Title: You Can Never Escape Your Past
Spoiler: This story is a continuation of Viva Las Vegas.
Disclaimer I have nothing to do with The Agency and receive no
Since Stiles and Terri are now secretly married. I've changed some of the scenes to have it play out a little different. This part is after Our Man in Washington.
When Terri walked in the room Joshua went right to her and put his arms around her. "Thank God you're okay. I was so worried about you."
Terri didn't return his hug; she just stared at him for a second, and took a deep breath. "Really, you were worried about me Joshua? You almost killed my baby." Terri yelled as she slapped him across the face.
Joshua stepped back a little stunned, "Terri, I never meant for any of this to happen."
"Your mole operation was directly responsible for Matt's death. I spent months feeling guilty, thinking I did something wrong. You kept telling me it wasn't my fault, you just forgot to tell me it was yours."
"I know that you may never forgive me, but believe me I'm glad Stiles got you out of that barn. I never wanted you to get hurt."
"Stiles." Terri said quietly as she started to cry. Joshua put his hand on her shoulder, and she pushed it away. "You almost cost him his life. You knew I loved him, even then. I almost never got the chance to be his wife." Stiles walked up next to Terri and put his arms around Terri as she cried. After a few moments she looked at Joshua again. "I thought of you like a father." She said very quietly so only Stiles heard her. "I feel like when my father died all over again." Stiles just held her, and tried to reassure her.
"I'm going in the other room." Joshua said as he walked out. Jackson, Lex and Carl also left. They wanted to give Stiles time to calm her down before she had to face Jin Kim. As the new Assistant Director of the CIA she needed to keep her composure.
"Honey. Its okay, you don't have to do this now. Carl can handle talking to Kim alone if you want."
"Stiles I want to do this. I want him to know that I'm the one that is in charge now. He is going to have to do what I say." Terri said this very calmly and sure of herself. "Joshua, he was so important to me. Jin Kim means nothing. I can deal with him."
"Terri, don't forget that Joshua risked a lot by telling me where you were."
"Are you saying I should forget what he did to me?" Terri sounded almost angry at Stiles.
"No. Terri, I'm not sure that I wouldn't do the same thing if it were to save you."
"Stiles you're not like that. You could never."
"Terri, if things turned out differently, I was ready to trade places with you. I would have done anything Jin Kim wanted if he would let you go. I'm not saying what he did was right. He was trying to protect the person he loved most. I'm just saying that I understand."
Terri thought about what Stiles said. What if somehow Kim had gotten Stiles, she would have cooperated to save his life. "I'll think about what you said. I know I would have done anything to save you too. I love you." Terri kissed him gently on the lips. "I have to go in with Carl to talk to Jin Kim now."
"I love you too. Do you want me to go with you?"
"No. I can do it. I'll be fine." Stiles kissed Terri and walked into the other room. Terri sat down and thought about what she wanted to say to him.
Carl walked out, "Stiles said you're ready." She nodded and followed Carl to the room Jin Kim was waiting in.
Stiles looked at Joshua. "Joshua it's just going to take some time."
"Stiles I don't care if she ever forgives me. I am just glad that she's okay."
Jackson walked up and put his hand on Stiles shoulder. "Stiles how are you holding up?"
"I'm fine. I've got my wife home and she's going to have a baby. I've never been better."
"I was talking about Gage. How are you handling that?"
"Oh. Okay, I guess, I came clean with my stepfather about everything. He was sorry about what his brother did to us. I can't believe Quinn murdered him."
"Don't worry by the time we get done here, Quinn will be sitting in a jail cell."
Lex was confused about something. "We are going to have Jin Kim in our control. When Quinn stands trial for espionage won't it come out that he sold to the North Koreans."
Jackson looked at him. "Stiles' mission was compromised in Iraq. The story will change slightly that he sold information to Iraq. As for Matt, they'll set it up to look like Quinn was working with Polvon. I'm sure Polvon would cooperate just to get better treatment in prison."
Lex nodded, "So even when we come clean. Its still all lies."
Stiles realized Lex was right. He sometimes wondered if he would have been better off just staying in the Marines. That thought usually only lasted until Terri walked though the room on her way to Kim's room, she looked at him and smiled. While Terri and Carl were in with Kim, Stiles thought about how everything was going to be different. He wasn't looking forward to going out in the field without Terri.
Terri and Carl walked into the room. She looked at Kim and took a deep breath. "Looks like the tides have turned. I really like your necklace Mr. Kim, it looks good on you."
"I never should have listened to Joshua. I should have killed you immediately." Terri now realized that Joshua was trying to protect her.
"Weren't you afraid that she had told others about Joshua?" Carl walked up to him. "I am prepared to offer you a deal."
"I have nothing to say to you."
"That's fine you can just listen." Terri told him as she sat down next to Carl.
"I have proof that Joshua was a double agent. You have been fed misinformation for the past 12 years. You are nothing more that a CIA pawn."
"That's a lie."
