Hey Guys! This is my first R rated fic! I am rating it R so I don't have to keep pulling back when I write scenes between Yuna and Tidus, Tis annoying.
Disclaimer: Only say this once, I do not own final fantasy, but I own my cat, yes I do I bought her and she is all mine so sue me!
This fic may be just a one-shot or one chapter, whatever you guys call it. It depends on how I feel.
Summary: Yuna realises she is going to die on her pilgrimage, but her heart aches for Tidus, she yearns to be with him. Will her realisation cause her to take drastic measures…? Just what exactly happened after that innocent kiss in Macalania?
WARNING: This first chapter is a graphic sex scene, but it is a beautiful one, with lots of Tuna love… mmmm lol :P
So here I am again… I have like ten story ideas at the moment, and I am holidays for 2 months… so guess what? More Yuna and Tidus fluff coming your way! Enjoy this story (It will be from x-2 later on but I am putting it in the X section cause the start is X and I like the X section better, so I will use any excuse lol!)
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Chapter One: Pushed to the edge
Macalania, after Bevelle fight with Seymour
We had all been through so much… and the last thing all we needed was for that stupid Seymour to morph into the ugly creature he really was and give us more grief. We escaped with our skins intact, but Yuna lost something. I could already tell, her faith was shaken. Yevon had betrayed her. I felt like I should do or say something-anything... But nothing came. I was just as lost as she was. And then... something happened… between us… and we both found ourselves once again.
"Well?" Wakka said raising his eyebrow in an annoyed manner towards Auron. Knocking me out of my daydream abruptly, I turned to face the towering man with a grim expression on his face.
"We're all clear. We will have to avoid Bevelle in the future. Yuna?" Auron answered looking around, even though he probably already knew the answer to his question. Why did everyone always expect Yuna to be strong, when probably the worst thing in her life had just happened to her? I didn't even want to know how I would feel if I found out all the traditions I had followed in my life were complete and utter crap.
After I had figured out what was going to happen to Yuna… I found my life was slowly ebbing away from me, there was all this guilt from everything I had said, and god knows she probably hated my guts. What annoyed me even more was that she didn't even show it… she never told me how she felt; she just smiled… even though I said all those things to her. Sometimes I wanted to punch Auron, all of them, they all treated Yuna like an object… they only thought of her as a summoner who would bring their calm, well in my eyes anyway. Maybe even Wakka and Lulu, but Auron was the worst. It just made me so god-damn angry!
"Said she wanted to be alone…" Lulu said staring at the ground thoughtfully. The whole party was a little shaken at that moment, especially Wakka, the whole thing with Yevon, betraying them… finding out the horrible truth… Wakka had just been following a lie his whole life, as had Lulu and Yuna, even Rikku looked a bit upset, and that was just strange.
Lulu turned to me with that soft look in her eyes, one I rarely saw mind you. "You should go talk to her…" Lulu said with a playful smile on her face… I scratched my head in confusion, what was with Lulu? Was there something I missed? "I know Khimari is with her, but…" She said cocking her head to the side. "It might help if you were there with her…" Lulu nodded, acting like she knew something that I didn't as usual. So I agreed and ran out of the cave as fast as I could so I could reach Yuna, because I had to tell her I was sorry.
"Great…" I said when I stepped outside. There were three ways to go, and I had never been to this part of the woods before… the woods were beautiful… kinda reminded me of Yuna. But the woods were windy, un-easy to walk through; you could get confused and not quite understand just where you were going… kinda like Yuna as well. I shook my head. "It's never going to happen Tidus; never would Yuna want to be with you." I said to my self randomly choosing the path in front of me, hoping it wouldn't lead me to some fiend waiting for its dinner.
I entered the path thinking stray random thoughts to myself, and sighed with relief as I made it to a beautiful spring and saw Khimari watching over Yuna affectionately. I smiled at him as I walked passed and he just nodded in approval and pointed towards Yuna. She was in the spring gazing up at bright stars in the sky with awe… guess I felt pretty awestruck as well.
"I always thought that this would be easier somehow. I thought that everyone would help me...with all my friends together beside me. I've been trying so hard." Yuna said acknowledging my presence. She looked down at the water with sadness. Maybe she was finally starting to realise.
"Maybe… you're trying too hard." I said walking into the water which was a little cold. What was Yuna doing in this water? All alone… didn't she ever get sick of being alone? It got me to thinking, really… whatever Yuna did, she was alone, she kept her thoughts hidden, never told anyone how she felt, pretended to be fine when she was screaming on the inside, talk about pressure. I just wanted her to let go of everything, let go, run away with me, maybe she was just distancing herself from everyone… knowing what would happen to her. "They told me, everything, actually Rikku told me everything." I said softly, keeping my distance from her, the beauty that radiated from her with the moonlight was drawing me in, slowly.
"Everything? Well, so then, you know…" Yuna said looking down, maybe she regretted not telling me sooner, maybe she realised that it was just a little unfair on me, who like the stupid idiot I was had gone and fallen deeply in love with a woman journeying to her death. There were so many signs, so many hints… that I only saw now… now that it was too late.
"Yeah… I'm sorry." I said. She turned to look at me with confusion so I continued. "It's just you know...all those things I said. Like "Let's go get Sin!" Or about Zanarkand... I didn't know what would happen to you, Yuna. I guess...I hope it didn't make you sad. Forgive me." Saying it, made the hurt even worse and I dropped my head, this was too much to take for me, a guy who had been so carefree his whole life, who had never had to deal with these feelings, or death.
"I wasn't sad… I was happy." Yuna said in a cheerful tone turning away again. I wondered what could possibly make Yuna happy knowing every day, she was stepping closer to her death... oh yeah the happiness of Spira, that's right. Well what about her happiness... why did the people expect so much from her.
