-1Welcome To my Life

Can't take It

A/n: I do not own Teen titans, Beastboy, Raven, or any of the other characters… they all belong to their creators, DC Comics, yadda… lol… and to those who have already read this, I thank you so much for doing so! I decided to just delete the original Story and decided to add onto Welcome to My Life, since, well, this is kind of what happens next. Another Songfic, based on All American Reject's Can't Take It. Thanks, and enjoy!

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The air was thick with fog and mist as Beastboy looked through the broken wall of Raven's room. Everything happened in slow motion, like someone pressed the paused button for two seconds on his life. She had finally snapped, and he couldn't understand what he did to make her do this.

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Beastboy crept towards Raven's room and gently knocked on her door. He was hoping that she would join him on a grand all expense paid trip to the movie theater. Ever since that one incident that happened between the two of them, things have gotten better with her. She went out more with the rest of them and even smiled every now and then. Tonight, however, was different. Tonight was just going to be them.

He knocked, a little more forcefully, and then yelled out her name. "Raven? It's me, Beastboy. I Was wondering if you wanted to go to a movie tonight, my treat! "Goo Zombies, Revenge of the Nebula People 5" is playing and, Raven?" Beastboy swallowed and opened her door. He walked in, but couldn't see anything. The room was pitch black.

"Raven? Are you-"

"GET OUT!"

Beastboy stumbled a bit, but he didn't leave. He felt along the wall until his fingers fumbled upon a light switch. He flipped it on and a million little lights flickered on across her room, like tiny candles. He focused his attention over to where she was lying, sprawled across her bed. Her clothes were tattered and ripped, blood was oozing from her wrists and face, and tears were streaming down her face.

"R-Raven? What did you do to yourself!?"

"Don't come any closer!" She got to a sitting position on her bed as her eyes glew a bright white. Black energy started to form around her body, and her hands were shaking uncontrollably. Her hair was sprawled across her face, a few strands sticking to her sweaty forehead.

"Raven…. I thought, you were getting better, you were, happy…"

"I want to leave, Beastboy… leave everything and just, be alone. Like this."

You speak to me
I know this will be temporary
You ask to leave,
but I can tell you that I've had enough

"Raven… I can't handle anymore of this!" Beastboy crept closer to her, but she held her hand up again, this time with more strength and power swirling around her.

"I can't stand all of this team work crap, Beastboy. You're trying to get me more involved, more social towards the others. They make me sick, you make me sick, I-"

"You don't mean that Rae… you've lost a lot of blood and your delusional, you need-"

"Help? No thanks, especially from you."

Beastboy's heart fell apart right then and there. His chest was throbbing, his face was flushed, and he could feel the hurt creeping up to his eyes. "I can't handle you anymore Raven. You keep changing, I don't know whether to hate you or to love you." Raven didn't move from her position on her bed, but Beastboy took a few steps closer to her. "You can't do this, Raven. Your little pity party is over, I'm done feeling sorry for you. I can't stand you right now."

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

Beastboy turned and walked away. He was sick and tired of Raven's little moods. At times he was so mad at her that she and just go a head and leave the Titans, it wouldn't be his problem, it would be hers.

Raven's eyes grew wide as she watched him go. She muttered something under her breath as black energy swirled around his body. His shock was noticeable as she pined him against a wall.

"Raven! What are you doing?!"

She held a hand out as she controlled the swirling magic. She crept out of her bed, blood dripping down her face and from her wrists. Beastboy's eyes widened in complete shock: she looked so pale and so fragile, he was afraid that she was going to collapse.

"I didn't want you to see me in this state. I-I'm scared."

"Of what!?"

Raven looked into his eyes as they filled with tears. "I, I don't know. I can't live here anymore Beastboy, I can't pretend anymore." Raven looked away and lowered her head so he couldn't see her weakness. "I'm afraid to tell you all I need to tell you."

Step up to me

I know that you've got something buried
I'll set you free
You set conditions, but I've had enough

Beastboy was furious at this point. He tried to transform into the biggest animals he could think of, to escape. He didn't want to hear all of this. After a while he got tired and just gave up. "Raven, don't be afraid to tell me things. I care about you so much raven, I-"

"Shut up!" Raven tightened her grip on him as his breath escaped from his lungs. Her tears were coming down her face fiercely, and now her entire body was shaking from pain.

