You Need to Wallow!
The four girls rushed to Lily's bed, all sitting beside her. Lily just sat there and let the tears run down her face.
"I'll go get the ice cream," Elsie offered, trekking off to the kitchens.
"I'll get her pajamas," Kayla decided, walking into the bathroom.
"I'll hide everything that even remotely reminds you of James," Madison offered.
When everyone returned, they all sat on the bed with Lily.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Mia asked softly.
"I just hate him," Lily said between her sobs.
"Makes sense," Madison confirmed.
"Do you want us to hate him? Because we can," Elsie said.
Lily gave a weak smile and shook her head. "Of course not. I don't want things to change for you guys also."
"Well we don't need to hang out with those guys all the time to have fun," Kayla suggested. "It can just be the five of us."
Lily grinned weakly. "Thanks," she mumbled.
"So, can I ask a question?" Lily nodded her head so Mia continued, "What exactly happened between you two?"
Lily sighed and shrugged. "It just wasn't working for him anymore."
"I'm so sorry Lily," Madison said soothingly.
"So am I," Lily said, sobbing into her pillow.
"Alright, so I'll put the box with James's stuff in the closet so-" Madison started.
"No!" Lily exclaimed. "I want it out of here. I want you to throw everything away. Or burn it! Just get it out of here completely."
"You can't just throw away everything that reminds you of the best relationship you've ever been in. You have to-"
"I can too! I want you to get it out of this room," Lily said firmly.
"You're going to regret it Lils. You're going to want to look back on all the memories you guys have had. You can't just throw everything away," Elsie explained.
"Yes I can. Please just throw it out."
"But Lily-" Kayla started to say.
"I don't care!" Lily cried out.
"Fine, fine," Madison said. Then when Lily put her head down on the pillow, she placed it in the back of their closet.
Two days later, James sat in the corner of the commons room, finishing his potions homework. Lily walked in, noticed him, and walked over and sat down in the opposite corner. She tried concentrating on her Herbology homework, but she couldn't help glancing up at James every few minutes.
Half an hour later, Sirius and Madison walked in and sat in their usual spot (they didn't see James and Lily at first).
"Hey guys," Mia exclaimed, walking into the commons room with Elsie. "Why aren't you sitting with James?"
"Or Lily?" Elsie piped in. Sirius and Elsie looked around the room and indeed noticed that both of them were in the room.
"Oh…we didn't know they were in here," Sirius said with a shrug, looking back down at what he was doing.
Mia looked glanced from James to Lily and then back to the other guys. "Doesn't this bother you guys?"
"Does what bother us?" Madison wondered.
"How we're…separated," Mia explained. "We're not a big group anymore." Mia sighed and plopped down on a chair.
The four of them looked back and forth between Lily and James for a few minutes. They saw Lily glance up at James and quickly look down and vice versa.
Sirius sighed. "This is crazy."
"What is?" Remus asked, walking in.
"This. James, Lily. Lily, James," Sirius explained. "They broke up for no reason."
"They shouldn't have broken up at all," Remus complained.
"Do you guys know why they broke up?" Elsie wondered.
Remus and Sirius exchanged looks and shrugged. "Nope, no clue," they answered quickly. Mia rolled her eyes but didn't say anything.
"Ugh! I just don't get it," Madison complained. "They were perfect together. It makes no sense that they'd break up." Elsie nodded in agreement.
"You guys?" Sirius asked. Everyone looked at him so he continued. "Maybe we should be talking a little softer. You do know they are both in the room, don't you?"
Everyone looked around and burst out laughing. "Oops?" Elsie said. As she was saying this, Lily gathered her things and left in an upset hurry.
"Uh oh," the three girls muttered under their breath.
"It must be so hard on Lily," Remus said with a sigh.
"It must be hard on the both of them," Madison stated.
"This might sound harsh, but I think they just need to see other people," Sirius contributed.
"What? Are you crazy?" Madison exclaimed, slapping Sirius on the arm.
"Ow!" Sirius cried out. "I'm not crazy. It's just what I think. Obviously it's not working out, or so they seem. If they see other people, they'll see how perfect they are for each other."
"Well if you put it that way, it doesn't sound half bad…" Elsie pointed out. The others shrugged and nodded while Mia snorted.
"I think they should just-" Sirius started, but was interrupted by James.