I dived down into the spring, the cold water slowly becoming warmer as I got used to it. I resurfaced in front of her floating on my back as I stared at the stars; it was hard to believe all this was happening in a place as perfect as this. "Yuna just don't do it."
"The pilgrimage?" She inquired.
"Yeah, that's right…" I said standing up and walking a little closer to her. "Forget all about Sin, about being a summoner. Forget all that. You know, live a normal life, with me. Come on now, Yuna, what do you say?" I asked feeling stupid, I knew she wouldn't agree, but I had to at least try…
"Maybe I will." Yuna said with a smile on her face. I turned around with surprise. She couldn't be serious could she? "Wouldn't everyone be surprised?" Yuna said placing her hands behind her back and tilting her head to the side.
"Yeah." I laughed, who cared about them, stuff them all. Is what I really wanted to say. "Except Rikku she'd be with you! Lulu and Wakka wouldn't hold out to long…" I said, maybe they were guarding Yuna… but surely they didn't want her to do this, maybe their heart was aching like mine every time I looked at her face, thinking that she wouldn't get to live the life that she deserved.
"Khimari would say yes to, I know, but Sir Auron…" Yuna said with doubt in her voice.
GOD DAMN SCREW AURON! "I'll make him understand, it's the least I can do for you Yuna." I smiled, wishing I could just release all this hurt and anger inside of me; we were both two lost souls in a spring, having false hope, together…
Shiny things started to rise from the water, I didn't really have any other words for them, and I wondered, where all this coming from? I looked under the water to see that the spring looked like it was filled with gold dust, which was floating through the water. "What will I do if I give up my pilgrimage?" Yuna said floating on her back, her summoner's garments floating out gently bedside her.
"Ummm…" Run away with me, be with me, start a family, do something together, just us… no Tidus give her a better answer, one she would actually agree with, it's persuading time. "I know! Zanarkand! Let's go to Zanarkand." I said with a huge grin on my face. But Yuna just frowned with confusion, oh right, the ones here are just rubble right? "Not the one in Spira, the one I'm from!" I said correcting myself. Yuna smiled and nodded so I continued. "Yeah, we can all fly there. Everyone can go! Then we'll have a big party at my place!" I said remembering the wonderful city, just thinking about it made me homesick, but now I had something in Spira, something I could cling to, something that had made life worth living here… Yuna.
"And then we could see blitzball! Your Zanarkand Abes would play! We could all watch you play, in the stadium all lit up at night. I'd cheer and cheer till I couldn't cheer anymore!" Yuna said with excitement in her voice, a genuine smile on her face, it was nice seeing her like this.
"Right on!" I grinned. I would definitely win a game with Yuna cheering me on.
"Well, what about after the game?" Yuna asked.
"We'd go out and have fun!" I said remembering some of the wild parties I had been to in my time.
"In the middle of the night?" Yuna said with a look of horror on her face.
"Ha-ha, yeah sure, no problem, Zanarkand never sleeps." I laughed. "Let's go to the sea, before the sunrise. The city lights go out one by one. The stars fade... It's kinda rose-colored, right? First in the sea, then it spreads to the sky, then to the whole city. It gets brighter and brighter, till everything glows. It's really...pretty. I know you'd like it." I said standing beside her and kicking my legs in the sand since we were in shallow water. Describing it only darkened the mood a little, for both me and Yuna, because it really did sound pretty, and I missed it.
"I'd like to see it some day." Yuna said quietly
"Well you can Yuna, we can both go." I said in an attempt to cheer her up. I looked down at the water to see a drop of shining silvery liquid splash into it, was it raining? Then I looked up to see tears streaming down Yuna's face, illuminated by the moonlight. A stab of pain went through my heart, I had made her cry, I was so stupid, all I had done was tell her how beautiful life could be, but she…
"Yu…?" I said stepping a little closer to her.
"I can't…" She sobbed with a deep hurt in her voice. "I just can't…"
She couldn't because her life meant other peoples deaths, it meant Sin, but why did she have to give up her life, why? Didn't she know that her death also meant the pain and suffering of many people including me?
I walked up to her with sadness in my eyes. I wanted to hold her, to touch her, I wanted to comfort her, and I wanted her to be with me. She continued to cry, her painful sobs sending waves of hurt through my body every time.
I looked up at her with a look of wonder on my face, for a few seconds I stood there in a daze, not knowing what to do, should I, or shouldn't I. What If she hated me? But yet what if feeling my lips on hers would be the greatest feeling she could ever live through, just like it would be for me. But I didn't have all the time in the world here, my time here with Yuna was limited, and I needed to ease her pain somehow.
"Yuna…" I said softly placing my hands on her shoulders. She raised her head answering to her name and widened her eyes as she saw the look in my eyes. She knew what I wanted, she could see all the passion in my eyes, and she looked scared almost.
Without a second thought I descended my lips onto hers. They were soft and gentle, and smooth under my lips, as I gently kissed her, she tensed for a second, but it wasn't long before she gave in, the feeling was like nothing I had ever felt, I felt like I wanted to melt into the kiss, my whole body tingled, I felt alive, re-energized, I felt like I was in heaven. She began kissing me back softly, but she was, and I tightly wrapped my arms around her protectively as the kiss became a little more intense. I was overjoyed, yet hazed, I couldn't believe this was really happening, that I was kissing the woman I loved, in the most beautiful spring I had ever seen, and for that short time… maybe we both forgot. I felt her knees get a little weak, didn't blame her, I was about to collapse myself, I held onto her tighter as her knees forgot their purpose, but despite this, she fell, and took me with her.