Terri got up and walked to the door. "Is it?" Joshua walked in and sat next to Carl. Terri sat back down on the other side of Carl. "Look, Mr. Kim I think we can all agree, nothing good would come out of our two countries going to war. As long as you cooperate with us, no one will know that you were a fool for the past twelve years."
"Joshua is this all true?"
"Yes. When you approached me, I went straight to Mr. Quinn. He told me what he wanted you to know. I was following orders. I never betrayed my country." He put his head down and quietly mumbled. "Only my friends."
After a long stretch of arguing back and forth an agreement was reached with Kim. When Terri walked out of the room Stiles could see she was exhausted. "Terri you still need your rest. Lets go home." Terri just nodded. In the morning Carl and Terri would confront Quinn in his prison cell. She really needed a good night's rest before that.
Stiles and Terri walked into their home. "Do you want some tea? Are you hungry? I'll make you something."
"Stiles, you don't have to. I'll get something for us."
"I want you to take it easy."
"I'm fine." Terri sat down on the couch and Stiles walked over and sat next to her. "Joshua kept me alive, Kim wanted to kill me right away that first night." Stiles pulled her close to him expecting her to cry again instead she smiled at him. "I'm fine. Stiles it's behind us. We promised the other night to keep our past where it belongs." She kissed him.
"I have one question for you."
"Will I have to call you Mrs. Stiles at work now Boss?" Terri started laughing. "Come on let's go get something to eat. I'm hungry." The two of them went in the kitchen to fix a snack before going to bed.
Terri had trouble sleeping she was wondering what she would say to Quinn in the morning.
Everyone at work was trying their best to get on and do their jobs. Carl called a morning meeting, in which he would let everyone know exactly what was going on. It was a full staff meeting so it was in the auditorium. Stiles sat in the front row with Lex, Jackson and Joshua. He squeezed Terri's hand as she walked up to the stage area to take her place next to Carl.
Carl called the meeting to order. "Everyone, I will make this as short as possible, many of you know that Director Gage was murdered yesterday." Carl paused as those who didn't know got over the initial shock. "We all know about the mole, Mr. Quinn was running someone as a double agent. Mr. Nankin was only following orders in doing what he did." Most of the people were craning their necks to look at Joshua; he just put his head down in shame. Terri looked at him couldn't help feeling sorry for him. "As I said Mr. Nankin was following the orders of Director Gage and Mr. Quinn. The one thing that I think everyone in this room needs to know is that Mr. Nankin refused to follow their orders when they said to let Terri Lowell Stiles be taken to North Korea. The FBI is holding Mr. Quinn for his crimes. He is also a suspect in the murder of Director Gage. Director Gage went along with his double agent operation since this past December. I have met with President Bush, and have been named the new Director, and Mrs. Stiles the Assistant Director. We will be doing everything in our power to make sure nothing like this ever happens again. No officer should ever be abandoned by us when they are in trouble, I won't allow that. Mrs. Stiles and I have both agreed to an open door policy, if you have a problem come and talk to one of us. We will not tolerate our officers' lives being put in danger unnecessarily. Your jobs are dangerous enough."
The group began to applaud. Stiles was the first to stand up, everyone followed suit giving Carl and Terri a standing ovation.
Terri and Carl went to see Quinn. "Good morning Robert. Are theses accommodations suitable for you?" Carl chuckled as he said that.
Terri added, "I always though stripes looked good on him." They both laughed.
Quinn was mad, he didn't like the likes of Reese and Lowell making light of him. "What do you want?"
"Terri why don't you go first."
"Thank you Carl, I do have something to say to Mr. Quinn. I will not let the likes of you get me down. You lost. I'm not in North Korea and I know all about you and your schemes. I know how you continuously risked our officers' lives for your own profit." Terri threw some files on the desk; they were Quinn's banking records. He looked at them and then back at her.
Terri finished and looked to Carl, she wanted to yell at him that he almost killed her baby; she wouldn't give him the satisfaction. "Robert here is the deal, you will sign a confession that you killed Gage. I think we can get the death penalty off the table. You will serve life in prison."
"I don't see how this benefits me."
"Robert, if what you did really comes out in the public, the CIA, Homeland Security will be gone. The citizens will have no faith in us."
"I love my country everything I did, I believed would benefit the United States."
Terri realized Quinn was sick, he really believed he was doing what was best. "Look, I understand that you did your best. We need you to do that now. You know that the CIA has information that could stop Al-Queda if this comes out, nobody will take it seriously. It would be better if they just thought you and Gage were having disagreements and you wanted your job back."
"I was a better director than Gage."
Carl saw what Terri was doing. "I know that Robert, we need to save the agency. Everyone there will know that you saved it, and all their jobs."
Quinn had a gleam in his eye. He actually believed he would be the hero if he signed, he wrote up the confession stating that Tom was inept and needed to be removed so he removed him.
Terri and Carl walked out. "Good move in there Terri."