"Hey guys," James said. All five of them grew silent and just stared at James.
"Hi," Sirius finally responded.
"Talking about Lily and I?" James wondered.
"What gives you that idea?" Elsie replied.
"Well because the minute I came over, you guys got really quiet," James said with a shrug. The others exchanged looks and didn't say anything.
"Can I ask you a question James?" Elsie said.
"What happened between the two of you? I mean, what's the real reason you guys break up?"
"I'm tired of telling you guys this over and over again. We broke up because things are different. And besides, it's none of your business," James exclaimed, and then stomped off.
"Oh yeah, he should be mad," Mia muttered.
"Huh?" Madison asked.
"Mia? Can I talk to you out there?" Remus insisted, pointing to the hallway that leads to the boys and girls dorms. Mia gritted her teeth and followed Remus.
"What are you doing?" Remus hissed.
"I can't handle being around him," Mia exclaimed, crossing her arms. "It's just makes me so mad. He had no right to break up with Lily because she wouldn't have sex with him!"
"That's not the only reason he did it, hun," Remus whispered.
"Oh what? He was bored by Lily and wanted to see what else was out there?"
"No. He just didn't feel comfortable around her anymore. He felt like he has to watch every little thing he said or she would take it the wrong way," Remus explained.
"Yeah, and because he's a pig and couldn't get Lily in bed with him," Mia argued.
"No!" Remus jeered.
"Why are you defending him??" Mia inquired.
"Because I'm his friend. And because I confided in you and you're almost telling your friends about why they broke up."
"They have a right to know!" Mia hissed.
"Why?? It's none of their business," Remus defended. "Plus, it's obvious that Lily doesn't want them to know."
Mia sighed. "Fine, I'll give you that last one."
"It's a start," Remus grumbled. "And stop getting so mad at James, okay?"
"I don't think I can do that," Mia mumbled.
"Because he hurt my best friend!" Mia exclaimed. "I hate seeing her this way, and it's all James's fault."
"That's not true! He wanted-"
"Yes it is!" Mia shouted. "Lily is not a sex object! She's a human being and James didn't see that!"
"You are so blowing this out of proportion!" Remus cried out.
"I am not!" Mia shouted and then sighed, "Look, maybe we should cool it for awhile until this whole thing blows over." Mia refused to look at Remus.
"Are you…are you breaking up with me?" Remus asked.
Mia sighed. "We weren't really together in the first place…"
"Just because your best friend doesn't have a boyfriend, you're going to let that ruin what you have?"
Mia sighed. "I just can't be with someone who disagrees with me so much on this topic."
"Look Mia, Lily is your best friend, and James is one of mine," Remus said.
"Yeah and your best friend wanted my best friend in bed and that's all! How can you agree with that?? It's all his fault that they broke up!"
"It is not. He wanted to get back together and she said no," Remus cried out and then sighed, because he realized he just told another one of James's secret to Mia.
Mia paused. "She what?"
Remus sighed. "It was obviously not all James's decision because Lily doesn't want to get back together with him."
"Are you sure?" Mia asked. Remus nodded so Mia said, "Wow, maybe she really is ready to move on…" Mia looked up at Remus and walked away.
"Mia, wait," Remus said softly but Mia didn't turn back as she walked up the stairs to her room.
"Ms. Evans?" Professor Dollop said in front of the entire class a few days later. When Lily didn't hear, he asked a little louder. "Ms. Evans??" Lily tore her eyes away from the window and looked up.
"Um, yes?" she squeaked.
"Did you hear the assignment?"
"Well, actually…er…no," Lily murmured. The professor repeated the assignment and Lily mumbled a quick thanks and then went back to looking out the window.
"Ms. Evans?" the professor repeated and Lily looked back up. "You may go now…"
"Oh…right, yes. Thanks." Lily gathered her things.
Lily walked out of the classroom and knocked into none other than James.
"You didn't take one single note," James noticed. Lily shrugged and tried to get away. "You resorting to the osmosis theory of learning?"
"Why do you care?" Lily sneered.
"Just making an observation," James said with a shrug.
"Well great, we'll build a dome over you and jam a telescope in your head," Lily mumbled and then walked quickly so James couldn't catch up with her. When she turned the corner, she stopped. She leaned against the wall and sighed.
Lily looked up to see Severus Snape standing there.