As we traveled down through the water she wrapped her arms around my neck tightly, passionately kissing me back, her body on top of mine as we floated down further and further, just how deep was this spring? It was amazing how my thoughts were completely clean and innocent, I didn't want to do anything but caress her face, touch her hair, hold her hand, I just wanted to be with her. We clasped hands and pulled back from the kiss, I gazed down at her lovingly seeing a great happiness in her eyes. I took both her hands and floated her out onto her back to look into her eyes, I couldn't get enough of it. We floated in that position for a while until I reached out to run my fingers through her soft silken hair which shone from the light of the moon. She gently placed her hand on my cheek and lazily ran her fingers through my hair. I shut my eyes, this situation was perfect.
We looked at each other for a while, curiosity in both of our eyes. Passion, love, happiness, until I couldn't take it anymore and met her lips again. We floated through the water wrapped around each other, and I couldn't help but swing my legs through the water gently as we kissed, with my hands wrapped around her small waist.
I resurfaced with my arm wrapped around Yuna; we both took a much needed breath and smiled at each other shyly as we walked out of the spring to dry off. We sat there in silence on the bank, for most of the time observing the beauty.
"I will go on… I must." She said turning to look at me with a smile on the lips I had been blessed enough to kiss. "If I quit now, I could do anything I wanted, but even if I was you… I would never be able to forget." Yuna trailed off turning her head to look out over the spring again. I listened to her comment, somewhat hurt by it and turned around instinctively to see if Khimari was still watching over us, I sighed with relief when I saw his spot empty... it wasn't like Khimari to leave Yuna... maybe he just realised that we wanted to be alone, the last thing Yuna needed was the others getting angry at her for getting involved with me.
"I'll go with you!" I said
"Really?" Her eyes lit up with wonder and she moved her face a little closer.
"Well, I'm your guardian… unless I'm fired…" I said with a throat cutting action, remembering the kiss... would I still be of use to her I wondered, with a playful expression on my face... hoping she appreciated the humor.
She nodded and smiled. "Stay with me, till the end… please." I looked at her as she said those words, her eyes begging, yet filled with sadness; I wasn't going to let her think she would die. She wasn't aloud to get away with talking like that.
"Not till the end Yuna… always." I corrected, seeing the hesitation in her eyes. I raised my eyebrows and she let out a small smile.
That night when we headed back to camp… I made it a point to sleep near her. I knew that she wanted me close to her, and she knew that I wanted to be with her. Lulu gave us side glances all night as we ate dinner; I knew she suspected something from the way Yuna and I were together, you know how after you get intimate with someone... the whole vibe around you is different especially if your oozing with happiness over the issue... Lulu had a keen eye, and I knew she could observe my happiness, and Yuna's shyness yet contentness... and the way we were around each other as well... Things were a little awkward yet so much closer. I found just trying to sit a little closer to Yuna was exhilarating, and I loved the way the red rushed to her cheeks when I held her hand behind her back so that no-one would see. Being close to her felt good and I tried my hardest get closer.
"Auron you're squashing me!" I said while eating the rest of the dinner on the log, yes a log, the great summoner party gets wonderful accommodation if I do say so myself... small cave that's dark and damp and has a tree growing up it for some reason, cold hard floor to sleep on, a log to eat on... who even knows what we are eating right now... but I didn't care at all... I was with Yuna.
"Hmph!" Auron grunted returning to his food, with irritation, it was not the first time tonight I had annoyed him, sometimes I did it just to amuse myself, and Yuna who always seemed to have a good chuckle over the relationship between me and Auron.
"Could you move over man?" I said swiping my hands to the side with aggravation.
Yuna was at the end of the log, and then Auron and I then Rikku, Lulu and Wakka were both sitting opposite to us amused by the fights that had been going on between me and Auron. Yuna and I weren't touching but I could feel the tension between us, like a magnetic force pulling us together we were greatly trying to resist. Rikku poked her head forward past Auron to see me and grinned. "Yeah Auron, heaps of space up near me." She fluttered her eyelashes in a sarcastic manner, because she knew Auron hated that.
"I am not moving!" Auron said keeping his position firmly. "You have a lot of space, move closer to Yuna!" Auron commanded
"Geez grumpy." I muttered under my breath moving closer to Yuna… heh-heh which was the main goal in the first place. She froze stiff when I touched her shoulder gently. "Don't mind if I squash you Yuna do ya? You're better than that grouch over there." I laughed which seemed to lighten the mood a bit, but that didn't stop Lulu staring at us in a curious manner, she was such a mother. Yuna was so tense with me, I just wanted her to relax, for things to be completely natural between us.
"Hmph!" Auron grunted again.
"S-sure." Yuna said lightly.
"I think it's time for bed Yuna." Lulu interrupted, just as I was about to wrap my arm around Yuna.
"You need your rest." Auron added.
"Yeah you three it's way past your bed-time kiddos Rikku, Tidus, Yuna to bed!" Wakka chucked his stupid blitzball at my head (AGAIN) sending me flying over the log and crashing to the ground.
"Man…" I said rubbing my head from the ache, just as I was about to yell at Wakka, Yuna walked passed and smiled at me, walking over to get the sleeping bags ready. I decided I would rather spend time with Yuna then waste it on yelling at Wakka, and walked over to her. "Let me help with that Yuna." I said running over to help her un-pack the things. "So where am I sleeping?" I asked while she unfolded everyone's bed carefully. Hoping that tonight… that maybe she would place me next to her.
"Usual, Me, Lulu, Rikku, Wakka, Auron, and you…" Yuna looked up at me nervously. I had look of disgust and frowned crossing my arms over my chest.
"You're seriously not going to put me near that grouch again are you?" I said folding my arms in a childish manner.
