This is not a real update. I'm so sorry.
Lately, the Inuyasha fandom has felt rather… foreign to me. The feeling has upset me and I haven't been able to find any inspiration to work on any of my stories in the fandom. But I'm not able to completely give up on this story.
So lately, I've been working on turning "The Killer Inside" into an original work of fiction. I love the story, I love where it came from and I love where it's going. "The Killer Inside" will not really die. Ever. I promise. But it will change forms drastically.
I hate being "That Author", the one who leaves my story completely unfinished and abandons everything without a word. I feel like the worst kind of hypocrite, though I've often left reviews for other authors who have abandoned their works sympathizing with them. I don't really want to blame it all on the fandom, either. A lot of it has to do with me. I've been working on this story for over five years and honestly, I'm not the same girl I was in 2004. A lot has changed for me. I also have two other original works that are pulling on me, neither one has ever been a fanfiction.
The decision was a struggle, but one that ultimately made me feel much lighter and very inspired. A lot of the reason I decided to change directions was a separate decision I made in August. I turned thirty this past summer and I promised myself that I would be a published author by 2014, when I turn thirty-five. This is something I'm taking very seriously and I'm trying very hard to make it reality. There is a lot of work ahead of me, work that I'm kind of nervous about. How do I find a publisher? Should I start trying with my children's stories first? Can I really finish this? Am I going to be able to do this?!?! I'm scared as hell and excited and probably completely crazy to want to do this but ultimately… I'm ready for this.
I hope you can wish me luck (I'm going to need it) and I'm thankful for every last review I got, from all of you. Even the stupid flamers. It meant so much. It still means so much to me; somewhere out there, I have fans. If that's not an ego boost, I don't know what is! Thank you, all of you. Thank you so much for all your love and support and enjoyment over the years. I wish all of you contentment, peace and good will.
Merci beaucoup, mes amies. J'adore. Adieu!