"Oh, hi Severus," Lily said, wiping her tears away with the back of her hand.
"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Nothing," Lily said with a shrug.
"It has to do with Potter doesn't it?" Snape asked, spitting out James's name.
Lily snorted. "Of course."
"You wanna take a walk outside? Maybe I can get your mind off of him," Snape said with a shrug.
"That sounds good. I really need to get him out of my head."
An hour later, Lily and Snape were still talking.
"You're kidding!" Lily exclaimed. "You turned his entire wardrobe pink? Wow, you guys really do hate each other."
"Don't you remember any of this?" Snape asked.
"Not really. I didn't really get to know James and his friends until fourth year. And even then, I wasn't too fond of him," Lily explained with a shrug.
"So Lily?" Snape asked, looking down at his shoes.
"It's a Hogsmeade weekend in two weeks. Wanna go togother?"
Lily looked shocked. "Oh, I don't know. I mean, I don't think so. Not with everything that's been going on…"
"You said yourself that you need to get him out of your head and get over him…" Snape pointed out.
"Yeah, I know. But it's too soon…" Lily said slowly. "I'm sorry." And then Lily gathered her things and ran back to the dorm.
Sirius ran into the commons room out of breath.
"What happened to you??" Remus asked. He was sitting with Peter and Mia was on the other side of Peter, trying to ignore Remus..
"I have some very bad news," Sirius said, catching his breath.
"What? What? What is it??" the three asked.
"Well…Lily's moved on."
"Huh? What are you talking about?"
"What I'm saying is, Lily was just asked out," Sirius confirmed.
"What?!" the three exclaimed.
"Are you sure?" Remus asked and Sirius nodded.
"Did she say yes?" Peter asked.
"Why is this bad news?" Mia wondered.
"It's bad news for James, and I don't know if she said yes because I had to run back here and tell you guys," Sirius said, sitting down.
"Well, why'd you do that you dolt!" Remus cried out.
"Who asked her out?" Peter wondered.
"Oh, yeah, that's the horrible part," Sirius said.
"What? Who was it??" Mia asked.
"Snape asked Lily out," Sirius verified.
"What?" a calm voice said from behind the couch. The four turned around to see James standing there.
"Oh, okay. It's not what it sounds like…" Sirius said slowly.
"Sounds to me as if my worst enemy asked out the girl I love…" James pointed out.
Sirius paused. "Oh, okay…well then it's exactly what it sounds like."
Just then, Lily came running in, and flew by them. James looked from Lily's back to the four sitting on the couch and rushed to catch up with Lily.
"Lily!" James shouted, grabbing her arm right as she was about to climb the first step.
Lily sighed and said softly, "Let go of me."
"You're going out with Snape?" James asked.
"Sirius says you're going out with Snape…" James said.
"Well he's wr-" Lily started before James interrupted her.
"How could you do that? You know how much I hate the guy and then you go and date him."
"No James, I'm not da-" Lily tried to say.
"I guess it doesn't take you long to get over someone and go out with their worst enemy!"
Lily jerked her arm away from James. "You broke up with me James! You have no right to tell me who I can date! And you said we should see other people!"
"But I didn't mean it! And I certainly didn't mean him!"
"Get out of my life James!" Lily shouted and started stomping up the stairs.
James sighed. He didn't mean to get angry and start accusing her.
Lily looked back and saw the sincere look on James look and sighed. She quietly confessed, "I'm not dating him."
James looked up to see if she was talking to him. "What?"
She slowly came down the five steps she was ahead so she was on ground level with James. "I'm not dating him," she repeated.
"He asked me, but I said no. I have no intentions of dating him," Lily said, looking up at James.
"Why didn't you say that before?"
"Because you were yelling at me."
James sighed. "Oh yeah…" Lily rolled her eyes at him. "So Lily? Why exactly?"
"Why'd you say no to Snape?" James asked.
"Because I don't like him."
"What do you mean why?" Lily asked. "Because he's not my type."
"Because why?" James insisted.
"Because I'm still in-" Lily started to yell but stopped herself. "Never mind."
"No really, what is it?" James asked. "Why don't you want to go out with him?"
"Just because okay?" Lily demanded.
"Because why?" James repeated.
"James, stop the inquisition!" Lily exclaimed.
James sighed. "Sorry," he said as he looked down at his shoes.
