Understanding

Chapter I

By Darkness Arts

Summary In an attempt to regain Quent Yaiden's trust, Blue is seriously wounded, bringing her near death. Knowing of her plans to do this, Hige shows up to make sure that nothing goes wrong, only to find the half- wolf, Blue, laying in a pool of her own blood.

Story Notes This is purely fiction. I have yet to see the ending of "Wolf's Rain", and even then I highly doubt that Quent would shoot Blue with the intent on killing her, even with the knowledge that she is a wolf. I just can't see him as that terrible of a person, as he seemed to genuinely care for Blue, even after the realization that she could have possibly had wolf blood in her. And at the same time, I don't see Blue being as weak as I have portrayed her. It's all a big plot device to give Hige a somewhat "strong" and "guardian"-like appeal for it.This was written mostly for my entertainment, and to get the annoying thought that this could actually happen out of my head. Oh- and I just love Blue x Hige stuff, so yep . Expect lotsa that if my moods don't shift suddenly, and I decide to actually kill Blue off. Enjoy. Also- this may be a little strange for a songfic, as I'm splitting the lyrics of "Understanding" into two parts, since there are two seperate chapters.

Status- Chapter I of II Complete

Disclaimer I don't own "Wolf's Rain", nor do I own the song "Understanding" by Evanescence. Just needed to borrow those elements, combine them, and have the ending result be this fic. You have been disclaimed....

-= You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there
=-

The impact of the first bullet far outweighed the others that followed steadily after. Mostly, she figured as she laid on the ground in a pool of her own blood, it was the fact that he had actually pulled the trigger on her that made the first hit hardest to take. Just the look of rage, anger, and overall hurt in his eyes that betrayed his outer- projected look of calm, was what did it. Her own indigo blue hues had caught his, as his finger added the crutially needed pressure to the trigger to send the first shot off from the silver and black handgun.

After the first .45 caliber bullet slammed into her rib cage, and the initial shock of the event wore off, she simply felt numb.

Pops....he shot me...why...?

The wolf part of her mind screamed at the old part to shut the hell up. She had no further right to claim him as a master...or even a friend. In leaving him at the epiphany of what she was, she had knowingly forsaken everything that she had ever been, leaving her to make her way into her new life and body...alone.

-= Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't cry it all away
=-

Feeling her body shift to the human form that she seemed unable to conjure only moments before, she didn't even throw out an attempt to stop the next two shots from tossing her petite form over the concrete debris. She was lucky- if she could even be considered that after everything had happened-one shot went far left, knocking off a large chunk of concrete from the same slab she had been tossed over, and the following grazed only her shoulder.

Barely aware of the wheezing her forced breaths were now creating in the stillness of the afterfire, the young wolf could on stare at the overcast sky, her deep azure eyes surprisingly clear despite the trauma just suffered in which was dealt to her by the hands of the first person she had ever trusted. Oh pops....do you wish for my death so badly...?

Conciousness was but a question in her mindseye, as through her dizzied vision she watched the clouds move on in slow progression. If she woke up from this nightmare, would any of it had really happened? Had she the strength to lift herself to look over the upraised concrete wall, would she see him standing there, gray eyes narrowed in malevolence, and either of his time-scarred hands still positioned possessively on the cool metal of the gun he had used so feverently to put a sharp hault in her life...? Was this truly to be her end?

-= The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual
Shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth
That finds a way from who we are
=-

A vague awareness crept over the fallen lady wolf, as the sound of shouting in the distance brought her back to reality in such an awakening jolt that the distinct growling that followed the cries was lost on her, until her own whimpering became known to her. The metallic taste of blood in her mouth, and covering her lips was also news to her, as began to cough, liquid filling her lungs.

