Well, I'm finally here. And it was pretty much all I expected it to be: Shitty. Life pretty much sucks without you. I start my new school tomorrow. (rolls eyes) Can't wait. I'm sure that'll be a barrel of laughs. Did you know that I cried almost the whole trip there? I could tell my parents were ready to strangle me by the time we got to our new house, but they didn't say anything. They have to know how hard it is for me being away from you. I can't believe I'll never see you in the hallways or locker room again. I'll never be able to stop by your locker to chat or walk home with you. It's so depressing. But I guess I'll survive, even though I don't see how. Well, just wanted to drop a line. Hopefully, I'll hear from you soon.
I'm glad to know you're so miserable without me, because I am without you. Kenny's been hitting on me more than usual lately. I don't know what to make of that. I don't know if I should tell him to get lost or just wait it out. He's basically the only friend I've got right now, so I guess I'll just have to deal with it. Nothing seems as interesting to me as it was before. Playing Okama Gamesphere by myself isn't exactly thrilling. Sure, there's Kenny to play against, but he's always kicking my ass so it's not nearly as much fun as had it been with you. I've been filling up all my spare time doing homework and studying. It's been so lonely without anyone to 'play' with. You know what I mean. Is there any possibility that you'll be moving back to South Park in the near future? Just wishful thinking on my part. (sighs) Even though I'm surrounded by hundreds of students every day, the hallways seem emptier somehow. I know my heart is.
Wishing you were here where home is,
My first day of school began today and already, I feel like a fish out of water. What better place to feel like that than the East Coast? The kids are nice, I guess, but there's just something missing. Oh. You. I feel the same way, too. I hope we can hang in there. I do wish I was moving back, but it looks like that won't be happening any time soon. My dad seems happier with his new job. At least we're not bankrupt. We're able to afford a bigger house. Not exactly Beverly Hills, but it's still pretty nice. My next door neighbor, Callie, seems interested in me. She's always flirting with me, offering to show me around town. I politely turn her down every time, making up lame excuses. I don't even care that they sound believable; I just want her off my back. As of this moment, I hate my parents for splitting us apart.
Hugs and kisses,
I joined the football team. The guys are pretty nice. One in particular seems to like me. A lot. He doesn't say it in so many words, but I can just sense it. The way he looks at me and plus, he's always finding little ways to touch me. He's good looking, I guess, but not as cute as you. He doesn't have nice, curly hair to run my fingers through. I still think about you, all the time. I don't know how you still drive me crazy, even from 3 thousand miles away. I have an idea. Every night, why don't we look up at the stars, pick one out, and make a wish? Wish for anything. I'll do it too. That way it'll be like we're together. I know it won't be the same, but at least it'll be something. I miss you so much. I cry myself to sleep almost every night, thinking about you and all the love we'll miss out on.
But what can we do? Oh. My mom's calling me to dinner. I better go. Can't wait to hear from you again.
not sure if I should tell you this, but the other night, Kenny made a
pass at me. Then he declared his love for me. I was so surprised; I
didn't say anything for a while. I don't know what to do. Part of me
still feels loyal to you and I would feel guilty if I returned Kenny's
affections and feelings. But on the other hand, we broke up just for
this reason. I'm so confused. Tell me what I should do. I like your
idea of wishing on a star together. I'll wish that you were here with
me so I wouldn't have to deal with Kenny and tell him how I feel. Why
did this have to happen?
Sure, it saddens me to learn that Kenny loves you, but I'm not surprised at all. After all, you're a pretty loveable guy. Actually, I'm glad to hear you won't be totally alone. I was afraid of what you might gradually think and do now that I'm gone. I never want anything bad to happen to you. Like I promised you, you'll always be my one and only. No one could ever replace you. But I also want you to be able to love again. There's no use sitting around pining away for little ol' me. You'll never get my blessing because, well, I still love you and always will. I want to be the one to comfort and please you. But to ease your conscious and guide you in the right direction, go for it. Tell him how you feel. Cuz if you don't, it'll slowly eat away at you and in the end, you'll wished you would've done something about it. Just trust your instincts. I only want you to be happy and safe.
I'm so relieved you're not mad at me. Even though it pained me to tell you about Kenny, I feel so much better to get it off my chest. I want you to be able to love and enjoy life again, too. There's this big hole in my heart and maybe Kenny was sent to me to fill that void. I don't know. He's coming over tonight to study, but I doubt we'll get much done. (blushing) I know I'll never love him the way I loved you, but love's always worth a shot, isn't it?
Kyle chuckled softly as Kenny's lips tickled his neck. Kenny's body was so warm against his. Kyle tightened his arms around the blond, praying that he wouldn't disappear on him, either. Kenny raised his head up and there was an uncharacteristic look of seriousness on his face. "You know, I don't want to rush you if you're not ready for this. I can understand if you don't want to..." he was cut off by Kyle's mouth trapping his in a gentle kiss.
"Believe me, I want to. I wasn't sure at first, but now I am. You're the one I want to be with." Kyle rolled on top of him, pinning Kenny underneath him. He inched his hand up his shirt, running his hand over the other boy's smooth, young skin. Kenny closed his eyes. Kyle could tell that he liked what he was doing. Kyle's courage grew and the hand pulled out of his shirt and down towards the belt on Kenny's jeans.
"Kyle." Kenny's voice seemed like a dream. "Kyle. Wait." Kyle's hand snapped back and Kenny's eyes popped open. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I – I thought you were ready." Kyle stammered.
Kenny placed a finger on his lips to shush him. "I am. I just wanted to tell you something." He took the finger away and ran it lightly across his face, making Kyle tingle with desire. "What?" he asked.
Kenny reached a hand behind Kyle's head and pulled him close for the most erotic kiss he'd ever experienced. Kyle felt like his whole body was on fire. "I love you." Kenny said once they'd parted. Kyle smiled. "I love you too. You know, we really should study something. I think that's why you came over." He said, burying his face into Kenny's neck.
"Oh we'll study something alright. Just not books." Kenny grinned wickedly. Kyle could tell Kenny was smiling and he held back laughter. He always made him laugh at something. That's what he liked about Kenny. He was always able to make light of any situation, serious or not.
"Where should we start?" Kyle asked, looking at his new lover. "Mmm. I have a pretty good idea." With that, he rolled Kyle over so he was straddling him. He quickly went about removing the redhead's clothes and his own. The night wore on as the two made love and pleasured each other over and over again.
Sometime later in the night, Kenny lay in the crook of Kyle's arm, naked and fast asleep. Kyle looked out his bedroom window, remembering Stan's idea to wish upon a star. He turned his head back and stared intently at Kenny. He smiled to himself as he felt his mind slowly slip into a state of oblivion. He believed his wish already came true. Yep, love was definitely worth a shot.
A/N: Sorry for the delay. I know the ending's kinda lame, but please review anyway. Thanks.