles in brown paper bags. It took a moment for Squid to realize that he'd just come face to face with half of D-Tent.

"Oh… hey…" Squid looked at them nervously.

"Where'd you get the money for that?" X-Ray asked, motioning to the bottles.

"I… ah…" Squid glanced at Zigzag.

X-Ray glared at him, "Did you take Caveman's mums earrings?"

"What? No! I haven't taken anything!" Squid looked down at the alcohol. "And this isn't even for me. I got it for someone else."

X-Ray shook his head, "Squid, are you drinking?"


X-Ray frowned, not knowing whether to believe him. He sighed, "Squid, are you in some kind of trouble?"

Squid looked away from X-Rays penetrating stare. "Nah, I'm fine."

"You're quiet tonight, Squid," Sharon observed, watching Squid over the dinner table.

Squid forced a smile. "Just tired."

Zigzag glanced at him. "Where you out last night?" he muttered under his breath.

"I wasn't anywhere last night."

Squid wondered why he had agreed to come here tonight. He was sick of the way Zigzag was looking at him. He hadn't been 'out' last night anyway. He'd been at the park again, sitting on the swings. The moment he'd got home his mother had thrown a bottle at him, so he'd left and stayed in the park all night.

He was tired, but not just in the way Sharon took him to mean. He was tired of everything. School, his mother, even D-Tent.

"Wanna come up to my room?" Zigzag asked.

Squid shrugged, "I guess."

Squid sprawled himself out on Zigzags bed, aware that Zigzag was watching him.

"Stop it."

"Stop what?"

"Looking at me."

Zigzag glanced away, then back. "What's that?"

Squid looked down to what Zigzag was gesturing at. His shirt had come up slightly and his stomach was bruised.


Zigzag bit his lip. "Squid… are you ok? Really?"

For a moment Squid looked as if he would cry. "It doesn't matter."

"But it does. I'm worried about you."

It was too much. Squid rolled over so he was facing away from Zigzag. He couldn't control the tears any more. Zigzag was next to him immediately, pulling him into a hug. Squid sobbed into Zigzags shoulder.

"Squid…" Zigzag hesitated, "What's happened? Or happening? What's going on with you?"

Squid choked back his sobs. "It's just…"

"What?" Zigzag probed gently.

"It's my mum." Squid covered his face with his hands. "She drinks."

Zigzag looked confused. "My mum drinks occasionally," he said.

Squid shook his head, "My mum drinks every day."

"Oh…" Zigzag didn't know what to say. "Is that who the booze was for when we saw you the other day? Your mum?"

Squid nodded, wiping the tears from his face with the back of his hand.

"Well why didn't you say so? X-Ray and that were thinking you…"

Zigzag trailed off and he saw Squid shaking his head vigorously. "You can't tell anyone Zig."

Zigzag frowned. "But why? I don't get it."

"It's no ones business but mine, alright?"

The two of them sat in silence for a while, Zigzags hand still on Squids shoulder.

Eventually Squid sighed. "I should go."

"No, stay here tonight." Zigzag offered hopefully.

Squid shook his head, but lay back down on the bed anyway, "But your mum…?"

"She wont care at all," Zigzag moved to the doorway and stuck his head out the door, yelling, "Mum, Squid's gonna stay the night."

"Ok," Sharon's voice answered.

"See?" Zigzag turned back to Squid, but Squid was already asleep.