CHAPTER 16 – The Final
"Can I take this
stupid thing off now?" Stacey asked as she reached up with her free hand
to tug on the dark scarf that covered her eyes. I had a tight hold on her other
arm and was leading her to a 'secret' location where I told her I had a
surprise waiting for her.
"No, you can't. We're not there yet." I chuckled as I led her through a winding path that led to my surprise. It was actually a pretty straight shot there from the car, but I was trying to throw her off so that she wouldn't ruin the surprise. Tonight was supposed to be special.
"Come on. This fuckin thing itches. And I keep tripping over something because I can't see where I'm goin." Stacey whined. She didn't really like surprises, even when they were the really sweet ones that I seemed to be intent on giving her.
"Fine then. I'll carry you so you don't trip." With that I swept Stacey into my arms. "But you have to keep the blindfold on 'til we get there." I continued walking with a slightly less unpleased Stacey in my arms.
A few minutes later, we had arrived at the secret location, and I sat Stacey down on her feet. "Okay, we're here. You can take the blindfold off now."
Stacey reached up and ripped the scarf off her head. When her eyes focussed, she couldn't believe what she was seeing. "Oh my god." She gasped as she continued to look around.
We were at the city park, overlooking the water. There was a table set for two, with candles and lights all over the place. In the middle of the table was a vase filled with two dozen red roses.
"Happy Valentine's Day." I said as I wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed her gently on the lips.
"I was so pissed off with you all day. I thought you had forgotten" I told him smiling at the memory. He chuckled slightly too. We both lost our smiles knowing what was coming next. "That's all we have isn't it?" I asked "Happy memories. We don't have anything else to keep us together. We're just causing each other more heart ache. We're not good for one another. We just need to wash our hands of us."
"No we don't" he said "I love you. I want to be with you, and Junior. We can make new memories."
"Love isn't enough Dom. All we do is hurt each other or argue. We're not the people we use to be anymore. We're not right for each other." He argued with me a while longer trying to persuade me that we were good for each other and that we should be together. But he knew what I was saying was true.
We were perfect for each other once upon a time, a time I'll never forget and a time I would always look back at and smile. But all of that is in the past. Nothing more would come of me and Dom, and we both knew it.
"I'll always love you" he told me as I went to exit the kitchen."And I'll always love you…" I told him crying still. "I'll leave in the morning with Junior. For good. I won't come back for anything no matter what happens. We both gotta get on with our lives now Dom, without each other."
He sat at the table tears streaming down his face too. He nodded at me, silently agreeing.
I stood at the grave thinking about what I had put her through. All the wrong choices I had made that affected her more than anyone. And I hated myself so much. I'd never really apologised to her for any of it and now I'd never get the chance.
She left the day after that fight. That was three years ago…we talked on the phone occasionally and she brought Junior over two weekends of every month but didn't stay. She stayed with Tej and I didn't see her. Said it was too much for her. And now she was gone…
She was killed in a car crash last week. She was driving Jade back down to California to give her to Mia. Stacey had no use for her now and wanted someone who would take care of her, and Mia was just the person.
Junior wasn't in the car. He was with Tia back in Mexico. Stacey wouldn't take Junior in Jade, said it was too dangerous. Guess she was right. There was a big pile up on the expressway. It killed three people (Stacey being one of them) and injured 27 other people.
2ND MAY 1976– 25TH APRIL 2004
She didn't want to be an Allgood because of Mark and she didn't want to be a Smith either because of her Dad. So she changed her name to Toretto.
We had all decided what to put on the grave and 'Speed Junkie' just seemed right. We could have put 'proud mother, friend, lover' or 'we will all miss you'. But 'Speed Junkie' summed her up perfectly.
She had always said the rush would kill her. And that's the way she wanted to go out—with adrenaline running through her veins the wind blowing through her hair, and Jade roaring with pleasure. She died how she wanted to die and I'm thankful for that. But I still miss her and had so much to tell her…but she is with Jesse now…peaceful I hope; waiting for that time when we could make new memories. Yeah, she was waiting for me. Looking down on me and Junior. Laughing at how he was so like me.
I'd see her again…I would…I knew I would.
"I love you" I said placing a rose on her tombstone.