Odi et Amo

Author: Shushu

Rating: R (sex between two boys, quite graphic scenes! You've been warned!)

Pairing: Harry/Draco

Disclaimers: All the characters belong to J.K. Rowling, blah blah blah…I just make them have some fun together. The world needs more slash!

The quotation is from Dante's Divine Comedy and I've decided not to translate it, I would only spoil it. I've found some translations on the net, if you want to read

Author's notes: Hi! I'd like to thank all the people who have read this fic and have sent me such wonderful reviews! You're amazing!

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I hope you like the last chapter too (it's actually the first time I write a slash scene…). Next week I'm going to leave my country and move to France to study there for a year, so I don't know if I'll be able to write fanfics, since I won't have my computer there, but I'll try anyway. If you want a sequel, I'll do my best to satisfy you!

Chapter Three: Amo

"Amor, ch'al cor gentil ratto s'apprende

prese costui della bella persona

che mi fu tolta; e 'l modo ancor m'offende.

Amor, ch'a nullo amato amar perdona,

Mi prese del costui piacer sì forte,

Che, come vedi, ancor non m'abbandona.

Amor condusse noi ad una morte.

Caina attende chi a vita ci spense."

Dante, La Divina Commedia, Inferno V 100-107

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"I'm so sorry, Harry!"

"You don't have to be sorry! Just relax and sleep a bit."

"Aren't you angry?"

"No! Why should I be?"

"I've spoilt everything…"

"It's not true, Draco. You should be kinder to yourself, you know"

"I just wanted to make everything perfect for you"

"And you've put too much effort into the preparation for our holidays, and as a result, you caught a stress fever! I'm not angry, I'm just worried. You should be more careful, you just have one body, don't treat it too badly."


He's so sorry that I feel sorry too.

I smile at him and kiss his forehead, it's still quite hot.

"Try to rest a bit, now. I'll go and say goodbye to Ron and Hermione and then I'll come back, ok?"


I get up from his bed and walk towards the door of his room.

"See you later, honey"

Oh my God, I've just called him honey!

Maybe he hasn't noticed because of the fever…



"I love you"

Oh, Merlin!

"Draco, I…I-I…"

"It doesn't matter, Harry", he smiles at me.

"Hermione and Ron are leaving, hurry up!"

"See you, then"

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"Oh, Harry, here you are, finally. How's Draco?"

"He's sleeping now, Madame Pomfrey says he's very stressed and he caught a fever. It's nothing serious and tomorrow he'll feel perfectly well thanks to the potion she has given him, but I'm worried anyway"

"Take care of him"

"I certainly will, but he firstly has to take care of himself. He's a very nervous person and works ceaselessly until he has reached perfection. He's worked all night long to tidy his room, which has no need to be cleaned since it's already perfect! I wonder what he would do, if he saw my room…"

"Probably nothing, since all he wants to do is be perfect and not make you perfect"

"It's all his parents' fault. They've brought him up telling him that he had to become the perfect heir of the Malfoy family. And even if he tries to change, some habits are very hard to die"

"Maybe with your help, he'll be able to find happiness…I'm sure he will"

"I hope so because I want him to be happy. He deserves that"

"Harry, are you going to, you know, to…"


"To…to make love to him?"

Why is she so curious?


"NOT YET?!?!? What does it mean?", yells Ron, running towards us.

"I beg your pardon?", says Hermione puzzled.

"NOT YET?!", he says to me.

"Yeah, not yet, why?"

"But it's Malfoy!"

"And so?"

"He's changed, Ron", says Hermione.

"Are you sure?", asks Ron.

"Ron, I love him!"

Oh my God!

I've said it!

I've said I love him!!

Am I sure?

"Are you sure?", asks Ron becoming very pale.

"Oh, Harry, it's so wonderful! I'm so happy! Go to Draco and tell him!"

How do I tell him a thing like this?

"He loves Malfoy…", murmurs Ron.

"Yes, he does! It's so bloody brilliant!", Hermione looks really blissful and starts jumping around.

I'm quite frightened…

"Miss Granger, Mr Weasley, it's time to go!"

"Oh that's a pity! Well, Merry Christmas, Harry"

"Merry Christmas, 'Mione"

"He's in love with Malfoy…"

"Bye, Ron"

"He's in love with Malfoy…"

Hermione rolls her eyes and drags him away.

I'm in love with Draco…

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Before I go back to Draco's room, I go into my dorms and take my things. I'm going to spend a week in Draco's room and I need some clothes.

There's a book on my bed with a red ribbon around the cover.

It's a present from Hermione.

The title of the book is: Gay Kamasutra. One hundred spells for your hot nights.

I sigh and shake my head.


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Since Draco was sleeping like an angel when I came back to his room, I decided to sit on his armchair and watch him sleeping, but I've fallen asleep.

I was very tired because last night I couldn't fall asleep. I was too excited at the thought of spending my holidays with him…

When I wake up it's late; it's two o'clock in the morning.

Draco is awake and is sitting on his bed, looking out of the window.

The moon illuminates his beautiful face.

His delicate features shine like white porcelain.

