A.N.- Well I guess I'll update since I haven't in three years! I haven't experienced any of what I'm writing about so it won't be that good. Bear with me!
I couldn't believe I was pregnant. I refused to believe. Tears brimmed my eyes but I wouldn't, I couldn't let them fall. I just nodded bravely. I could picture my mom gawking in shock. The corner of my eye would tell me that she too would be on the brink of tears.
I asked the doctor to keep it confidential, you know between her and I. The doc told my mom that I was fine and I should get more rest. And take some medicine, that's all.
I sat in the car fumbling my thumbs when her voice dispersed my thoughts.
"Is every thing alright honey?"
Mom, she's always so concerned.
I lied smiling as sweetly as I can in this time of pain.
As soon as I get home I lie on my bed sobbing my heart out. I don't want a child and I definitely not ready to be a parent. Ronnie, what will he think?
I silently cursed myself. It's his fault I'm like this. I had me get pregnant. He seduced me!
Again I cursed myself. I knew it wasn't his fault. It was all mine. I could have stopped him anytime. I cried until I couldn't cry any more. I cried until I threatened myself not to cry any more. Eventually crying myself to sleep.
I awake the next morning still depressed. I trudge my way out of bed and into the shower. I kiss my mom good-bye and I'm off to school.
I avoid Sunshine for a while until that dreaded period comes. Period 3, science. My use-to-be favorite subject. I knew I couldn't avoid him all day but I didn't think I'd have to face him this soon.
I sat down in my seat and waited for class to start.
Ronnie whispered in my ear, kissing my cheek before hopping in his seat as the bell rang.
"All right settle down!"
The teacher yelled.
"Turn your text books to page 253."
I was trying to pay attention to the lesson but a note landed on my desk. I open it. It reads:
You don't look too good. What's wrong?
Scribble that I'm fine and pass it back to Sunshine. He writes back that I'm lying to him. I tell him I fine. After that he believes me.
I begin to listen again. This isn't that bad. I guess I'll tell him on the phone or something.
Well three days passed and I still haven't told him. I get home and lie on my bed. The telephone rings, its Ronnie.
He's not gonna sound so cheerful in a moment.
"Hi Sunshine. There's something I have to tell you."
"Is it that you're pregnant?"
"How did you know?!"
"You were getting even more moody and there was something you weren't telling me."
I begin to cry lightly.
"No, don't cry. Its not you're fault. I'm coming over."
I hang up the phone. I can't take this any more. No matter how many times I cry the pain won't go away.
About 5 min. later Ronnie comes in to my room. I didn't want him to see me crying but I can't help it. He sits on my bed and holds me.
He whispers to me it isn't my fault. Even as he says it wasn't, I still feel like it was. He wipes me tears away and kisses my forehead.
"Have you told you're mom yet?"
All I can choke out is and simple no.
"You can't keep it a secret for forever."
I know but she'll be mad at me. I don't make eye contact with him. I just look and the sheets on my bed.
I lean my head into his chest.
"You tell her."
I tell him.
He gets up leaving me alone. I wait to hear her screaming but she never does. What happened?
A.N.- Well I finally updated but it's not that good. Well Review! :D