"Yuna, move him, I don't care he snores! And if it will get him to shut up" Auron said in reply.
"Gh- I do not!" I said quickly to the now giggling Yuna. "Even put me near you Yuna and see, I don't snore okay?" I said, she laughed and nodded. Mission accomplished.
"Yuna, you're sleeping near Tidus?" Lulu said as she slipped down into the sheets.
"Well, apparently he wants to prove to me that he doesn't snore." Yuna giggled, I could here part of the conversation from the other side of her.
"I see… well goodnight then."
Yuna turned to face me and pulled her finger to her lip in a hushing motion, she knew me to well, and hushed me just as I was about to strike up a conversation without thinking, like I usually did. It was hard to stay quiet when both of us were inches apart, and I wondered constantly if it was safe to kiss her. I sat up and observed everyone after about five minutes and laid back down. If I stayed close to Yuna and didn't make any noise, no-one would know the difference since we were all the same level. Yuna had shut her eyes but continued to open them every now and then to steal a glance at me; she had grabbed onto my hand and was holding it close to her chest. Then I decided to lean in closer, I could smell her sweet scent of flowers as our lips edged closer, and Yuna laid there giving me a warning look. I knew it was risky, but I didn't care, Yuna couldn't object to the kiss no matter what because she couldn't make a sound, so if we were just silent and made sure our lips were silent as well everything would be fine.
She looked a little scared as I leaned in to kiss her, and this made me laugh (silently) she was so innocent so adorable, it was so hard to think… of the pilgrimage
As I kissed her she kept her lips still, which was probably a good thing now that I think about it, because that way we made no noise, and the noise of kissing was a very distinguishable one that Lulu would be able to pick up with just one ear open, and I bet even if she didn't see us, she would know straight away who was doing the kissing. I pulled away from Yuna, which seemed like about after 30 minutes of heaven, I could have kissed her forever, but I wanted to check she was still alive. She opened her eyes dreamily and sighed wrapping her arms around me. Second by second Yuna and I were starting to care less, and less about the others, I mean now she was snuggling close to me, and I was practically squeezed onto her bed with her. (which was a single bed)
She closed her eyes, and her breathing became steady and peaceful against me. I wondered why I was letting myself get so caught up with her, but then I realised, she wasn't going to die, that was just it, there was no buts, no what ifs no maybes, I would save her. I closed my eyes, holding Yuna close to me, small Yuna, guarding her, protecting her.
I was awoken by the feeling of softness against my arms, by the time I had opened my eyes I realised it was Yuna trying to get out of my embrace; she had reached the door way of the cave and disappeared into the woods. What in hell was she doing going out alone at night? Sometimes she makes a guardians life hell! I got up silently and followed her to the spring, what was she doing out again. "Yuna." I yelled to see she was on the little bit of land in the middle of the spring, how did she get there without getting wet? Oh wait she is a summoner, she does that walky on water thingy, unfortunately I couldn't and I stepped into the cool water.
"Tidus." Yuna said clasping her hand to her mouth in shock.
"You shouldn't be out at night alone?" I said in an angry tone wading through the water towards her. "What if something happened to you?" I said climbing up onto the little island which seemed like it was made for just me and her.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." She said bowing as low as she could; there she went apologizing again.
"It's okay Yuna, just, I worry okay, we should head back now, what are you doing out here anyway?" I said shaking the water from my hair.
"I, just wanted to soak it in… before… it's really beautiful, please let me stay here longer, stay with me." Yuna said touching a glowing gem on the tree, it was huge, and I thought that if I ever married Yuna, I would make it a Macalania gem; this place had great significance to both of us.
"Sure Yuna." I said crossing my legs as I watched the sparkles float through the sky.
"When a place is this beautiful, you don't want to leave it, and when you have something beautiful, something you never dreamed of before, when a feeling takes over… you don't want to loose it." Yuna said softly, in her dream state again, I nodded in agreement with her. The things she said were so meaningful sometimes… I didn't know what to say in reply.
"Can you come a little closer to me?" Yuna said shyly bringing her knees up to her chest. I nodded shuffling a little closer to her despite the awkwardness. "I…" Yuna said lifting her hands to my face with a worried look in her eye, almost a hurried and rushed look, maybe our time was limited... maybe.... I just there frozen to the spot as she traced the outline of my face, running her finger over my lips. She brought her other hand up to me and crawled closer
I sat there in reflective silence as her hands explored my face, as her fingers ran through my hair, and my hands found there way to her back to comfort her as she touched me so hesitantly. "Yuna…" I whispered, she giggled while running her finger down my neck. I was confused to what she wanted exactly, she had been touching my face for what seemed like 10 minutes already, but she seemed peaceful, serene even if stray tears made there way down her face. The tears seemed almost happy, or thankful, I wasn't quite sure; maybe there was also a hint of fear in them.
"You have a freckle right beside your nose, and near your ear another one, other than that your skin is perfect, your mouth is smooth and… umm" She ran her fingers over its surface. "And you know when you're a little embarrassed you go really red like now." Yuna giggled and took her hands away, smiling at me for a second. I was a little shocked but raised my eyebrow at her when she continued. "Your hair, it looks like pure gold, I love it, it's so soft, I like to touch it… you have dark roots, your eyes… they are an ocean." She wiped her tears away and I reached out my hand hesitantly and put it on her shoulder.
"Yuna… what are you doing?" I asked worried for her, maybe she had gone crazy or something.
"I want to take every detail about you to the farplane with me, I…" She lowered her head to look at the ground. "I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to be sorry for." I replied running my hands through her hair, I played with it, while she worked up the courage to break the silence.
