Title: I knew
A/N: This takes place after Nightwing #100.
1They have finally left me alone in a cell to sleep. But I can't sleep. I keep thinking about the things Dick. . .Nightwing, said to me.
"You son of a . . . "
"You know exactly who I'm the son of."
Yes, I do know who he's the son of. He is the son of Batman. Batman may have three Robins, three sons, but Nightwing is the oldest son. The heir. Everyone, on both sides, good guys and bad, knows that. And while, in many ways he is different from his father, he is still his son. I now know that's what he was warning me of. Batman isn't known to show mercy, and Nightwing wasn't going to show me any.
"You really think you can beat me?"
"Yeah, I do. In fact, I know I can. And if you're honest with yourself, Cat, you know it to."
He was right. I did know it. Ever since we fought Copperhead I knew I was in over my head. He was right to call me an amateur. He's been doing this since he was a boy. Compared to him I am very much an amateur. Of course he would be able to beat me, even wounded. I knew it, but I didn't want to admit it, so I fought him anyway.
"You remind me of what I might have been without. . . if things had been different."
I knew he meant what he might have become if Bruce hadn't taken him in and raised him, trained him. I wonder if he and I could have been together then, if things had been different and he hadn't met Bruce. That I don't' know. I'm not sure I want to know.
"The night you killed Blockbuster I did nothing to stop you. And we both know I should have."
Yes, I know he should have. He's one of the 'good guys', they stop 'bad guys' like me and Blockbuster. I know that no matter what happened during the Gang War in Gotham I am one of the 'bad guys'. Dick may see me as something more, but Nightwing never will. I know that now.
To be honest, I guess that all along I've known it would end this way. When it started I thought it was worth it. I still do. Those days, and nights, with Dick were worth any price.
Aussie: THANK YOU!!! You're the best.
Esther: Thank you. I'm not a big fan off Cat either, but I wanted to show her view of things. Thanks for the VERY nice compliment.