So...yes. I wrote this poem like it was letter addressed to the object of my affections (who will NEVER receive it). Everything has been bad lately, and I've been really upset about it. So I've been expressing myself through poetry. Honestly I think this is terrible, but I like it anyway. It can be interpreted as a Teen Titan thing, if you really want, but I wrote it about him. So, here ya go.
never will be enough.
That's how I will begin.
I can't start to tell you everything
Because it can't be told through pen.
not enough ink in the world
To write what I want to say.
And this crumpled piece of notebook paper
Is small, tattered and frayed.
I could write novels, fill book after book
And even then I would not be satisfied.
I can write for hours on end
About how much I adore your eyes.
So forgive me for taking the easy
I admit, it's the cowardly thing to do.
But the reason it's written as opposed to spoken
Had nothing to do with you.
Once I tried this face to face
The results were less than stellar
And I was crushed, needless to say,
By his curt and cold demeanor
I promised myself I'd never do this
And for a while it worked out; True
I was living a lie but I was happy in my solitude
Until I met you.
16 is a
Expected to be an adult, but never treated as one.
Asked to do so much with so little in return
Told when to walk, then chided when we did not run.
I'm rambling, I realize.
I suppose I'm buying my time.
Part of me wants to spill everything,
Part of my likes using rhyme.
But what I say
carries a weight
And it has rested on my shoulders for a while
I break my back ten times a day
For the simplicity of your smile.
I've had this conversation in my head
At least three hundred times
But whenever I actually need it
I may as well be a mime.
I know I'm dragging this out, I'm sorry,
There's not much else I can do.
It's not the easiest thing in the world
To say I'm in love with you.
Please don't be scared, please don't
I use the "l" word with care.
And while it's true it's quite enormous
I think it's the only word that fairs.
It's probably not a shock to you
To hear this news from me.
I'm told you've known for quite some time
While I fuddled with my secrecy.
But it needed to be said
And I'll continue my humiliation
To add another tidbit of opinion
Though it is against my friends motivation
She's not who she appears
I don't want to use her name.
She manipulates everyone and everything around her
And treats life like a game.
were both competing fiercely
It was moronic, I realize.
Yet both of use vied to be the best
Because you were the first place prize.
I suppose I could have beaten her
It's cocky, but it's true.
I was meek, she was strong.
She was not intimidated by you.
The guilt was overwhelming
"She's my friend!" I would cry
I had to stop the silent battles
That occurred between her and I.
None of that matters now really.
You know how the story goes.
You two danced as I waited in the wings
Desperately standing on my toes.
I hated every
Every glance, every smile, every stare.
You adored her like nothing else
And I faded into the air.
I am a jealous
I admit this with a sigh.
But the jealously was shattered
With every tear I cried.
And with a whim you
Like the summer's warm embrace
And try as I may, I never will purge my mind
Of that sorrowful look on your face.
was far worse than the previous month.
I cannot even explain.
I'd gladly be miserable for the rest of my life
So that you would be free of pain.
This is useless now, I know.
(By this point I'm sure you're floored.)
But with everyday that flies away
I'll love you even more.
Please don't let her hurt you.
Please promise not to cry
Because every time I see you in pain
I feel a piece of my die.
I'm not saying to shut her out.
Not by any means.
She's perfect and you know it.
She's the cliché girl of your dreams.
I will always be here,
Though it kills me to see you two.
But I'll feign a smile and politely wave
And pretend I don't love you.
So promise you'll be happy
That is all I really want.
And I promise to love you forever
Whether you notice or not.