"I never thought anything like this would happen, I never thought I would want to live this much, it makes it so hard." She said placing a hand on my thigh, I was silent, because I knew she needed to continue. So I wrapped her hair around my fingers and waited. "You know, I never knew what it felt like, and it feels more wonderful than anything I could have imagined." She said looking beyond me dreamily.
"What Yuna?" I asked curiously taking my hands away from her.
"Loving some-one." Yuna smiled confidently while looking into my eyes, but she soon faltered with embarrassment and looked away. I sat there with my hands on the ground frozen, god what was I supposed to say after that? I admired her courage but didn't think I could return those words. I was in denial myself, and I knew I was, but saying them to her, would make it a firm reality in my mind, and make the thought of loosing her, unbearable. I shut my eyes taking a deep breath, I had never met anyone like Yuna, I had never thought that I could fall in love myself, but that day I first met her in the temple, I started believing love at first sight did exist. "I never loved anyone before you know? It's sort of a rule for summoners, guardians and summoners must never be involved with each other you know? It's a taboo, well usually anyway... I don't know anyone who has broken that rule..."
I knew what Yuna was thinking, because I was thinking it to, falling in love would be bad news for a summoner and guardian, it might end up in the guardian refusing to take her to Zanarkand, or maybe the summoner would loose hope and quit the pilgrimage… maybe… Yuna would. "Yuna…"
"I always thought I would be stronger, that I would never fall in love… I never, I… I didn't even know how wonderful it could feel." She stuttered and started to shake frantically. I could see her barrier was falling apart, the walls she put up to conceal all her hurt, everything she had bottled up it was coming out, and I wanted it to. "I DON'T WANT TO DIE ANYMORE." Yuna shouted falling into my lap in a mess. She sobbed heavily and I found myself starting to cry also, did she think I wanted her to die? and knowing the fact that she didn't want to but was going to do it for the good of Spira hurt me more anyway, if she loved me so much, why was she going to put me through this?
She looked up at me for a second when she heard the cries escaping my lips and fell back into my chest. "This is my entire fault!" Yuna pounded the ground in a fury, I had never seen her like this and it only made the ache worse. "I should have never fallen in love, I shouldn't have given in, and I shouldn't have let you kiss me, Yevon! I shouldn't have gotten close to you, now this is causing both of us pain, Tidus I'm so sorry!" Yuna said clinging onto me for dear life, in a broken state, finally her will had faltered, so she was human. I couldn't take the hurt anymore, and with tears falling down my cheeks in union with her hers I brought my lips down onto hers in a violent fury. We cried into each others mouths, the tears mixing when our cheeks touched, our arms wrapped around each other so tightly, we wouldn't let each other fall.
When her sobs softened a little I willed myself to pull away from her enticing lips, which had intoxicated me further with passion, realising I most probably hurt her even bruised her lips. I cradled her in my arms and watched as she slowly opened her eyes. "I'm sorry." I said wiping her tears away, she nodded and reached up for my face. No matter what I did, Yuna was always, there, she forgave me, she gave me love like no-one ever had. I had had so many woman, and discarded them as soon as I had slept with them, yet Yuna could keep me satisfied with just a glance, mind you a lustful glance, I wanted to be with this woman so much, and I gave into temptation my eyes traveled down her face, her neck, her collar bone till they reached her chest. I watched her breasts rise and fall as she breathed and gasped at myself, looking away only to reach her stomach which was well covered yet inviting even through her clothes, I cursed myself again, till I reached her legs, where the split in her skirt was revealing almost all of her shapely legs, since it had ridden up to her upper thighs.
"God!" I muttered shutting my eyes, it was better this way. I wasn't going to take advantage of Yuna, she was special, and she should be treated with respect.
"Tidus…" Yuna whispered, I opened my eyes and broke my thoughts once again being able to gaze into her beautiful mis-matched eyes.
"Yeah." I said touching the skin on her arm.
"Can you take off your gloves?" Yuna asked softly. I looked at her with confusion but nodded in agreement and went to take them off; I think maybe I kind of understood. "It's just I have never seen, or even touched your hands, your hands have never touched me, I want you to touch me." Yuna said softly. I tensed realising that Yuna meant innocent touching, but whenever a girl asked you that back in Zanarkand, it didn't mean a touch on the arm…
I discarded them to the side and ran my fingers down her arm, much to her happiness. I saw a smile spread across her face as she leant back into my arms and closed her eyes. "Don't stop, touch me everywhere." Yuna whispered shivering as I took my fingers up to her neck, gently tickling her with the tips of my fingers. I touched her face gently and bent down to place a kiss on her inviting cheeks, feeling the smoothness of her skin under my lips. "It tingles." Yuna giggled when I reached down for her legs and began stroking them. Nothing above knees Tidus, Yuna is innocent, when she says everywhere she really means no-where, nothing above knees. I was getting a little hot from the soft-core action, seeing the way it made her, she kept arching her back and moaning softly, I never knew just touching some-one could make them so pleasured, then again, I kind of felt like that when Yuna touched me as well.
Yuna sat up abruptly with a smile on her face taking my hands in hers. "I'm sorry can you take off your shirt." She asked.
I froze for a second realizing slowly slowly where this was headed, I was dressed in a normal shirt and jeans since it was pretty hard to sleep in my blitz gear at night. Yuna saw the cautious look on my face and swallowed. "I want to remember every detail, please." Yuna said moving forward a little with that look in her eyes I just couldn't resist.
"Sure no problem, but what do you get to take off?" I said raising my eyebrows in a joking matter reaching for the bottom for my shirt and pulling it over my head. When I chucked my shirt to the side I realised Yuna was puling the halter neck of her white top over her head with some difficulty. "Woah, woah Yuna, it was a joke okay, don't even do that to me again." I panted, stopping her just in time. Yuna in bra… drool. There was no way I would be able to control myself if this got any further. Yuna frowned a little but opened her eyes wide with amazement when she saw my torso. I smiled a little at her approval, it was funny trying to watch her keep eye contact with me instead of my chest and finally she shook her head and returned to her frown.