Then the pain came. It was all at once- such a startling feeling, that she couldn't control herself in time to even stifle the sharp cry that escaped her throat. A raw scraping tore at her lungs, and her chest as she coughed violently, dispelling mass amounts of blood onto the ground below her. The shakes wracking her body only seemed to enhance the agonizing clenching in her chest, as her heart attempted to continue beating. Squeezing her eyes shut tightly, as the drowning sensation overwhelmed her, she curled herself up as tight as she could, unaware of the shouting drawing nearer to her, and finally the shocked gasp that signalled Hige's finding of her.

-= Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence
Screaming in our hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time
=-

Time had seemed to freeze the moment his mahogany eyes fell to view the battered form of the black-haired wolf. Her small body was curled up tightly where it had been thrown between large chunks of gray concrete, and what he knew as her blood had been sprayed everywhere surrounding. When the world began to move again, a low-pitched growl was emitted into the air, as he quickly jumped from his position on the uprooting slab, to land beside the young woman.

"Blue!" His voice was edged with such a desperation he himself had never heard, nor felt thus before the moment he was delt presently. As he threw himself to the ground beside her, his eyes widened in note of just how serious her wounds were. Without a second thought, he drug his yellow hoodie over his head to wrap the trembling young woman in, her blood coating the entirety of it far faster than he had anticipated, or hoped for. The sudden chill of the air hit him all at once, and left him shaking involuntarily, but not nearly to the extent of the beautiful young wolf, Blue, as he pulled her into his arms.

He stared down into her wide, indigo eyes, and knew that however much he wanted to be the comfort to her at that very moment, he couldn't provide her even that, as the image and hope she was drawn perpetually to was Quent Yaiden. The same man who had been with her forever, and the same man that in the end, would be the death of her.

Hige felt a seemingly foreign emotion rise up in him, that caused him to bite down hard, his sharpening canines gnashing together harshly in his attempt at somewhat quelling the onslought of feelings. Betrayal with the add-on of rage did not sit well with him, apparently. He did this to her...that fucking bastard! Even after she begged for him to accept her as she really was, he still shot at her?! Narrowed brown eyes glanced about sharply, looking for the old man, even though his keen sense of smell told him that he was long gone. Never in his life would he forget the stench of that human. If she dies now, I'll fucking kill him! I swear to God, I will!

Blue shifted in his arms, her sapphire eyes blinking as though finally seeing him, however long she had been staring straight up at him. It had taken some time, but when she finally came to, the first thought that surfaced in her mind wasn't the persistant splinters of pain, but instead the warmth that seemed to be all- encompassing. Hige... Her brows furrowed together. Why is he...- Her train of thought suddenly derailed, as a spasm of hot, stinging pain errupted in her lungs, sending her into a fit of coughing, choking on her own blood.

-= Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away
=-

Hige gathered Blue into a safe position so that he could carry her, while running. Her head fell against the crook of his neck, her harsh, spastic breathing falling in a broken pattern against the flesh exposed above the neckline of his black undershirt. As he left the ruined section of the city en route of old warehouse where Kiba and the others were hidden, he did his best to ignore her sputtering coughs, and whimpers of pain. He could feel hot trickles of her lifeblood streaming down his neck, as she pressed herself closer to him, her tremoring body rocking harder with every fit of spasms she fell into.

The city lights blurred past him at an alarming pace, as he dashed down the sidewalk. Lucky for him, no pedestrians were present on the streets at this time of night, especially in the storm that was hastilly brewing, the torrential downpour of rain only now becoming noticable to him. He cursed all of mankind at the fact that he couldn't shift into his true form now that he needed the speed and agility that came with it the most. A growl rose from deep in his throat at some unseen force, as he launched himself around a corner, the warehouse where the others would be waiting now in view.

Hige stumbled into the crumbling building, Blue in his arms. A moment later a gasp of surprise followed by a low, dangerous growl escaped his throat at the sight that greeted him:

Standing in the middle of the wide expanse of gray room space was Darcia, and right infront of him was Quent Yaiden- shotgun up, he aimed, and fired.

-= End Part One=-

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