Lily sighed also and then spoke up, "You know why."
James couldn't think of what to say, so after a few seconds of silence, Lily rushed up the stairs to her room.
"Oh, hey Lily," Mia said, walking over to her bed.
"Hey," Lily said, looking over at Mia. "It's Friday night."
"Why aren't you with Remus?" Lily asked,
Mia shrugged but didn't say anything.
"Is everything cool between you two?" Lily wondered.
Mia sighed and looked up at Lily. "I think I may have broken up with him."
"What?" Lily exclaimed and then walked over and sat on Mia's bed.
"We got into a heated discussion and it led to yelling and well I think I ended up breaking it off," Mia said. "We weren't really dating in the first place, so I didn't really break up with him, I just ended up saying we should stop seeing each other or something like that."
"Oh Mia," Lily said sympathetically.
"The sad thing is, I didn't want things to end," Mia exclaimed with a sigh.
"Then why'd you say you wanted to stop seeing him?" Lily asked.
"Because he was defending James!" Mia cried out.
"Wait, you broke up because of James and I?"
Mia shrugged and sighed. "I know why you and James broke up Lily."
"You do?" Lily asked. "Was it Remus who told?"
Mia nodded. "He didn't mean to. I mean, it came up and he blurted it out. I haven't told any of the other girls, but…why haven't you?"
"Because it's embarrassing. It's not something I like to bring up very often," Lily said. "It's not something I particularly want to remember."
"Remus told me something else also," Mia said, turning to look at Lily.
"Oh my gosh! He didn't tell you about James not being a virgin, did he?!" Lily cried out.
"Whoa, wait a minute, what??" Mia exclaimed.
Lily sighed. "Oops, guess that's not what you were talking about."
"No, but it's what we're talking about. He's not a virgin???"
Lily looked out the window and told Mia the entire story. After she was finished, Mia exclaimed, "So he didn't use her?"
"Well technically he did, but not on purpose," Lily said with a sigh. "He basically knows it was a mistake and wishes his first time could be with someone he loved."
"Like you," Mia stated.
"Well, guess that won't be happening," Lily said with a sigh. "So…what were you talking about before? What did Remus tell you?"
"James asked to get back together with you and you said no?"
Lily sighed. "I love him so much. I don't know why I said no. I mean, all I want is to have him back. But he asked after I found out he wasn't a virgin. We were yelling and screaming at each other. I've never gotten so angry with him before and I just realized things were…different."
Mia nodded. "I see." Lily gave her a gentle pat on the back.
"Remus won't even talk to me. He's been avoiding me since we talked a few days ago," Mia explained.
"Why don't you find him? It's obvious you didn't mean what you said. Mia, just because it's not working between James and I, doesn't mean you have to be unhappy as well," Lily explained.
"Yeah, maybe I'll go find him tomorrow or something," Mia said skeptically. "And maybe you should talk to James."
Lily sighed and turned her head away. "No. I think it's best if I avoid him completely."
"You guys want to go out to the Quidditch field and hang out? It's a gorgeous day," Kayla suggested the next day.
"What time is it?" Lily asked.
"A little after three," Kayla answered.
"We can't," Lily responded.
"We can't what?" Madison asked.
"We can't go to the Quidditch field," Lily said.
"Reason please," Elsie demanded.
"Because Quidditch practice could be going on."
"So? It's a big field. We'll stay out of their way," Mia said with a shrug.
"No, I could run into…" Lily trailed off.
"Oh," Mia said. "You don't know if he's actually there?"
"I don't remember exactly what time he practices there on Saturdays," Lily said with a shrug, looking down at her hands.
"Well how about we go down to the lake?" Mia wondered.
"Nope," Lily retorted.
"Why not?" Madison asked.
"He could be there too," Lily said. "The guys go down there to skip stones every once in awhile on the weekends."
"Okay, well is anyone hungry? Why don't we venture down to the kitchens?" Elsie wondered.
"Can't. James gets hungry around this time," Lily stated.
"Okay, well then what about just hanging out in the commons room…you're shaking your head, why?" Kayla asked.
"They do homework there," Lily said.
"Okay, so basically you're cutting us off from the world completely," Madison said.
"No, no. That's okay," Mia quickly said. "Who needs to go out of the room anyway?"