"But your right, it's not fair only you get to undress, I guess maybe not my shirt then…" Yuna said realising there was quite a difference between her exposing her chest and me exposing my chest. So instead she reached for the material cuffs that faded from white down to pink on her elbows and slipped them off. I blinked twice; it was just weird seeing Yuna without them, seeing any part of Yuna exposed was weird, yet I couldn't deny how much my eyes feasted upon it.
Yuna dragged her hand down my chest slowly, her touch made me shiver and she took her hand back hesitantly. "Did I do something wrong?" Yuna asked a look of sadness on her face. God she was so beautiful.
"Nah." I said scratching the back of my head, a few hours ago I was sulking because I thought I would never get a chance with Yuna, and here I was…
Yuna started again running her fingers over my muscles carefully. I sighed closing my eyes, the situation we were in was too perfect, and I had never felt so fulfilled with just touches. I felt myself being pushed to the ground, lowered to a horizontal position by Yuna, she climbed on top of me and started to placed kisses down my stomach softly, gradually building up a pace, and with each kiss she moved and rubbed against me, and it was just getting to be too much to handle. Just as I opened my eyes to stop her she lifted her head to look at me. "Tidus, do you love me?" Yuna asked tickling my chest in circular motions with her fingers as she waited. I looked away from her with a sigh, having no idea where her question came from, or even where it was leading, but I knew deep down that Yuna deserved to here those words. She tried so hard every day to bring happiness to everyone, and even if it meant my own sadness, I wanted to supply her back with her little bit of her own happiness.
"Yuna, I love you more than I have ever loved anything on the planet, I love you more than Zanarkand, more than my family, more then all the girls I have ever dated, put together, and trust me that's a lot, and I think, that I would stay in Spira for the rest of my life just for you." I raised my hands to place them on her waist as she sat above me a tear of happiness flowing down her cheek. She got off me and sat on the ground turning away with happy laughter while sobbing her eyes out.
"You know what?" Yuna said with her back facing to me, I sat up sort in a sort of confusion and shook my head.
"What?" I asked starting at her beautiful back.
"This is the best night of my life, and it will even be better than beating sin." Yuna said turning around with a smile on her face, a genuine smile I was so relieved to see.
"I'm glad." I said bowing my head, I wanted to spend more time with her, but I knew we really should be getting back, and the guardian was fighting the lover with a steady battle. The lover in me wanted to stay here, hold her, and comfort her. But the guardian wanted to protect her, and get her away from here, when danger could be lurking, these woods were beautiful… but that didn't mean fiends were sparse.
"Yuna, you know we really should be getting bac-" She turned around quickly and placed her fingers to my lips with the most anguish filled look in her eyes I had ever seen. "Um sorry." I tried to mumble with her hands on my lips.
"Tidus it's just that…" Yuna dropped her hand and looked away. "Will you make love to me?"
"WHAT?" I blurted out un-expectedly instantly regretting the outburst as soon as I had said it when Yuna flinched and looked away. I sighed… I didn't want to scare her or anything; sometimes I just didn't understand her.
"I'm sorry; I thought that if you loved me, that you would do it… but if you don't want to… I'm so sorry." Yuna sniffed with disappointment and hurt in her eyes which she was desperately trying to shield. She fidgeted with her skirt as I stared at her confused. "J-j-just I want me first time to be with you…" Yuna said looking away with a blush
So Yuna was a virgin as well? This was becoming hard to resist. "Uhhhhh…" I said turning away with a blush, complete awkwardness washing over the both of us.
"P-Pp-p-please, don't you want to?" Yuna said crawling closer.
"Yuna… I… I mean, I want to, but I don't think its right, your upset… and I don't want to take advantage of you, I guess, maybe when I can rightfully call you mine and we are not sneaking around behind everyone's back." I said gently hoping she would understand and not press the issue further.
"But Tidus, I'm a summoner, I'm going to call forth the final Aeon and die, I want you to have me, I want this, I love you so much, and you love me don't you? Please…" She begged unable to look me in the eye. I never imagined Yuna would be begging me for sex, but now that I thought about it she was kind of right.
"Don't say that please Yuna, god your making this so hard on me, you want me to get involved with you, I told you I loved you, and it's true, now you want me to make love to you, then you want to go and leave my life, leave me heart-broken why are you doing this to me? You're asking to much, I, you won't die you wont! I won't take you now, you can give yourself to me later, you will survive." I sobbed, collapsing into my hands with grief. "I love you so much."
"I know Tidus, that you think there will be a way, and I know you… and Rikku may find one… but don't you think people have tried before… it's been going like this for a thousand years, and Tidus, I could die any day… tomorrow, in a few seconds, so could you… don't you think we should use all our time together…" Yuna whispered pulling my hands away from my tear covered face. I sniffed and nodded grudgingly, she was right, she was always right.
"But Yuna, you're so wonderful; I don't deserve you okay… I don't feel right about doing this here, even without a bed? Or without everyone knowing how much I love you, without anyone even knowing that we are going through this, okay maybe except Lulu." I laughed looking up at Yuna peacefully. She stifled a giggle and sighed.
"Tidus you have taught me something, that I will remember, nothing else matters, this is what I want, it's what you want, (Who cares what they think, screw them and stuff the taboos)" Yuna laughed imitating my voice.
"Hey I have hurt feelings now!" I said sticking my head up in the air. We laughed together one last time before things turned back to silently passionate. I gazed into her eyes with love, realising I was out of arguments, Yuna had won this one and I was slowly giving in. I laid her down on the soft ground, the night stars shining above us, the gems illuminating her face.
