Chapter Twenty Six
What If

Buffy leaned against the arm of the living room couch, her legs across Spike's lap and her fingers laced with his. He tapped his other hand on her thigh as they sat there in silence.

"I'm bored," Buffy announced.

Spike raised his scarred eyebrow at her. "Okay. You were the one who suggested a night in with me, your big baddie boyfriend who would rather be out... or at least if we have to be home can we do something that takes a little more muscle action—"

"Uh uh!" Buffy shook her head. "I just wanted to see what it would be like if we you know…" she had an innocent look on her face. "Did like normal boyfriend girlfriend stuff."

"Well obviously it doesn't work. I'm a vampire, sweetheart. And a horny one at that. You're killing me here."

Buffy threw him a glare. "Why do you boys always have to be so… hormonal driven?" She stopped, looking puzzled. "Do you even have hormones?"

Spike shrugged and relaxed against the back of the couch. "Whatever, mate. I'll just wait until you're ready."

"I am so not going to… do things with you tonight."

"You just said you were bored."

"So? I'll think of something to do."

Spike snorted. "Right because you're such a brilliant Slayer."

Buffy rolled her eyes. "I haven't died yet. It must mean I'm somewhat intelligent."

"Hey, hey," Spike said seriously. "Don't say that."

This time Buffy snorted. "Ha! Like you give a crap."

"I give a darn crap whether you're alive or not. We've been over this several times, okay? And no matter what I'll be there to protect you. I'm not letting anyone or anything lay a finger on you."

Buffy shrugged. "Kind of hard since I'm sort of the Slayer and have to fight beasties on a nightly basis."

"You know what I mean."

Buffy gave him a little grin. "I do know what you mean. And I love you for that."

"You love me? I'm flattered."

"Oh I know!" Buffy suddenly shouted. She sat up straight, pulling her legs away from Spike and sitting in cross-legged fashion. "Let's play the what if game."

"What the hell is that?"

"Well," she said, smiling. "I was just wondering… what if Willow never cast that spell?"

"What spell?"

Buffy slapped him on the shoulder. "Ow!" Spike yelped. "For crying out loud, do you ever not underestimate your strength? I'm only a lowly vampire."

"I have never heard you be so humble," Buffy laughed at him. "You must really like me." She leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. "But yeah," she continued. "The spell, you dumbass. The spell that started it all."

"Oh the umm engagement whatchamacallit spell."


"And I have never seen you so… hyper."

Buffy giggled. "Seriously. What if Willow had never cast that spell?"

Spike stared at her for a minute, just studying her features. Tonight she had on a bright smile, she was being completely herself around him. He liked it a lot. Before their relationship was so on and off and dramatic this and that. For an evil undead thing, Spike sure was a sucker for this romantic fluff stuff.

He cleared his throat. "Well for one, I'd still fall in love with you."

"What? Shut up."

"Well okay, maybe not. But…" he gave her his signature grin. "I'd still wanna do you."

"Oh ewww you pig!" She threw a couch pillow at his face. "Can we try and not think about sex every seven seconds?"

"It's kind of hard when I'm around such a sexy, hot, adorable little Slayer."

"Spike… please?" Buffy looked at him with such honesty that he let out a sigh.

"Well what I said was the truth you know," he replied. "I might not have fallen in love with you… but there was always that passionate desire. I know what you want, Buffy. You want love… and I can honestly say I want to give it to you." He looked up at him with pleading eyes. "Is that a good answer?"

Buffy was genuinely touched. She nodded. "Very."

"So…" Spike reached over and grabbed her. She let out a squeal and he wrestled with her squirming body until she gave in and relaxed in his arms. Buffy looked up as Spike bent down to kiss her lips. "Mmm…" she whispered. "What if I'd never went to LA to see Angel?"

Spike groaned loudly and pushed her away. "Bloody… I can't believe you brought that poof into this conversation!"

"No! Don't be mad, I was just thinking… I would never have had closure."

Spike stood up and made waving motions with his arms. "You're in the middle of kissing me and suddenly ANGEL pops into your mind? That idiotic tart of a vampire… I swear!"

"Spike…" Buffy pouted. "It's not like that."

"Oh yeah? What is it like then? What you want to kiss him and touch his stupid gelled up hair and his stupid overhanging brow? Oh I see how it is. He's so much hunkier than Spike. Spike's not hot enough."

"You are plenty hot enough!" Buffy yelled. She stood up too and smacked him with a pillow again. "I'm just saying… I'm glad I finally got closure with Angel, so that I could explore this amazing thing I have with you."

Spike put his hands behind his head and looked up at the ceiling. "Honestly what did I do to deserve such cruel pain and suffering?"

"Spike…" Buffy tried to coax him. "Right before Willow's spell I was really upset about Angel—" Spike winced at the name. "Okay, okay. How about we make a deal?" Buffy suddenly looked very, very mischievous. She slowly edged her way over. "I'll do that thing… that thing you really like… tonight. And we won't mention…" she caught herself before saying Angel's name again. "… his name anymore ever, okay?"

"Well you can say his name occasionally. I like to make fun of him."

Buffy slapped him playfully on the chest. "You are such a weirdo." She laughed and looked up at him as they leaned in for a long kiss.

"Hmm…" Spike murmured softly, playing with her hair. "So… you want to do it tonight?"

"I promise."

"And you'll promise me something else?"

"You name it," Buffy said, kissing his neck.

"That you love me? For real this time?" He wrapped her in a tight hug.

"Spike, that I definitely promise."


Hellloooo people!! Wow okay so I haven't updated this story for like what, two years? And I realized that it was basically done last chapter, but I decided just to add this fluffy little chapter at the end to really let my readers (if I have any left) that this story is complete! I know this is so strange saying this like two years later, but it has been such a wonderful trip in writing this story D It was my very first Spuffy fanfic, and basically my first real fanfic, and I loved it very much. I'm going to go back and print it all out and read it tonight! I will also hopefully be updating some of my other stories. I forgot how much I love writing Spuffy... although I haven't watched Buffy for a long time, Buffy is of course still my most favorite show ever!! Hehe. Hope you liked the chapter. I do like comments D