Title: Open Your Heart To Me
Summary: When Sara tells Grissom it's now or never, the ball is in Grissom's court. What will he do about this?
A/N: This was my first ever Grissom & Sara fanfiction. I can't even read this now. It's such a mess. If I reread it, I'd remove it completely. Which actually isn't a bad idea, but I will leave it and all others as a reminder at how much I've grown. I apologize to your eyes for this one.
"Come on. I'll take you home" Grissom told Sara. She was nearly arrested and charged with a DUI. He held her hand all the way to the Tahoe. She had sobered up since being brought to the station. She knew that she had screwed up, but she wondered just how bad. She sat in the passenger seat, buckled up, and wanted to sink into nothing and disappear. Grissom started the Tahoe and put it into reverse. He pulled from the parking lot onto the calm street. After getting to in the turn lane to head toward Sara's apartment, he reached for her hand again. She willingly let his fingers enter twine through hers all the while mentally pinching herself to see if she was really awake. She had dreamed of this moment ever since she had been in his seminar back at Harvard.
They hadn't moved in a few minutes, and it took another minute for her to realize that they were outside her apartment complex. She let go of his hand and reached for the handle. She about had the door all the way open when she felt his hand on her arm.
"Wait" Grissom breathed almost in a whisper.
"Grissom, don't say anything you will want me to forget in tomorrow, but tell me and be honest. Where do we stand?" Sara was beginning to cry now. "I have to know. I am tired of being jerked back and forth. I can't do it anymore. I have been hanging on so long here because of my friendships. I have never had those before Vegas. Warrick and Nick took me into their hearts, and I, of all people, know that I did everything that I could to test those friendships. Catherine took a little longer. She was harder to get to know and love, but we made it. I need her just like I need Warrick and Nick. And Greg, he loved me from day one. He never judged me once. He was just there for me. You, well, I have to know how you feel about me first. So, I am going to my apartment now. You are welcome to come with me. I just want you to know that unless you are ready to open and honest about where we are and what we are going to do about it, you can come and we can talk. If you aren't ready for that then please go home. Don't make me wonder anymore. Take a few minutes. Decide what you want or need to do to make this right. If you drive away, I need you to know and understand that this is your last chance. I won't be chasing you anymore. I'm done. I can't go on the way we've been going on the past year. See you upstairs."
With that Sara got out the Tahoe and started her ascent to her 4th floor apartment. She looked out her window to see if the Tahoe was still there. It was. She exhaled slowly and forced herself to sit down. Being patient was never one of Sara's good points.
She had all but given up when she heard a knock on her door. She got up smiling, but quickly shook it off. He could just be here to be honest with her about his feelings and those feelings could be nothing more than friendship.
She opened her door in an adrenaline rush. There he stood with tears in his eyes. Gil Grissom did know how to show his emotions.
She beckoned him in. He stood just inches from her face. She drank in the smell of him.
He reached for her and pulled her to him. He reached up and traced her cheek and lips with his fingers. He wanted to kiss her right then but wanted her to know how he felt about her. He wanted her to know that he needed her like he needed air to breathe.
"Sara, I need you. I always have. When I asked you to stay in Vegas permanently, I wanted you to want me. Then I started losing my hearing and pulled back into my shell. I am truly sorry for shutting you out. I shut all of you out. And, Sara, if you haven't noticed you, Warrick, Nick, Catherine, and Greg are my family. Always have been. I need all of you to carry on, to go forth, and keep fighting and winning for our victims. You can't imagine what is was like for me to watch how each of your cases have affected you. I guess I thought you didn't need someone old like me making you feel anymore dead inside than you already felt. I was wrong. I was so sure that I would hold you back. I didn't know how to let you in. I was scared and stupid, Sara. You were willing so many times and let me know that I was the one that you wanted to be with for so long, and what did I do? I made you doubt yourself and your feelings. You make me whole inside and out, Sara. I want you to be a part of my life. I want you to make me feel alive. You always have with your quick wit and gap-toothed smile. I love that about you. It would bother those ladies that are only into their appearance, but not Sara Sidle. You are who you and you don't let anyone change that. I love you. There I said it. Sara, I love you. You are it for me. I never loved anyone before you. And I will never love anyone for as long as I live. I am sorry that it you drinking to wake me up. I will make it up to you I promise." He paused for a few seconds and asked, "Can I kiss you?"
"Grissom, do you even have to ask me that? I would think that by now you would," She was cut off by Grissom's mouth closing upon hers.
When they finally pulled away, Sara smiled up at Grissom. "I love you too."
"Would it be pushing it if I were to ask you if maybe I could stay with you?" Grissom asked innocently.
"I don't think that I could let you leave now even if I tried really, really hard. I want you to hold me tonight. I want you to kiss me, and touch me and caress every inch of my body the way that I am going to do for you. I want to make love to you like I have never made love to a man and be there for you when you feel like your life is falling apart and be there when the times are good and bad and well I just want to be there." Sara had staked her claim and wasn't letting him back down now.
"Kiss me now and I will make all those words into reality." Grissom challenged.
She kissed him long and hard and slow and then led Grissom to the bedroom.