Her eyes flashed a thousand emotions and were overtaken by anticipation and fear. I ran my fingers through her hair trying to calm her; the last thing I wanted was this to become hell for Yuna. I was surprised when she spread her legs to create a spot for me to lie, and I moved from the side of her to on top of her, gently laying myself down to make sure I didn't hurt her. I stopped resisting the urge to kiss her and leant down pressing my lips to her gently. Yuna moaned into the kiss wrapping her legs around my waist, and her arms around my neck, she made little noises as I slipped my tongue into her mouth, daring to be more adventurous of her and she kindly returned the gesture. She tasted so sweet, I never wanted to pull away from her, and slowly it intensified. Yuna's fingertips glided over my back as our kiss became almost out of control, and I moved my self ever so slightly against her, wondering what her reaction would be.
She moaned as my hips grinded against hers and pulled herself up closer to me returning my movements, kissing me faster as she grew accustomed to the pattern. My body was slowly growing more and more out of control and my hands left the back of her head and traveled down to cup her breast. I moaned even louder into the kiss when I felt the size and softness of it even through her garments and moved a little faster, Yuna was only 17 like me, and was a little over equipped in the breast department, but I didn't mind... I loved everything about Yuna, and being able to cup her breast in my hand felt so great. Yuna had gasped and arched her back, dropping her legs back to the ground with heated exhaustion. So I took the opportunity to trail kisses down her neck.
"Oh don't stop." Yuna cried pushing my head further down into her neck as I kissed her, still cupping her left breast with my hand and squeezing it tenderly. I started to suck on her neck, hearing and exciting gasp leave Yuna's mouth she was sending me over that edge even more. I was trying so hard to control myself here, I had the most wonderful woman in my arms, and I had to stop myself from over killing her with passion. I tugged on her shirt while sucking on her soft neck, wanting her to lift up slightly so I could remove the article of clothing in my way. But instead she lifted herself up redirecting my mouth to her lips as she pushed me up and sat on my lap. I loved the way she started to take control, and she moved her self up against my growing excitement while wrapping her arms delicately around my neck. I removed the clothing slowly while she took control of the kiss.
I laid her back down again after removing her bra and watched in amusement as she covered her chest. "I'm sorry." She whispered clasping her hands over her breasts. Watching her touch herself was even better, so I wasn't complaining, just rub them a little more Yuna. "I'm a little self-conscious." She muttered, her breasts only just being covered by her tiny hands. I smiled at her gently moving back down to take her lips in a sweet kiss again, covering her chest in doing so, till she felt more comfortable. She removed her hands and continued with the kiss happily, and instantly I could feel her breasts rubbings against my chest and couldn't resist moving my hand down to touch them again. My throbbing erection couldn't take much more and just as I was about to unbutton my jeans, Yuna reached for them with a shaky hand. Her shyness was adorable, but I only hoped she would become more comfortable with me. Her skirt was starting to annoy me, when all I wanted was feel her bare legs against me. I helped her in removing my pants and discarded them, noting the nervousness in her eyes. Her eyes grew big and a gasp escaped her lips.
"My Yevon… it's so…" She reached her hands out to touch it, resulting in a pleasure overflow for me. "I want you in me…"
I nodded and moved my head down to her breasts and gently started massaging her nipple with my tongue, Yuna squirmed under me as I played with her other breast while sucking on her other. Yuna grunted in approval her hands once again dancing on my back when I reached my hand down to her skirt, waiting while she lifted herself up so I could remove it. I dared not look at that triangle shaped arrow pointing down to her place of pleasure yet and I continued to suck on her breast while I moved my hand cupping her other down to her thighs, which were now clasped together tightly out of what I thought was nervousness. I slowly pushed my hand between them, easing her out of her fear and began massaging the tops of them. Our almost completely naked bodies began grinding together again. After feeling the wetness through her pants I rested on her chest. Taking my mouth reluctantly off her supple breast.
"I didn't want you to stop that." Yuna said stopping her motion, and taking a much need break to just breathe.
I grinned, ignoring her comment and closed my eyes while resting on her chest, she was so soft, and I felt like I could lie with her forever. With some difficulty I got up my excitement not being able to wait much longer and removed her black silken panties with my teeth. She once again gasped feeling even more exposed and I frowned realising how selfish I was being. "Yuna we can stop."
"No, I just feel so naked…" Yuna said closing her legs again.
"Well you kina are naked, and so am I" I laughed resting my hands on her stomach.
"You're right I'm being stupid, it's only you." Yuna said slowly spreading her legs and letting my hand in.
"Only me? I'm hurt Yuna." I said. "For that you will pay." I said running my hands down to her woman-hood, I started to massage her quickly and watched her squirm with pleasure, already being excited from our previous rubbing.
"How.... will I pay…" Yuna managed to get out through deep throat moans.
"I'm going to make you feel great." I said moving my hand a little faster against her, causing a louder moan; from this I could tell Yuna was a screamer… She tried desperately to control her noises of pleasure as she climbed higher and higher up that ladder of pleasure, and I had absolutely no idea how a woman felt when she had an orgasm… but Yuna was definitely enjoying it, by the way she rose up and down, moving her hips at the speed of my fingers, trying to get the best out of it… It was really turning me on and I felt my erection grow bigger and bigger, just awaiting my entrance into her body. I bet it would be her first orgasm... I felt honored to be the first to touch such a wonderful woman, yet I felt so un-deserving.
