Just a little tide over until I finish the next chapter in Sundance. This is sara thinking about Iris. One shot. I rather like it I think...

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I don't know why I didn't kill her when I had the chance. I didn't know when the next chance that was even half as good would come along, so why didn't I kill her?

Iris Irine....

Everything was perfect. Fenris Fenrir and the other Asgardian were out of the way. Even the assasin was indisposed. So why did I let her live? It would have been easy. It should have been easy! Why? Why? Why!? I should have just flicked my wrist and ended it right there. What was it that stayed my hand?

Could Bijou have been right? Was it because she is, in fact, my sister? Did I show her mercy?

I keep trying to tell myself, no. That it was because I had more presing matters, that Freya wanted the heart as soon as possible, yet...

I fear it may have been what I saw in her eyes. I'm still unsure what it was. They were blank in a way, yet somehow.. intense. Her eyes, the eyes that we share, given to us by our dear father I'm sure. Nothing could have explained what he did, but sometimes I wonder what it was he was going to say back there in Fayon..before he died...How strange, the revenge I had yearned for for so long brought me nothing...nothing. I was just empty...There is nothing here in this world for me anymore, that's all that awaits everyone! That's why Ragnarok must come.. that is why I must kill my sister...

Yet I could have.. but I hesitated...

Maybe it was because I see too much of me when I look into those eyes. Pain and suffering, her parents dead. Her home destroyed, her very blanket of security ripped from her grasp and burned to ashes. I caused all that after all.

Perhaps it's guilt.

Or perhaps, worst of all I fear... maybe it's because she is my sister. when she looked at me, as I started to tell my story... Even though it had no relation to her, no meaning.. I think she was trying...trying to understand. I don't think anyone has tried to understand me for twelve years...

Well my dear sister, one way or another, we have a score to settle.

After all, death is the only thing I know.

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In a way, Sara's charecter is quite sad I think. She's bound to her sadness, anger, and hate and has never seemed to be able to move past that. May the spirits watch over her.