Chapter 2: The question

A/N: hey..please read the A/N at the end of this chapter. thanks!!

You would think I would be all too happy with this relationship...no regrets, no doubts...nothing except happiness, but there was one thing that I couldn't grasp and couldn't understand that always left me wondering if Ron really, and I mean really, cared for me. Its not like I am the type of person who thinks that kissing is a main part in a relationship, and everyone knows that I have yet to even experience my first kiss. But when ever Ron seemed to be so near to kiss me, he pulled away as if I were some type of fungus just waiting to send him to the hospital wing. The closest we had ever come to sharing our first kiss together was one blissful night out near the lake...

Oh how beautiful the lake was that night during our evening walk together, the moon shone over the lake in such a way that caught every ripple of the water and it made the whole area seem to glisten as if I was in a dream, an everlasting fairy tale perhaps.

He held my hand in his, his hand was always warm.... even in the chilly night air.

"Do you want to sit down Ron?" I had asked him ever so sweetly.

"Sure why not." And we both sat down on the grass facing out towards the lake. We leaned back on our arms with our legs spread out in front of us and my plaid skirt ruffled out slightly to my sides.

Out of the corner of my eye I could see Ron staring upon me as if I was the only thing in the world worth staring at, he had so much admiration in his glassy eyes. It almost made me nervous, but all the same, to my slight embarrassment, I rather enjoyed knowing that he liked me so much to just stare at me in such a way.

He reached over with his left hand and tucked a few out of place curls behind my ear, but instead of pulling his hand away he kept it there and continued to look at me. My stomach plummeted to the ground, was he going to kiss me?

I turned to face him, and almost at once he started to lean in towards me... this was definitely it. I closed my eyes, as I had seen done in some of my mother's muggle romance movies. Yet he never kissed me, I waited for what seemed years and finally opened my eyes to see Ron standing up beside my sitting form.

"Uh...Moine we had better go...you know that er potions essay wont finish itself." He chuckled nervously.

Did he think I was an idiot, he never did homework!

"Er...ok Ron." And that had been it, I hadn't protested but just went with his stupid lie not even wondering why he hadn't kissed me. (end of memory)

I had made up my mind I was going to talk to him that night and find out what exactly was going on. That night after dinner in the Great Hall Ron, Harry, and I made our way back to the common room to start on our homework. It seemed like it took hours to finish writing my essay for Muggle Studies. Finally Harry said his goodnights and traipsed up to his dormitory drowsily. I looked at the clock wondering why he was so tired.

"Its already one'o'clock!" I accidentally announced out loud, wow time did pass quickly.

"Ya...I think I'm going to go upstairs too, g'night." Ron responded as if he hadn't realized it was so late until now either.

It was now or never.

"Ron why don't you ever kiss me?" I blurted out before I even realized what I was doing. I gazed lazily into his pale blue eyes in a kind of wonder that seemed to be spilling out of me after keeping that very question to myself for so long.

He responded as if he had been rehearsing his answer to this very question for a long time.

"A kiss is forever Hermoine, and that kiss I cant not give to you." He avoided my gaze with perfection. "At least not now."

And as I sit there and ponder to myself...I wonder...the most rising question in my mind...who will be his first forever? Yet I hug him, and he hugs me back for he knows he has done the right thing. Because having what we have now I suppose is enough, the simplicity of it all is enough...

A/N: Hey...sorry if the grammer and spelling is bad in this chapter i just really wanted to post somthing...b/c i havent posted any thing in a long time...i have been sooo busy w/ school since i just started highschool and everything. sorry if this chapter is kinda bad. i will post the next chapter as soon as possible. thanks for being so patient, and thank u if u reviewed.