"Forgiveness means letting go of a hurtful situation and moving on with your own happiness."
Jennifer followed Randy outside and sat down on the steps, she was still in shock of what has just happened. Jennifer felt Randy set down beside her and took her hand into his once again, Jennifer felt tingles go through her body as she felt his skin on hers. So many thoughts and emotions were going through her head and she couldn't process them, luckily Randy spoke first. His voice sounded soothing, "I've missed you so much."
Jennifer's eyes stayed on their laced fingers as she smiled and nodded. She took a deep breath to calm her nerves as she said in a whisper, "I've missed you too." Randy's smile got bigger as he used his finger to lift up Jennifer's chin so she could look at him, Jennifer's breathing stopped short as she looked into his eyes for the first time in months. She could see how happy he was at that moment and how much love he had for her, Jennifer swallowed hard and looked away.
"Wh-what are you doing here?" she asked.
Randy frowned slightly when he noticed Jennifer was starting to put up her defenses, he sighed and said, "I needed to see you again."
Jennifer stayed silent for a few moments, she could hear her brain shouting at her to pull away but her heart begged her to hear him out. Jennifer pulled her hand away from Randy's and put her face in her hands, "Why did you have to do this?" she asked in a shaky voice. Jennifer could feel herself giving into him, and she didn't like it.
"Do what baby?" Randy asked as he placed a hand on her shoulder.
Jennifer lifted up her head to look at him directly, "I was doing just fine without you--I was finally beginning to accept the fact that we were over and I was moving on! Now you had come and--" she trailed off and looked down as her eyes welled up in tears. She would not show weakness--not now, she took a deep breath and finished, "You had to come and ruin it," she whispered.
"Well, I wasn't doing fine Jennifer!" Randy exclaimed. "I've missed you so much and having to be away from you and knowing that you hate me is killing me! And you're wrong--it isn't over between us, in fact, it's far from being over! Why can't you see that?"
Jennifer's head shot up as she looked at him, "It IS over Randy--it was over before it even gotten started!"
Randy sighed in frustration, "Can you just hear me out for once!? I mean I've come all the way here the least you could do is let me explain!"
Jennifer glared at him as she stood up in anger, "Hear you out!? For what Randy? What good will it do for you to make up excuses--the fact of the matter is what happened between us happened and there's nothing that can change it or make it better! So stop trying to!"
"I'm not trying to make up excuses damnit! I want you to hear my side of the story--don't you think I deserve that much?" Randy said loudly.
"As far as I'm concerned you don't deserve a damn thing from me--after all the shit you put me through all I wanted was to be left alone but no you had to come and find me just so you could make yourself feel better! Well, you know what fuck you Randy because I'm tried of dealing with this!" Jennifer shouted as she turned around to go back inside. But before she had a chance to mover, Randy grabbed her arm and pulled her into a passionate kiss.
As soon as Jennifer felt Randy's lips on hers she immediately kissed him back, she felt Randy wrap an arm tightly around her waist and buried his other hand in her hair. Jennifer wrapped her arms around Randy's neck, pulling him in closer. The two stayed like that until finally Jennifer pulled away, she leaned her head on Randy's chest as she tried to catch her breath.
"See? I told you it's not over," Randy whispered to her.
Jennifer closed her eyes and sighed, she wanted so bad to stay like this but she knew that moments like these don't last. With that, Jennifer pulled away from Randy and turned around. Randy stood behind Jennifer and placed his hands on her hips, he leaned down and whispered in her ear, "Please tell me you love me as much as I love you--please give us another chance."
Jennifer tried to ignore the shivers Randy sent down her spine as he whispered into her ear. She turned to face him and looked up at him, "I do love you," she whispered. "But I can't trust you Randy--I'm sorry," Jennifer finished as she pulled away from Randy and turned her back to him. She crossed her arms over her chest and tried to keep down the tears, Randy stood there frozen for a few moments before stomping over to Jennifer and whirring her around to face him once again.
Jennifer could see the anger and hurt in his eyes, she looked down as he spoke in anger, "Why are you doing this to me? Don't you think that I've put myself through enough hell without you making it worse? Damnit Jennifer I love you! I love you so much that I haven't thought about anything else for the past couple of months--I can't sleep or eat or wrestle without you invading my thoughts--do you know how that feels?!" Randy shouted as he looked at Jennifer, who just looked away and didn't respond. Randy sighed in frustration as he kicked the railing of the steps in anger. He looked over at Jennifer, who hadn't moved and sighed as he started to head toward his rental. It was no use, no matter how much he tried Jennifer would never forgive him.
Jennifer stood there frozen as he watched Randy starting to head down the steps, should she let him go or stop him? If she let him go now, she could throw away any chance of happiness, that she knew. But if she stopped him she knew that she would have a hard road ahead of her, "Remember--he hurt you Jennifer, if you stop him you'll just be hurt again," her brain yelled at her. Jennifer swallowed hard as she closed her eyes, "Please--don't go," she whispered without thinking. Randy obviously didn't hear her as he kept walking away, Jennifer pushed aside her better judgment as she started to walk toward him, "Please," she said louder.
Randy stopped at the bottom of the steps as he heard a soft voice behind him, he turned to see Jennifer halfway down the steps. "Please what?" he asked confused.
"Don't leave me," Jennifer said loudly as she quickened her pace down the remaining steps. As soon as she reached the bottom of the steps she flung her arms around Randy's waist, she buried her face on his chest as she said, "I love you--please don't leave." Randy was shocked at first as he wrapped his arms around Jennifer. "I can't stop thinking about you either--and as much as I want to hate you I can't. I love you so much Randy," Jennifer said in a muffled voice as tears ran down her face.
Randy smiled as he tightened his hold on Jennifer, "I love you too," he said.
"Hey you two--I know it doesn't take this long to kiss and make-up, remember there's a woman in labor? Now come on it's after 8!" Ryan yelled.
Jennifer pulled away from Randy and smiled, "We'll be there in a second Ryan!" she said loudly. Randy smiled and bent down to wipe Jennifer's tears, he then leaned down and captured her lips in a kiss, which Jennifer responded immediately.
Randy smiled as he pulled away to catch his breath, he leaned his forehead on Jennifer's and whispered softly, "I've wanted this so for long."
Jennifer closed her eyes and said, "Me too." She pulled away and looked up at Randy, she smiled slightly and ran her hand over Randy's cheek. He lifted his hand and placed it over Jennifer's as he spoke, "So we really trying again? For real?"
"Yeah--for real," Jennifer smiled as she dropped her hand to her side, which was immediately grabbed by Randy as the two headed up the steps and back into the waiting room.
Yay they're back together....for now. These two still have a rough road ahead. Hope it didn't totally suck, review please.