Mourning Doves

Author: Pumpkin Belly

A/N: This is, as I promised, Spike's POV on his and Buffy's wedding. 6th part of Maybe series.

Summary: And as I looked into Spike's eyes gleaming in the sun I know that it's a new beginning for us. 6th story in Maybe Series

"Bloody Hell!" I have tried to tie this bow tie seven times and it still isn't right. I undo the tie and start again. Maybe the 8th time will be a charm. After 5 minutes of fussing with it I realize that it wasn't.

"Here let me help you," Xander says to me as he enters Dawn's old room, which I'm using as my dressing area.

"Why do I have to wear this bloody tie?" I ask Xander as he comes up behind me and begins to twist and turn the fabric.

"Because Buffy wanted you to." He says simply. Stepping back to admire the bow he had made.

I just smile. I knew the answer when I had asked the question. I would do anything for her.

"Are you ready?" My best man asks me.

"I don't know. Does everything look ok?" I ask him turning away from my newly found reflection.

"Yes I believe that everything is in order. And if I do say so myself that tie looks fabulous." He laughs.

He must have noticed the look of aberrance on my face because he stops laughing and becomes serious.

"Everything is going to be fine." Xander assures me.

"What if," I begin but he interrupts me.

"What if nothing. You can't keep thinking about what may go wrong and just concentrate on your beautiful bride."

"Ok, ok. I love her, Xander. I just want everything to be perfect." And that is the truth. Buffy never thought that she would have a wedding and now that she is everything should be perfect.

I never thought I would have a wedding. Maybe I did when I was human, or human for the first time but after I became a vampire I never thought of weddings. After planning this wedding I never want to think about them again.

"And it will be." Xander says snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Then I'm ready." I say, taking in a deep breath.

"I'll just go tell everyone." He says, getting up from his spot on Dawn's bed. Even though Dawn doesn't live here anymore I still refer to this room as hers.

My hands are getting increasing more shaky and sweaty as I stand here waiting for Xander. I wasn't this nervous when I asked Buffy to marry me. Why am I so nervous now? She already said yes. 'She said yes but she still has to say I do.' Another part of my brain reminds me.

"It's time." Xander announces finally.

As we make our way outside and to the priest I try not to think about all the things that could go wrong. I can feel Hank's eyes on me as we stand in front of everyone. I imagine that he's angry that Buffy chose Giles to give her away instead of him.

Tough break, maybe you shouldn't have taken her sister away from her. He is paying for the wedding though. I should be nice to him later.

Then the Wedding March starts once again taking me out of my thoughts.

"That's my girl." I muss out loud.

"Yes she is." Xander agrees from his spot beside me.

And as the Giles places her hand in mine all my fears disappear. Her eyes, though filled with tears, smile at me.

I know that everything is going to be ok. And her eyes say the same thing.


A/N: I hope you all liked Spike's thoughts. I know it took awhile to get them posted but I was lacking inspiration but then I had an idea and their this way. Please review.