I thought we had finally gotten somewhere. After he got sucked into my mirror, I felt as if we started to understand each other. I thought there might be a future for us, together.
But then, she had to show up. That little wench who betrayed us all. Even him. He still loves her, I know he does. That's what hurts me the most.
I can't believe I got sucked into this whole "love" thing. How could I have been so blind? How could I have let my emotions take a hold of me like that? Never again, I promise you that.
He may have saved me from that beast but he was doing it because he's my friend and a fellow titan, not because he cares for me.
I can't take it anymore. My heart has been ripped into shards of nothingness. I just want to leave, to escape from this pain. I would leave the titans but I have no where else to go. Back home would mean my death and remaining here would mean the death of others. It won't be too long from now until my emotions get out of control and I lose my control over my powers.
This is why I am ending it now. Why I am sitting here, alone in the darkness of my room. A blade given to me from my sister so long ago clutched in my hand, steady over my heart.
I can't believe I'm not scared. I'm afraid of a stupid movie, but not of death. Strange.
I left a note for him. I slid it underneath his door before I came back here to make the final cut. I told him how I felt about him, how I felt when she came along, and what and why I am doing this. I told him it wasn't his fault, only mine.
I pulled the blade farther away and took careful aim. As I am about to strike, my door burst open. He's standing there, staring at me with those wide emerald eyes. I almost lose my nerve but I know I must continue if he's going to live. Crystal tears are flowing freely from my eyes now. I give him a last, small smile and whisper softly before I bring the knife down to my heart and all goes black.
Only words are left behind, resonating in the room.
"I love you Beast boy, good bye."