Empty Eyes

A Kanna Fic

By: OtakuSailorV

The void.

The emotionless void.

That is all I am, and all I ever will be.

I was made to feel nothing, to see the world through blank eyes.

I was made as a hollow soul.

I was made to obey. For, with no emotions, one cannot get angry or contradict what one is told.

I am Kanna, a minion of the hanyou Naraku. Sister to Kagura, the wind demoness, and countless other demon offspring that came from Naraku.

I wonder, sometimes, if I could envy, if I could feel sadness, if I could feel anything, what would it be like?

I have never asked Kagura about such things, she seems to be disgusted with me. And the boy Kohaku tries his best, but still I cannot imagine what it is like to feel anything.

I do not need, so I do not want. And with want, comes other emotions. Jealousy, anger, envy, hunger, pain, happiness, elation. I could name them all, but I can feel none of them.

Kohaku describes happiness as something that seems to suddenly hit you at times, and makes everything inside of you bubbly and tingly. So much, that strange noises come up from your throat. These noises he explained, are called 'laughter'.

Kohaku says that you can laugh when you're nervous too. I do not fully understand that, but I will not say otherwise.

Several times, he's tried to explain anger to me. He says anger is the complete opposite of happiness, and from his description, I see that anger is around my castle home a lot.

Kohaku explained that anger was when you felt something burning in your heart, and an inner voice tells you to hurt something, or scream loudly. He said that anger, like happiness can be controlled, but it will do a lot more harm if it is not.

You are probably thinking by now that I will go on and on about how Kohaku explains emotions to me, but I won't. For emotions are not the only things I do not feel.

I am also devoid of any feeling of pain. I may appear to have a body, but I feel nothing both inwardly and outwardly.

Whenever I am near Kagura, I seem to wonder what the wind feels like.

I wonder about all these things, though I am never confused, I cannot feel confusion. I can only question things if I want to.

But Naraku made me this way for a reason. So there must be a purpose as to why I cannot feel anything.

Maybe he didn't want two rebellious subordinates in the castle, like Kagura. Or maybe he just thought that my appearance and demeanor should match. Or maybe it was just a cruel twist of fate.

I am Kanna.

I am the emotionless void.

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I finally did it!! A one-shot, though short, completely written from Kanna-chan's point of view!!!

This was a response to a challenge by the members of Beautiful Dreamer forums.

Reviews are appreciated, as I want to make sure that I did this right.

Thanks all! Ja!

Review please!!