"Lily?" Elsie asked and Lily turned to look at her. "Why all of a sudden are you trying to avoid James?"
Lily shrugged. "I've avoided him before."
"Not like this. You haven't imprisoned yourself in your room because James could be everywhere and anywhere in Hogwarts."
"I just can't talk to him right now. I don't want to talk to him. And if we see him, he's going to try and talk to us, well, me. And if his friends see me, they'll tell James. And look, why does it matter?" Lily asked.
"It doesn't. I was just curious. Did something happen between you two recently that you want to ta-" Elsie asked.
"Nothing happened. I just realize that it's getting harder to see James around okay?" Lily said firmly.
The girls shrugged while Mia gave a soothing smile at Lily.
"Do I tell her? Or should I just hope she doesn't find out?" Elsie was asking Madison.
"Oh c'mon, she doesn't want us to completely hate him. I think she'd be fine with it."
"But it's been almost a month and she's still on that avoid anywhere where he has set foot phase," Elsie pointed out.
"Hmm… that's true," Madison said. "Well, it'll only be a week right? So just lie low so she doesn't see you."
"Okay," Elsie said with a shrug as James came around the corner. "Oh hey James. How about we meet for our project tonight at 11?"
"Isn't that kind of late when we have early classes tomorrow?" James wondered.
"I have stuff to do. How about we meet in the back of the library?" Elsie asked.
"Why the back? Why don't we meet at the fron-"
"They're usually crowded. Just meet me in the back table at 11," Elsie said firmly and then walked off.
"Hi," James said, plopping his stuff next to Elsie's and sitting across from her.
"Hi," Elsie said. Neither one of them said anything to each other, so they both opened their books and stared at the words. "This is weird."
"It shouldn't be," James said, closing his book and looking up at Elsie.
"I mean, did Lily tell you to ignore me? Did she tell you guys to hate me?"
"That's not Lily," Elsie clarified.
James paused. "How is she?"
"Oh," was all James could say.
Elsie sighed. "More ish than fine."
James gave a crooked smile. "Really? How must more?"
"You're breaking the agreement."
"The agreement not to talk about Lily."
"We didn't have an agreement."
"Well it was an unspoken agreement," Elsie explained.
"Well it was really unspoken because no one told me about it," James argued.
"If we have to do this project together, I just feel that it's better to leave Lily out of it," Elsie said with a shrug.
They both didn't say anything, and reopened their books. "James?"
"Do you think you and Lily will ever get back together?" Elsie asked.
"So, how about that no talking about Lily thing?" James said.
"Look, I'm merely asking because it would be-" Elsie said but then stopped because there was Lily standing right in front of James and Elsie.
"Sorry," Lily mumbled and then ran off.
"Wait, Lily, I'm sorry I didn't tell you!" Elsie cried out, running after Lily.
"It doesn't matter."
"Lily, stop," Elsie cried. "Okay, that's the opposite of stop."
"Just forget it. So you didn't tell me you two study together-"
"Have a project to do together," Elsie corrected.
"Fine. Whatever, life goes on."
"Don't be mad."
"Fine. I have to go," and with that, Lily turned the corner and was gone.
The next day, everyone but Mia and Elsie were sitting doing homework in the commons room. Lily knew James had Quidditch practice so she wouldn't run into him there.
Elsie walked in and came over to the three girls. "Lily…"
"What?" Lily said, not even bothering to look up.
"I just wanted you to know…" Elsie wasn't sure how to word her apology.
"You know, I'm not a baby. I don't need you to protect me," Lily jumped right into it.
"I know that. I just didn't want you to be sadder than you already are," Elsie said, looking down at her feet.
"How would telling me you and James were working on a project together make me sad?" Lily asked, looking up at Elsie.
"I didn't want to mention his name around you," Elsie squeaked.
"Have you seen your face when his name is mentioned?"
"My face is fine," Lily retorted.
"It is not fine. It's far from fine," Elsie exclaimed.
"So, I'm guessing Lily found out about Elsie working with James," Madison mumbled to Kayla so Lily and Elsie could hear.
"You knew??" Lily cried out.
"Well, I mean, she didn't know if-" Madison started to ramble.
"There's no need to protect me to stop from seeing a look on my face that would vanish in three seconds. I'll get over all of this," Lily snapped, standing up to face Elsie.
"Well you're not over it yet," Madison pointed out.
