Sapphire Artemis: My very first fanfic I thought was good enough to post—and this marked my first foray into fanfiction dot net. (sniffles)


You are so weak and useless, you bastard! I don't know why we even keep you!

I Shukuchi as fast as I can towards the redhead, trying to outrun my own thoughts and doubts.

Shit! That's the third time today you've spilled the rice!

Fools! Didn't they know that their own sons were the ones spilling it? Didn't they know that it wasn't my fault; that their sons simply wanted to get me in trouble?

WIPE THAT DAMN SMILE OFF YOUR FACE, YOU FUCKER!

The slaps...the blood...the pain that I endured, day after day! Endured, and smiled!

That's it! I've had enough of you spilling the rice, you bastard! You sleep with the dogs tonight; and no food for you for a week!

I try to push the thoughts from my mind. I prepare for the Shutensatsu, while he gets ready for the Ama Kakeru Ryuu no Hirameki.

A man-slayer! A MAN-SLAYER!

The screams when Master Shishio came, echoing through the night, cut off by a single, swoft sword slash.

You! You saw me! Now you must die.

Die...what was death? I wasn't afraid of the unknown...I was happy! My eternal smile...etched onto my face...

Where is the man-slayer? TELL US, you pathetic son of a bitch!

My "family"...threatening me...

Let's just kill him...no one will ever know...one less mouth to feed...

Dareka...DAREKA TASUKETE!

My fear, my anger that night!

Hey, nice wakizashi! Let's have a look at it!

The moment of fear, anger, and...weakness.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

The blood...the bodies...

I was in the rain...

"Are you crying?"

"No, sir."...

I...IWAS! I...I was...WEAK!

I will take you with me.

You will be the strongest, second only to me...

Master Shishio, saying that I could be stronger...I embraced that. Wanted to prove that I wasn't weak!

If you're strong, you live...

If you're weak, you die...

Master Shishio's voice...the belief I held...for so, so long...

I protect the weak...the weak do not always die...

Mr. Himura's voice...

If you protect the weak, Mr. Himura...

My own questions, my indecision...

Where were you...

If he protects the weak, then...where was he...

BACK THEN?

Where was he when I needed help! When I was weak, where was he?

I am now strong...

The one who's wrong isn't Master Shishio...

I am strong!

The one who's wrong, Mr. Himura...

I AM STRONG! I AM NOT WEAK!

IS YOU!

Tears...tears in the rain...I am not weak, I am not weak, I am not weak...