Ok, I'm back! I'm sooooo sorry it took this long for the last chapter. Yep-you guessed it, school. I'm happy that I got such a good response for my other fic 'Forgotten Memories Of A Pokemon Master.' Some thought It was a multi-chapter story? I'm sorry but it's not. About this fic, I really pushed myself to the end on how to make Ash happy but it seems I found no way. It would seem really wierd if he was stone-cold one minute and warm-hearted the next. But if you notice, he's not really angry or anything. He's just going over his past. But he writes in his diary like that because he still hasn't fully lost his bitterness. If this chapter seems too dark then please tell me and I'll try to do something about it.

L J Nights: You're absolutely right. You do need to write something for people to read. Thanks for reviewing! Oh, and sorry, but no AAML version of F.M.O.A.P.M. I didnt get enough votes!

tamar-shaki: Thanx. I surprised you? Cool. Sorry to you too. No AAML version.

Thom Verdace: I agree. I thought about it too.

Lady Sapphira: I'm glad that ur glad that I decided to add another chapter but you may not like this one as much... Please review anyway.

Silvain: Thanks!

Spiraea kozak: But Brock never had a Steelix. Or did he? I don't know. I just thought Steelix would be more adapted to the cold than Onix. And the fact that Steelix is much stronger.

Thanks for all the reviews. Now with the fic.


Disclaimer: Ummmmm.....lemme check. Pokemon card, pokemon card, pokemon sapphire, pokemon crystal, pokemon card. No, no Pokemon ownership papers. Maybe their over there...lemme check...

CHAPTER 8: DIARY

I've learnt my lesson now(Sigh). Life never waits for you. I was foolish back then. I thought it would wait for me, to let me settle in everything. The break-up, Mom's death, and all the other…

All I ever asked for was a little time. But I had to learn the hard way. The hard way… Just the sentence and I remember all my bitter memories. Its okay, I've learnt to deal with it. You always have to move on. I didn't want to, and I paid the price. Why do I feel like I'm the only person in this whole world who feels like this? Brock and Misty tell me they know how I feel, but I know better. They can't fool me, because I've learnt the lessons of life. They haven't, and that's a fact.

Not that I've got anything against them, but it's so frustrating when you just want to be alone and someone just tries to butt- in wherever they can. I keep telling them, leave me alone, but they don't. At one time I even yelled at Misty. I really didn't want to, but I lost control. I immediately regretted it then, and I still do. But she's still here, every minute. Whatever I want, she's there. I've said all this, and I still need time.

I took mom for granted. That's another lesson I've learnt. Take things for granted, and they drop dead in your face. Sorry, that was a bit mean of me, but I'm slowly recovering from it. With Brock and Misty's help of coarse. Why am I telling you all this? Because I don't want anyone to make the same mistake I did. I don't want anyone else to suffer like I did. I wish with all my heart that nobody does what I did, but that's all I can do. Just a little prayer, a little wish…

I'm beginning to see the other path now. I've begun to converse with my Pokemon like I use to when I was small, when I had a connection with them, and not just train them. Sure, I could've been the best person from the outside, but the heart holds many secrets, and I must praise myself on one aspect-I truly was a master of disguise.

I am now no less than an average man, with an average mans happiness, because of the help that I have now. But some wounds run too deep to be healed. Alas, they will always be there. I can conclude only by saying this: "Time heals all wounds"-I think not.

Ash


How is it? Ok, Not nice? Flame for all I care. Just tell me-PLEEZZZZ!!!

Thanks for reading this in the first place. I hope many of you liked it. Don't worry, there will be other fics from me soon. If you don't like this chapter, please tell me why and where, and if I get enough votes to change it i promise I will.

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