"Well maybe I'd get over it quicker if everyone wasn't running around trying to protect me from all that is evil in this world!" Lily cried out.
"Well fine. I won't protect you anymore," Elsie asserted.
"Next time we are walking along and a dragon is about to eat your head off, I'll step aside and watch it happen," Elsie shouted.
"And in the spirit of not protecting you, I was going to tell you that I had to meet with a professor tonight. But that's wrong, James and I have more work to do!" Elsie cried out.
"Great to hear it," Lily mumbled angrily.
"And we will probably be working on it all weekend because it's due Monday!" Elsie shouted.
"I don't care!" Lily screamed. Elsie exhaled angrily and stomped out. Lily slammed her butt back into her chair.
"Lily, don't you think that-" Madison started.
"Why didn't you tell me??" Lily cried out.
"Huh?" Madison asked.
"Well, obviously you knew. If Elsie wasn't going to tell me, then why didn't you??" Lily demanded.
"Well, I mean, I figured…" Madison trailed off.
"Were you trying to protect me too??" Lily asked.
"I don't know," Madison squeaked. "I don't want to talk about it."
"I'm a big girl!" Lily exclaimed.
"You're not acting like it!" Madison cried out.
"Ugh! I don't need to take this!" Lily exclaimed, starting to gather her things.
"No, let me do you a favor. I'll leave!" Madison shouted, and then stomped off.
Kayla just kept her head down, trying not to get involved. Lily plopped back in her chair and then looked over at Kayla.
"Did you know about this also?"
"No, no. I really didn't," Kayla said.
Lily sighed. "Good," she mumbled.
Kayla hesitated and then asked, "Don't you think you're being a little hard on them?"
"Me?? What about them! I'm seventeen years old! I don't need someone to baby me! Why are you on their side anyway??" Lily exclaimed.
Kayla took a deep breath, and then dove right into it. "Because…well, because you've been miserable for awhile now. We hate having to tiptoe around the subject of James, the Marauders, and anything that even remotely has to do with James."
"Well then don't! If I can handle my sister getting married and wanting me out of her life, I can surely handle this little break-up!"
"It's not exactly little. You were going out for eleven months. And we don't even know why you broke up. We are your best friends and you wouldn't even tell us what happened. Obviously it was huge."
"Thanks for reminding me," Lily mumbled irritably.
"See?? That's why we don't want to mention James around you! Because you act like this," Kayla exclaimed. "Ugh, this is stupid. You need friends at a time like this and now you yell at them an-"
"I don't need friends who criticize me like the three of you!" Lily yelled, and then stomped out, not noticing that she knocked into James on her way out.
"I don't get you," Madison growled, walking up and tapping James's shoulder a few days later
"Excuse me?" James said, turning around. "I thought you guys were on a strike from me."
"What?" Madison asked, losing her train of thought.
"It's obvious that you're trying to avoid me and my friends," James said, still walking.
"No, it just happens to look that way," Madison lied.
"That's so not true! I haven't seen Lily for an entire month now. And I hardly see you guys at all. If I wasn't in y our classes, I wouldn't see any of you at all. It's a good thing for Lily that her and I don't have many classes together because she took all those advanced ones. So why don't you do her a favor and go away. It's what she wants, isn't it??"
"Hey! I was yelling first okay?" Madison exclaimed.
"I'm busy now. Yell at me later," James said with a sigh, speeding up.
"You are scum," Madison exclaimed.
James stopped. "Excuse me??"
"I thought you were a good guy!"
"Huh?" James asked, obviously confused.
"It'll be impossible to find a girl like Lily. She's gorgeous, she's smart, she's funny. What were you thinking??" Madison cried out.
"I know she's gorg-"
"I actually liked you. I really thought you'd make her happy. I really thought you were the perfect one for her. I really thought yo-"
"I am tired of everyone blaming me! Yes, okay, I guess it sounded like I pressured Lils into having sex but that is totally not what I meant, and yes I lied to her about not being a virgin, but I asked her if she wanted to get back together and she said no. You hear that? She said no! She's moved on! She was asked out by Snape and everything! So, stop yelling at me! It's not just my fault. She doesn't want to get back together!!" James shouted.
Madison just stood there. "Wha-what?" She said, barely audible.
"I gotta go," James said with a sigh, and then walked off.