"Yevon… In FARPLANE!" Yuna shouted as she finally came arching her back poetically. I licked my lips as her juices flowed out of her, sucking it all up with my mouth. "TIDUS!" Yuna shouted when I stuck my tongue inside to gather as much of her juices as I could, tasting her was better than eating any kind of food I had, and I wanted more. I lifted my lead up to look at her licking my lips.
"Uh… sorry Yuna… I guess I went too far." I felt ashamed of myself, yet I just wanted to get so close to her, I wanted to explore every part of her, this feeling I had for her…
"No… it just surprised me, I hadn't even thought of a man doing that to a woman, it's just so new to me." Yuna whispered. I smiled still having doubts about doing this to her since she was so tight it almost cut off the circulation to my tongue, and I knew it was going to hurt her. "Please I want you inside." Yuna moaned as I came closer to her again. I loved this woman so much in front of me… I didn't think that hurting her… I couldn't do it, I would rather die a million painful deaths, then watch her die right in front of my eyes, and I didn't know if I was strong enough to inflict pain on her.
"Yuna, it's really going to hurt." I said positioning myself, I wanted entrance so bad, I couldn't stand waiting much longer I felt like I was going to burst.
"It will be worth it, I wouldn't care if it hurt forever, having you inside of me breaks all those fears." Yuna said as I ran my hands over her breasts again. Hearing her words captivated me, and I was more determined to do this without hurting her. So I got ready and thrust myself into her so quickly hoping to make the pain over with.
Yuna screamed so terribly, so loudly, my ears almost hurt and I wondered if the others were awake. Tears started to come out of her eyes and I collapsed onto her in a heap. "God Yuna, forgive me." I said, her pain making me want to kill myself for the pain I had just caused her. "I should have never done this to you." I felt the blood seep out of her body and cringed, I knew I was big, and she was small… I should have made the judgment.
"I-it's o-o-okay." Yuna sobbed running her hands through my hair. I waited there not daring to move an inch inside of her body. I heard her let out little yelps when she tried to move herself and cringed.
"We should stop Yuna." I said lifting myself up, her eyes were closed tight with pain and I didn't think I could bare anymore, even if being inside Yuna was the best feeling I had ever had. I had to stop being so selfish. I didn't think she would ever get used to the pain, her small body, I didn't even warm her up with my fingers, I was such an idiot.
"DON'T BE SO SELFISH!" Yuna cried placing her hands on my chest as I lifted myself from her in confusion. "Just because you can't take seeing me in pain, you want to stop, well what about what I want? I can take this, we can do this, I want you to make love to me." Yuna said starting to move her body, with determination. God she had determination in everything.
The pain was still evident on her face, but I saw a hint of pleasure starting to build up and began gradually pumping in and out of her. Before long Yuna was moaning again, begging me to pick up the pace, wanting me to go deeper into her, wanting me to go harder. We became like frenzied animals, our sweaty bodies moving together, not being able to get enough of each other. I moved in and out of her quickly hearing myself moan loudly also, I had never before in my life made such a noise while having sex, I knew that this felt so much better with Yuna.
"Soo good…" Yuna said shakily pulling me down closer to her while we moved our body in a rhythm together. We began to kiss again, our hands exploring all places as our pleasure built up.
"Deeper Tidus, go deeper into me." Yuna yelled breaking the kiss. She didn't have to ask me twice and I pushed the full way into her, hearing her groan with excitement, I picked up the pace again knowing that would be Yuna's next command.
"TIDUS PLEASE IT'S STARTING." Yuna shivered as I pushed extra hard and fast into her loosing grip on her sweaty body. I felt her climax around me her muscles tensing, her juices flowing, I felt it and her scream of pleasure which sent me over the edge as well, and I released deep inside of her, thrusting hard those few last times before collapsing onto her in a state of absolute content.
"Tidus…" Yuna moaned massaging my slippery back. "That… was…" Yuna trailed off.
"Amazing." I added feeling slightly tired, but still so energized, being inside of her being added to my list of favourite things to do. I stood up, seeing the mix of both blood and body fluid on both her and me. So I picked her small body up in my arms and jumped with her into the spring.
"TIDUS!" Yuna said in anger when resurfacing.
"We got to head back Yuna, and you want us to head back with the smell of our lovemaking all over us?" I said as I started to wash myself.
"I wouldn't care, I love that smell." Yuna grinned swimming over to me and clinging to my body. I rolled my eyes and washed her.
"Yeah I love it to, more than any smell, but do you think the others will?" I raised my eyebrow rubbing my hands up and down her body to wash her. I just wanted to make love to her again… and I know she wouldn't resist.
"I guess not…" Yuna whispered… floating on her back.
Her sadness made me remember again, remember why we had done this so soon, I knew that was what she was thinking about also.
"Tidus… you want go away will you?" Yuna asked rubbing her stomach. I smiled and headed over to her, placing a kiss on her lips. "If you do find a way… and I do survive… you wont leave me will you?" She said looking at me with sadness.
I frowned… I didn't really want her to know that I had a bad feeling… my feelings always came true… and something told me that we weren't going to be together much longer… but I knew that no matter what I would always be with her.
"You wont go away to Zanarkand…will you?" Yuna asked
"Yuna I already told you this; I won't just stay with you till the end… I'll stay with you always."
Hearing this, the hopeful glint returned to her eyes. "Can we make love again?" Yuna asked pushing herself down onto me.
"What here?" I said actually surprised she was thinking the same thing as me. "We got to…go"
"Yes here, under the stars, in the water, and also every other single night of my pilgrimage, just stay with me." She said stroking me tenderly.
"Yes Yuna, always."
So there you go some wonderful Yuna Tidus fluff for you all. Please tell me if you liked this… or if you want me to continue it. Because I have some plans for it, but maybe they are kind of boring, don't know, we will see how it goes, let me know if you want me to go on.