He turns and smiles at me.

"You've fallen asleep on my armchair."

"I'm sorry. I was rather tired, I haven't slept last night."


"I was too excited…"

He chuckles and says:

"Me too, you know?"

I smile at him and get up to sit on his bed beside him.

"Get under the covers, it's freezing cold"

I do as he says. My heart starts beating madly in my chest.

His body is so warm and soft next to mine.

I need him.

I need his thin fragile body.

I need his small hands.

I need his big grey eyes which are gazing at me with such love.

I need his soft lips.

" I need you, Draco"

His lips open slightly and start trembling a bit. A tear rolls down his cheek.

I don't want to make him cry.

I kiss the tear away and then put my lips on his closes eyelids.


I kiss him and he entangles his fingers in my messy hair and starts stroking it.

It feels so beautiful to kiss him under the moonlight with his white skin glowing in the dark.

I start undressing him slowly. I want to touch and kiss every inch of his warm body. He's so lovely when he stares at me with pleading eyes and sighs as I kiss and bite his neck.

He takes my shirt off and starts unbuttoning my jeans.

I moan as he caresses me there.

"Draco, please…"

He takes my boxers off and now I'm completely naked at his sweet mercy.

I want him.

I undress him completely and start kissing his chest, his shoulders, his hands, his fingers.

I lick and suck them one by one and he moans loudly.

His hands are all over me.

He licks my nipples and kisses his way down my chest and puts his tongue inside my navel.

I need him.


Our lips meet again and I explore his mouth covering his moans and sighs.


My hard-on is starting to ache.

He takes it into his hands and starts stroking my erected member.

Oh, Merlin…

I'm going to die…it feels so good…

"D-Draco…stop, please…"

He stops and looks at me with a worried expression on his face.

"Have I hurt you?"

"No, no, don't worry; it's just I don't want to come right now…"


I smile at him and kiss his lips.

"Can I make love to you, Draco?"

He blushes and nods.

I touch his member and then kiss it.

He begs me to go on and I take it into my mouth and start sucking it slowly. I'm driving him crazy and he starts whimpering and crying softly, so I suck harder until he comes in my mouth.

I love him.

I love his eyes darkened by pleasure.

I love the small tears on the corner of his eyes.

I love his accelerated breath.

I even love the droplets of sweat that linger on his chest.


"I love you, Draco"

"I love you too", he says.

He spreads his legs and I prepare him by inserting a finger inside his entrance.

I cast a lubricant spell and then I add another finger.

I don't want to hurt him.

"Draco, if I hurt you, please tell me to stop, ok?"

"Don't worry, Harry"

"I don't want to hurt you, love"

I think I'm going to cry.

My heart is going to crash into a thousand pieces.

I've never thought that loving someone could make you feel so insecure and fragile…

"You won't hurt me, honey", he smiles reassuringly at me and caresses my cheek.

"Love you"

I enter him slowly and carefully.

It feels so good to be inside him.

I can't even say where I finish and he starts.

I'm inside him and it feels like heaven.

"Does it hurt, Draco?", I whisper.

"Just a bit, don't worry…"

I feel he's lying, so I wait a little before starting moving.

We make love slowly and lovingly.

We come almost at the same time and I'm lost for words.

It was so brilliant…

I take him in my arms and kiss him slightly. And I finally understand what Ron meant, what those books Hermione likes and Aunt Petunia used to read to Dudley when he was a child talked about: love.

I finally understand what love is.

I've never been loved like this by anyone in my life. And as Draco takes my hand and puts it onto his cheek, kissing it slightly, I understand what it feels like to be really loved.

I am happy.

Truly happy, for the first time in my life. I feel loved.

We fall asleep entangled in each other's arms and I know I will sleep peacefully until the end of time.

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"Merry Christmas, Harry"

"Merry Christmas, honey"

We are unwrapping our Christmas presents on the bed.

We've just made love and I can still feel the heat of his body all over mine.

I unwrap Hermione's present and I gulp. It's a box and as I open it I see: some lubricant, Bertie Bott's Every Flavoured Condoms (!!!), handcuffs, a dildo (do we need it?), a whip (a whip?!?) and massage oils.

"That's wicked!", yells Draco excitedly.

"She's mental…"

We burst out laughing and we end up snogging on the bed.

"I love you"

"I love you too"



"What are you going to do when the school ends?"

"I don't know. I have nowhere to go…"

He grins and kisses me on my nose.

"You can come with me to Malfoy Manor, if you want to. It's empty and it's all mine now. We could spend the holidays there and then you can decide if you want to stay there with me or if you prefer moving somewhere else…"

I think I've never been so happy in my entire life.

"Oh, Draco, I'd really love to live with you! Are you sure?"

"Yes, of course I am!"

Maybe it's a bit too early. Maybe we are too young and foolish. Maybe the other wizards will try to spoil our happiness.

Maybe…but I don't care!

I don't care about them, I don't care if I'm a fool and I don't care if I'm too young.

All I know is I love him and he loves me.

And that's more than enough for me.

"Hey, Harry, there's another present from Hermione here"

"Oh my God…"

The End

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