"I can't believe he fell for it."
"We got him, and we won't have to bring out all the other stuff." Quinn was off to spend the rest of his life in the worst federal prison in the country, where he would begin to write his memoirs. Of course Carl would see to it that it would never be released.
Terri told Stiles when she finished with Quinn she was going to clear out her desk in OTS. While Stiles was waiting for her he was talking to Joshua and Lex. Joshua was teasing him. "Your life will never be the same again Mr. Stiles. Getting up in the middle of the night, changing diapers." Lex just laughed. "And if you think the romance will keep up after the baby you're nuts."
"I'm not worried about that. Terri and I will be fine." Stiles smiled "I'm kind of looking forward to 2 am feedings."
None of them heard Terri walk in. "I now have witnesses." Stiles kissed her. "Lex I might have to call you when he doesn't want to get up to remind him of this." everyone laughed. Terri looked over at Joshua, he knew what Terri thought of him so he got up and walked into his office. He didn't think Terri wanted him to be any part of her happiness. He thought it was nice to see her smiling. Terri looked at Stiles who nodded to her. Terri got up and walked into Joshua's office. "Joshua," he looked up at her surprised, "Can we talk?"
Joshua stood up. "Of course. Terri, please sit down." Terri sat down across from him, she thought about all the times she had sat there to get his advice. Work and personal. Some happy and some sad. Joshua sat down. He could see Terri was lost in thoughts and wasn't sure what he should do. "Penny for your thoughts."
"Do you really think they're worth that much?" Joshua smiled.
Stiles was watching even though he couldn't see her face, he could tell that she was smiling too. "Lex, lets go grab some coffee."
"Are you sure Terri will be ok? In there with Joshua?"
"Lex, she'll be fine." Stiles and Lex left to go to the food court.
"Terri, I don't know what to say to you. I'm sorry for everything I did to you and Stiles."
"Joshua, it hurt me. Joshua so many things you have done hurt me." Joshua put his head down. "Joshua I don't know what to feel, you have been like a father to me. I know that you have given me some good advice. I will always remember everything. Good and bad."
"I understand. Terri I'm truly happy that you and your baby are okay."
"I know that Joshua. I would be dead if you didn't tell Stiles where I was."
"Terri, I just wish of all the places to confront me, anyplace but there."
"Joshua, confronting you, finding out that you were the mole it was the hardest thing for me to do. I can't ever forget it, but I've told Stiles we need to put the past where it belongs, back there. We can't let it get in the way of the future."
Joshua looked up at her hopeful. "Are you forgiving me?"
"I don't know if I can. But Joshua I have always loved talking to you. I know that Stiles and I wouldn't be where we are if you hadn't pushed me. I was so scared after Jeff, you helped me see what I was feeling, then I remember how you almost took that away from me." Joshua looked at her confused, he didn't know how to answer her she was right. "I want to try. I can't promise anything, but I would like to try to start over for us."
"I want that too. More than anything. Terri please know that Quinn always assured me that no one would get hurt. I would never put you or Stiles in danger on purpose."
"Enough about the past." Joshua nodded. Terri wanted to talk to Joshua about the baby, "Do you really think Stiles is ready for fatherhood?"
"No." They both started laughing. "I think he is terrified, but I also think that somehow you two will figure it out together."
"I hope so. I want this so much. I want us to be happy. I guess you know all about the wedding in Vegas."
"I heard Elvis." Terri started laughing.
"You don't know how many times I wanted to tell you about that. I knew you would love that."
"Terri, I know how much Stiles loves you. You should have seen him around here. He is completely lost without you."
"Really?" Terri was smiling. It was nice to know how much Stiles cared. They walked out of the office. "Where do you think they went?"
"Probably the food court. I think Mr. Stiles is the one eating for two." Terri laughed as they got on the elevator. They were still laughing as they walked into the food court.
Stiles looked up at her and smiled. "Over here. I'll get you a nice healthy snack." Joshua put his hand on Stiles' shoulder and nodded a thank you. Stiles came back with a fruit cup.
"I don't want that. I want some cake. Chocolate."
Joshua looked at him. "Mr. Stiles allow me." Joshua got up and brought back the biggest piece of chocolate cake he could find. "Here you go Terri."
Jackson and Carl walked in and saw them. "Hey guys." Jackson said with a smile. He was very happy to see Terri laughing. It was a familiar sight, Terri, Stiles, Lex and Joshua. "I was wondering why don't we all go get something to eat?"
Terri looked at Stiles. "I have a better idea."
"What?" Stiles asked.
"How about pizza at our place. We can watch our wedding video from Vegas."
All agreed. It was a great night for all of them. It was a new beginning. Things were back to normal and Terri would eventually completely forgive Joshua. Joshua would once again be a person Terri could count on, and as we know things won't always be smooth sailing for her and Stiles. She would need Joshua in the future, and he would always be there for her.
A/N Please let me know what you think. I have the final part of the trilogy to post if you're interested.