Title: On Impulse - Part 5
Author: Alicia Blade


Original ANs:

Hiya minna-chan!

Here's a message from two friends of mine, and fellow co-authors, Mako-chan Sailor Starlite: "We'll be moving, hopefully to my Sailor Starlite's website or another site that posts alot of stories due to the new requirements in A Sailor Moon Romance." As a note, I'd like to say that some of their stories will also be posted in First Love's archives also.

This is a VERY short chapter, almost more like an epilogue, and I apologize for that. But I hope you enjoy anyway!!

"Christ says "Yes" to all of God;'s promises. That's why we have Christ to say "Amen" for us to the glory of God. And so God makes it possible for you and us to stand firmly together with Chrst. God is also the one who chose us and put his Spirit in our hearts to show that we belong only to him."
2 Corinthians 1:20-22


On Impulse
Part 5: The Darien Within

"I lost her, Andrew. I was a total jerk and now she'll never talk to me again, and I'll never have the chance to tell her why I did all those things and… Oh, Andrew, I don't know what I'll do without her. Yesterday was… so incredible. I never realized I truly was in love with her until then, and it all seemed so clear. I spent so long trying to deny it, to hide my feelings. And then I finally realize I love her, and I push her away, even farther away than she was before! Andrew, what am I going to do?"

Andrew stared at me, very little sympathy in his eyes. "Darien, I would love to have some words of comfort for you, but I'm afraid I don't. You're just gonna have to apologize to the girl and own up to what you did!"

"But Andrew, she hates me now, I'm sure of it. I doubt she'll ever even talk to me again," I whimpered. Andrew rolled his eyes at me, before turning to begin cleaning some dishes.

"Dude, she does not hate you! She's in love with you, remember?! Besides, she knew you were hypnotized! She probably figures that once you snapped out of it, you were just too shocked to deal with it rationally, and so you threw her out instead. I mean, that IS what happened, after all, you know."

I sighed, letting my head fall onto my arms. "I have to do something to get her back… Before I lose her forever…"

"Vell! You can begin by not veeling sorry for yourself!" hissed a voice from beside me. Hey… I know that voice. It's the monkey lady!

My eyes snapped open to come face to face with a lady with black hair pulled into a red and gold scarf. I jumped up, staring at her in shock. "Y…you! You were the one who hypnotized me!"

"Yes, 'tis I, Señorita Leilani. Mastah of hypnotism and psychic extraordinair. And dis is Pulguitas," she said gesturing to a monkey standing on her shoulder with a red scarf, "y Frijolito." The other monkey had on a bright blue scarf around its neck. She turned to Andrew for a moment. "I know dat you do not allow animals, but I am sure you vill make an exception."

"Ya know, I would love to, but…"

"Or I vill hypnotize you into believing you are an H2O molecule!"

He gulped, laughing nervously. "The… the monkeys can stay…"

"I taught so. Now, you are having problems I sense," she said, focusing her attention on me again.

I nodded. "Well, I was, but not anymore! You have come at just the right time! Look, I need you to hypnotize me into acting on impulse for the rest of my life, okay?" Ha! That way, Serena won't be able to resist me, and I can make her happy, and be with her forever!

She shook her head sadly and my grin dropped. "I am afraid I cannot do dat."

"But… but why?! I know you have the power, and I need this! You don't understand, it's the only way I'll ever win the heart of the girl I love!"

"You listen to me! If I hypnotized you like dat for the rest of your life, you would be poor and living off da streets in a week! Do you have any idea how much money you spent yesterday?!"

"Huh? How did you know about that?"

"I am Señorita Leilani, psychic extraordinair, remembah?!"

"Oh, yeah."

"Now you see, if I were to do vat you vant me to do, noting good would come of it. You think dat acting sporadic vill bring back this woman dat you love, but it vill not! Don't you see dat the person you became yesterday was the real YOU! It was, in actuality, the man inside! I did not change you at all, simply helped you to bring that side of you out! This girl is in love with you! Nothing I do vill change dat!"

I shook my head, looking down sadly. "You don't understand."

"Of course I understand! I am psychic!" she exclaimed, slamming her closed fist down on the counter. Gee, I'd forgotten what a quick temper this lady had… "You listen to me, Mr. insolent small-vinded pansy! You vill never get anything done by moping about like you are! Your friend is right! You must apologize and own up to what you have done! And, for goodness sakes, loosen up! Let yourself be fun and carefree every now and ten! Both you and dis girl vill thank you for dat! Do you understand?"

"Um… I… uh…"

"Say yes!" she yelled suddenly, smacking me hard on the side of the head. Ow… Then, without warning, both monkeys jumped forward, attacking my head with their small, furry fists, despite my sorry attempts to protect myself.

After a minute of rubbing my head awkwardly, Andrew stepped nervously up to the counter. "Dar, you don't have a concussion, do you?"

"No… I don't think so."



"Andrew!! What did you do that for?!"

"I was feeling left out," he shrugged, before turning back to another customer.

"DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!" Señorita Leilani was yelling at me again. After a minute of blank stares, she held up her hand threateningly.

"YES! Yes, I understand!"

Finally, the monkeys backed off, hopping back to her shoulder. She bowed, a small grin on her lips. "Buena suerte, pues aquí viene ella." (AN: "Good luck, for here she comes." Gracias, Edeet-chan!)


"How DARE you?!" screamed another voice. I nearly choked on air at the sound. Then, WHACK! Ow…

I raise my hand to my head. Why is everyone doing that to me?! Slowly turning around, I looked directly into two stormy blue eyes glaring up at me.

