Baby sat alone in her kitchen drinking her chamomile tea. She couldn't help but think of how quiet the house was. No pitter-patter of Josie's little feet and laughter to fill the air. But, she knew it wouldn't be long and once again she would hear those similar familiar sounds. Her heart was filled with joy but at the same time it still had a hole that she knew would never be filled. She hated the thought of the new baby not ever getting to know Josie. She knew Josie would have been so proud to have a little brother or sister.
Baby knew it was her own fault she raised Josie by herself but now she wanted Johnny to be there more that ever but she just couldn't help but think she would raise this child on her own too. She just felt so alone. She knew she made a mistake before by not telling Johnny the truth to begin with. Now it seems everything will continue to blow up in her face. So much guilt still consumed her.
It was just so hard not to be upset at Johnny. She knew it was selfish of her to be that way but she needed Johnny more than ever now. Every time she talks to Johnny another piece of her heart breaks because it is never good news anymore. It's always more time and more waiting. She couldn't help but think her and Johnny would never be the family that she had hoped for.
When your baby, leaves you all alone,
And nobody, calls you on the phone,
Don't you feel like crying, don't you feel like crying,
Well here I am my hunny, c'mon cry to me.
Baby cursed at the thought of letting that song cloud her memory now.
When your all alone, in your lonely room,
And there's nothing, but the smell of her perfume,
Don't you feel like crying, don't you feel like crying,
Don't u feel like crying, c'mon, c'mon cry to me.
Baby couldn't hold her tears back any longer. She was filled with so much hurt. All she wanted was to be happy in life. She wanted to have this baby and be married to Johnny. That is all she wanted and nothing more. She just hated that it seemed to all be out of reach. She hasn't let herself break down over this but she couldn't help it. She had all she could take. The death of Josie and the loss of Johnny consumed her.
She glanced down with tear filled eyes and looked at her now cold tea. All she could do was stand up and throw the mug into the sink. As the mug shattered into the sink Baby slumped down and trailed her back down the wall as she finally reached the floor. Baby pulled her legs to her chest and sobbed on the kitchen floor. She had finally reached her breaking point. There was no denying that.
"We got a code blue in here! Get Dr. Rosenberg in here now!"
"Get the crash car over here."
"Ready, one, two three…go. No pulse."
"Again, one two three…now. Nothing."
"We have to get a pulse, again."
There was silence in the room.
"I am sorry Ms. Houseman she is gone."
The room seemed to be spinning out of control. Baby couldn't believe she was breaking down like this. She had always been a strong person. Now here she was balled up on her kitchen floor. She had lost the will power.
"Baby what are you doin'?" Johnny said as he quickly entered the kitchen.
"What are you doing here?" Baby said trying to hurry and dry her eyes.
"I heard something shatter. Are you okay?" Johnny knelt down in front of Baby to get a good look at her.
Baby turned her face from his. "Go home Johnny!"
"Baby you are upset. What is goin' on?" Johnny tried his best to get Baby to look at him. "What's wrong? Are you hurt? Is it the baby?"
Baby pushed by him as she rose to her feet and walked toward the living room.
"Baby, are you ignoring me?" Johnny asked as she followed right behind her.
"Johnny, just leave me alone, please." Baby said taking a seat on the couch as she pulled a tissue from the holder on the coffee table.
"No, now you are upset and I want to know what is goin' on." Johnny joined her on the couch and could clearly see how upset she was. "Talk to me. You're scarin' me?"
Baby couldn't help but look at him in a sarcastic way. "Me scaring you?"
"Okay, help me out here!" Johnny pleaded. "I am not understanding what is goin' on here."
"Johnny, just go home. There is no reason for you to be here. How can you manage to be way from Castle Construction?" Baby kept her sarcastic tone.
"I take it I am the root of your pain." Johnny said now realizing it all.
"I am just fed up Johnny. I can't take it anymore. You have pushed me to the limit."
Baby rubbed her belly. "I have to concentrate on what's inside here and nothing else. I can't handle not seeing you or not talking to you."
"Baby I am so sorry for how everything has been. I am not trying to hurt you. I guess I didn't realize just how much pain and sadness I have caused you." Johnny reached for her hand. "But, you can't give up on us; you can't give up on me."
"I have no choice. I am emotionally tired." Baby said as the tears began to roll again. "That is no way for me to be with the baby on the way."
"I understand that but Baby there are some things you have to understand before you say all that." Johnny had to tell her he was done with the construction business.
"Johnny I am sick of hearing all that over and over." Baby rose to her feet and walked over to the mantle. "I will not hear it anymore."
"Baby, you are being so harsh." Johnny said looking at her. "You will like what I have to say I promise."
"I know I sound mean Johnny but I can't take it anymore." With tear filled eyes she looked at him. "I am sorry."
"Did you not hear what I just said?" Johnny rose to his feet smiling. "You will like what I have to say."
Baby looked at him puzzled as she watched Johnny's mischievous grin. "What?"
She watched, as Johnny seemed to get nervous. This was odd because she had never really seen Johnny get nervous. He had always seemed so cool and collected.
Johnny reached in his back pocket and pulled out the velvet box that is mother had given him. With a sweet smile on his face he looked at Baby and wiped the tears from her eyes. "I love you more than you will ever know." And with that Johnny knelt down on one knee in front of Baby.
Now Baby was the one beginning to get nervous as he voice trailed off as she tried to speak. "Johnny….."
Johnny reached for Baby's hand and pulled the ring out of the velvet box. He slowly eased it on Baby's finger and couldn't help but feel relieved when it fit perfect. "Will you marry me Frances?"
Baby watched the man kneeling before her. She loved him so much.
"Now before you say anything there are some things I need to tell you." Johnny kissed her hand as he began. "I want our life together to begin. I want to make your dreams come true in every way I can. We will be a family just like I promised you. I am leavin' the construction business and goin' back to teaching and I want you with me every step of the way."
"Johnny—how can you do that?" Baby asked astonished at what she was hearing.
"My uncle is taking the business. That is how mama wants it. It's all working out. Just say yes." He said looking up at her with anticipation.
Baby glanced at the ring was taken back by its beauty. "It is gorgeous."
"It was my mother's. She wanted to pass it down to you and one day you will be able to pass it down to our child." Johnny rose to his feet. "I still haven't got an answer yet."
Baby's tears were now turning to happy tears. "You foolish man, you know what my answer is."
Johnny pulled her to him. "I want to hear you say it."
"Yes." Baby whispered as she slowly turned her head to his. "Yes."