"Raven… I-I love you."

Raven's eyes grew wide as she released her grip from around him. He fell with a thud to the floor, and he just lied there, motionless. She knelt down beside him and touched his back with her hand. It glew back as a white light surrounded his body.

"I'm sorry, Beastboy. I-I can't take this anymore."

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

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Beastboy closed his eyes and held back the tears that were forming in this eyes. When he woke up, she was gone. There was a huge hole in her wall, and a note laying on the floor. It was covered with blood and tears, and had a very sloppy but still legible "Love is for the weak." He held the note in his hand and scrunched it up into a ball. Her leaving, her being in pain, her cutting herself, for some reason, he thought it was all his fault. He couldn't save her, and now he would have to deal with it for the rest of his life.

He felt a slight chill as a small breeze blew through the room. He shivered as he moved closer to the hole. It was snowing outside, which was extremely odd weather for this time of year. He didn't want her to leave, he needed her to stay here, with him.

Come back home, won't you come back home?
You step in line, you got a lot to prove
It comes and goes
Yeah, it comes and goes
A step in time, yeah it's a lot to move

Raven looked at him from the roof of the Tower. She could see him, the tears running down his face, the hopelessness and failure he was emitting was so strong it made her want to puke. She didn't want this, she didn't need this. She wanted to be far away from people, especially the Titans, especially Beastboy.

She wanted to seclude herself, to bury herself in the ground and just rot there. She winced as she felt the cold against her cuts and sores. She welcomed the pain into her body, and she welcomed the cool feeling of the snow from above. She was just so sick of it all, of her feelings and emotions. Having fun with her friends, actually enjoying herself, it made her want to puke even more then seeing Beastboy standing there. She had nothing left inside of her to give, and now she was just tired.

I know this will be temporary

I know this will be temporary
I know this will be, but I've had enough

She'll come back, I know she will. She's just going through some weird demon phase. She'll come back and apologize, and then we'll go to that movie and all will be forgiven. Beastboy fell to his knees and watched as the snow fell onto the bay. He knew that this wasn't true, that he had lost her for good this time, but he was going to wish and pray for her return, like a little school boy wishing for a new bike on a falling star.

Raven pulled her cloak over her head and transformed into her Raven form. She spread her wings and flew away from the tower, from Beastboy. Blood was falling from her wings and dripping into the bay. She was falling apart, on the inside and outside, and she honestly couldn't care less. The snow melted against her feathers as she flew deep into the city.

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

Beastboy perked his head up when he heard the sound. The siren was going off, and there was trouble in the city. He could hear the footsteps outside the door, running to the main room. He heard a knock at the door, and then heard Cyborg's voice.

"Come on, Rae. We need to get going here! Hey Star, did you find BB?"

Beastboy couldn't imagine life without Raven, without teasing her, hugging her, fighting by her side. He cried a few more tears before dropping Raven's note to the ground. It rolled out of the Tower and into the bay below. Beastboy looked back at the door, and then back at the bay. He transformed himself into a Raven and flew out of the Tower. He went in the direction of the forest, as he flew away from all the pain, the tears, and all the hate. He flew away from the past, and he flew away from her.

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and
I've waited long enough to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

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Oh my gosh, I am not used to writing songfics. This is my first songfic since Welcome to my Life (which this story is set after) Anyway, I was reading it and I did kind of rush this one, and the lyrics don't really go well with some of the text, but after I heard this song I had to write a songfic for it! It's called Can't Take it from The All American Rejects (It's from their Move Along Album) ANYWAY Thank you so much for reading, and please review! (Sorry if this seemed rush or sappy, I was having a bit of writers cramp at the end )

This is kind of a side note, but thanks to everyone who reviewed Welcome to my Life! I was seriously thinking about turning it into a story, but I thought I would end it with this sequel. I hope you all enjoyed it! And if anyone is completely confused by my comments… lol, I am confused too.. Anyway, I hope you liked it!!