summary: Legolas/Estel POV something happens to someone close breaking the friends apart

rating PG-13

disclaimer: its mine precious...all mine...

Legolas POV

Oh my father, how did this happen? Why did you sacrifice yourself for me? You are always so selfless...no matter what everyone else thinks...I have always loved you...

"Leg..." your voice is raspy...not its normal strong tone...

"Shh, don't speak...help is on the way..." a tear trails down my cheek...I never thought this would happen to you...to me you were always strong...invincible...but now...please don't leave me Ada...I don't know what to do without you...it scares me to see you so...your hair is ripped out in places its gold shine replaced by dark matted blood...what did they do to you before I found you...I can't think of it...

"Legolas..." Valar you sound so weak...no...how can I stop so much bleeding?

"Hold on father..." I hear myself whisper.

I can tell you are trying to open your eyes...but they are swollen shut...you barely resemble the great king you really are...

Horses...I can hear horses...just hold on a little longer...someone is coming...

"Legolas?" it is Estel...see Ada...Estel is coming...he can help...just hold on...

"Over here Estel..." I call back.

"By the Valar what happened?" his eyes were wide...there is not a part of you that is not covered in blood or cuts...even bits of skin are missing in places, "Thranduil?" he is complete shock... "How...how long has he...?" Even Estel can't think straight.

"I don't know...he went out a few days ago...found him like this...the others...they have disappeared..." I can feel myself shaking... "You have to help him..."

"Let me get to him," I realise I am hovering right over him.

Estel is silent for many minutes what is wrong?

Estel POV

"Legolas?" how can I tell him this? "You know you will have to take the throne..."

"I know..." No...you don't.

"No, Permanently..." I shake my head.

"What? What are you..." the confusion on his face...

"He is dead..." I tell him softly.

"No...he's...no..."

"Legolas please..." I have to get him to see reason.

"You're lying," is that his voice? So full of venom...hate... "He'll be alright..."

"Mellon nîn..."

"No...you're not my friend...my friend would not lie..."

"See for yourself."

"No...you are only human..." that hurt...I know I am human but... "I hate you..."

That hurt even more...

"Legolas," I know he is only in pain...but the way he said it...

"You let him die...you could have done something..." why does he accuse me so?

"Legolas...how can you say that...I was too late...perhaps you were too late..."

"No..." the grief in his eyes...

"I know..."

"You know nothing." This is not Legolas...I know that...but it does not help...he reaches for his father...I go to follow... "Get out of here Aragorn..." I never knew his voice could be so cold...

"Legolas..."

"If I ever see you in Mirkwood again you will be killed on the spot..." Did he really say that? I know I must look...I don't know how I look...

"Legolas..." I try calling him but he ignores me...dejected I just leave...hoping that my friend will come to his senses soon...

Legolas POV

I stop walking momentarily...what have I done? I hear Estel's voice...but I turn...he and his horse have gone...what have I done?

We were so close...like brothers...but now...

/No/ a small voice creeps in my mind.../it was his fault...it is because he was too late that your father is now dead in your arms...you did the right thing.../

/Did I?/ an even smaller voice asked but is soon silenced...I managed for hundreds of years before he came along...I will manage again...