"Serena… I…"

"Don't you 'Serena… I…' me!" she yelled and I gulped uneasily, sinking back next to the counter. Ooookay… Just a whim, but I don't think she's her normal bubbly self at the moment… "What happened last night?! Were you just trying to play some kind of sick joke? And don't even bother telling me you were hypnotized, 'cause I know that, and it doesn't make one little bit of difference. You threw me OUT, Darien! You got all my hopes and dreams up and then you crushed them like bugs!"


"I thought you had changed, Darien! For a little while, I saw something in you that any girl, including myself, would kill to find in a man, and then you turned right back to the cowardly jerk that you are! Well, let me tell you this, mister, you make one pathetic Cinderella!"

"Serena, wait, listen!"

"Why? So that you can tell me more about how it was a mistake and nothing that happened yesterday meant anything?! It did mean something, Darien! Every word that came out of your mouth was the God's honest truth, and you KNOW that!!"

"Please, about yesterday…"

"Everything from the freaking tattoo being 'cool' to…"

"Tattoo?" asked Andrew from behind me. We both ignored him.

"To… to you telling me that you loved me! That was true also, wasn't it, Darien?" Suddenly, the anger in her voice melted away to be replaced with sadness and longing. For the first time, I noticed that she was trying to fight back tears.

I didn't know what to say or do. She was right, every word. I was in love with her. And at that moment, all I seemed to be able to think of doing was taking her into my arms and kissing her, whispering those three little words into her ear again and again…

But something stopped me.

Her determined head bowed slightly, looking down at the floor. I could see her trembling, only inches away.

"You told me you loved me! But you couldn't stop there, could you?" she whispered, her eyes hooking onto mine again. "You had to make me fall in love with you, too. You… you had to be so perfect, didn't you, Darien? You couldn't leave me alone with my sanity and… How dare you…"

My lip began to quiver slightly, as my hands grasped at the seat of the stool, trying so desperately hard not to wrap my arms around her and pull her into an earth-shattering kiss, like so many last night. I was still leaning back against the counter, still pushing myself away from her. Did she have to be standing so close? Can't she see what she's doing to my self-control?! Or… maybe that's her idea…

After a silence had passed over us, simply staring into each other's gazes, she finally closed her eyes, bowing her head again in defeat. "I love you, Darien. You made me love you. And now… I can't lose you. You were… you are exactly what I wanted, exactly what I've always dreamed of… I don't want to lose you…" She whimpered, a tear escaping from beneath her eyelid. My heart cracked inside my chest. I could reach up so easily and…

Then why don't you?

Biting my lip, I forced my hand to do what it was aching so badly to do, and yet that one little action scared my rational mind stiff. Reaching up, I wiped the tear away, gently caressing her cheek. She gasped, looking up at me again. Instantly, I pulled my hand back, grasping onto the stool like before. This is why I never act on impulse, never give into temptation, because then people only look at me like I'm a freak and… and… is that hope I see in her eyes?

She gulped, moving steadily closer. I tried to back away, but the counter refused to allow it.

"Darien…" she whispered, and I could sense myself begin to shake. At the moment, I felt like a deer caught in headlights, nowhere to turn, nowhere to run. She continued to move closer. One of her hands is barely touching the material of my shirt, sending my heart to 200 miles per hour speeds. Unconsciously, I whimpered, my lip quivering again. "If you won't be sporadic…" she paused again and I could feel my blood boil through my veins. Serena, what are you trying to do to me?! "… I will."

Those were the last words she spoke for a very long time. The next thing I knew, her small, delicate lips were kissing me for all she was worth. Her arms wrapped around my neck as the passion rose up in both of us. I tried in vain to keep my eyes open, my arms from pulling her closer, but soon, my eyes drifted close and I leaned forward, delighting in her taste. Shakily, my arms reached around to tie about her waist. I unknowingly slid off the stool, practically bending her fragile body beneath me. My lips ravaged her, parted them, and slowly slid my tongue in. She wasted no time in matching my kisses with her own.

When finally we broke apart, aeons later, I was gasping for breath, my arms refusing against all costs to loosen their hold. My eyes opened slowly. Her face was in that same love-drowned expression I remember loving on her so much. But something was different. Crystal tears were rolling down her flushed cheeks. With a whimper, her head fell onto my chest.

"Serena…" I whispered hoarsely, not knowing what to say. Craning my neck, I kissed away a few of her tears as they fell, feeling her shudder beneath me.

Burying her face into my shirt, she whispered, "I just found you. I don't want to lose you, Darien. I don't want to lose you."

I gulped, kissing her head. "I… I thought I'D lost YOU, Meatball Head."

Damp eyes slowly looked up into mine, hope and love shining deep within their depths. "Do you still love me?" she whispered.

I inhaled sharply, leaning my forehead against hers. "More than anything in this world. Please forgive me, Serena… For what happened last night. When I snapped out of it… I just… got scared…"

A small grin tilted her lips at the corners. "Oh, Darien…"

"Do you still love me?" I teased gently. She giggled.

"Getting there…"

Chuckling, I kissed her forehead. "Yet?"


With a broad, mischievous grin, I bent down and swept her into my arms. She screeched in surprise, kicking her feet for a moment. "Alright, I love you, I love you!"

Leaning down, I kissed her neck gently, and she squealed again, thrashing around in my arms, a blush staining her cheeks. We were both well aware of the many stares we were receiving.

Continuously showering her with kisses, I headed out of the arcade. Might as well start living the rest of our lives together now!

"Darien, stop it! Where are you taking me? What are you doing?!"

Laughing joyfully, I exclaimed, "I'm acting on impulse!"


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