"Have you guys seen Lily?" Madison asked, walking into the commons room an hour later.
"Who cares," Elise grumbled.
Madison sighed, and sat between Elise and Kayla. "I know why they broke up."
"It doesn't matter anymore," Kayla mumbled.
"Oh, I think you'll find this interesting," Madison said.
"Fine, what?" Elise asked.
"James wanted her to have sex with him an-"
"That jerk!" Kayla cried out.
"Hold on, it gets better," Madison explained. "He also lied to her…he's not a virgin."
"Hold on, I'm not done!" Madison whined. "Also, James asked her to get back together with him and she said no."
"Hold on!" The other two laughed and let Madison continue. "And Snape asked Lily out…who knows if she said yes or no." Madison said with a shrug. She looked over at the other girls, waiting for them to jump up and down and gave another sigh. "Okay, now I'm done."
"Oh my gosh! No wonder she hates James!" Elise cried out.
"I can't believe he's not a virgin…" Kayla said. "Lily must be heartbroken."
Just then, Mia walked in. "Mia!! Oh my gosh! We know why Lily and James broke up!" Madison exclaimed.
"He wanted to have sex with her and lie-" Elsie started.
"And lied about being a virgin," Mia finished. "But she found out about the virgin thing after they had already broke up. Technically didn't count towards the break up."
"You knew?" The three girls exclaimed.
"Of course I knew…Remus told me," Mia said with a shrug.
"And you didn't tell us??" Elise asked.
"Well no, because obviously Lily didn't want us all to know."
"Hey what's going on with you and Remus anyhow?" Kayla wondered.
"Nothing," Mia said with a shrug.
"Oh c'mon, you can tell us," Elsie whined.
"No, I mean nothing is going on. There's nothing there," Mia said, shrugging again.
"What? Are you sure? You guys were cute," Madison said. "What happened with you two?"
"I don't really know…" Mia said. "We were arguing about Lily and James and before I knew it, I was telling him we shouldn't be together anymore, which is crazy, because I want the total opposite."
"Well, if that's not what you wanted, why have you not talked to him?" Elsie wondered.
"Well because then Lily went out her whole no crossing paths with James phase and I really haven't been able to talk to Remus," Mia said with a shrug.
"In other words, you're avoiding him," Kayla concluded.
"Well…not completely. I mean, I just feel bad with how I handled it and now he doesn't want to talk to me and it just-"
"Hey, Mia? Can I bo-" Lily said, barging into the commons room and then stopped when she saw the other three sitting there. "Oh, never mind. I'll ask later."
"Lily, wait!" Mia exclaimed.
"What?" Lily asked, obviously annoyed.
"Please tell us what happened between you and James," Madison begged.
"Ugh! If you guys ask me that one more time, I'm going to scream!" Lily shouted. "I don't want to talk about it."
"Fine!" Madison shouted. Madison, Kayla, and Elsie turned their heads away from Lily.
"Ugh! They know why you and James broke up," Mia said, trying to get encouragement from the three girls.
Lily slowly walked over towards the couch. "You told them?" Lily hissed.
"No! They found out from…" Mia trailed off. "Actually, how did you guys find out?"
Madison sighed. "I talked to James," Madison piped up. "Well, actually I yelled at James…"
"You didn't," Lily said with a groan, sitting down.
"Well, I mean, I was able to tell him he was scum and that I hated him for breaking up with you and how he ruined everything when he kind of told me everything and then he told me everything…" Madison said.
Lily sighed. "He's still scum."
"Oh most definitely," Madison said with a grin and Lily joined her with a smile of her own.
"Lily? Why did you say no when he asked to get back together?" Elise wondered.
"Because…well, because everything got so different. And," Lily sighed, "It's just time to move on." Lily plopped down in a seat next to them.
"So, we're all good?" Kayla asked. Lily gave them all a hug.
Lily was speaking to the other four girls as she went through the closet to find the chess game. "So, I was thinking that today we could finish our tournament of chess and then aft-" Lily stopped.
"And then what Lily?" Mia asked.
Lily came out of the closet holding a giant box.
"Oh. The James box," Madison said, biting her lip. "Look, I know I was supposed to throw all that stuff away, but I just couldn't. I know you don't understand, but you're going to want to have that stuff to look at when you're finally over all of this."
"It's sitting right beside my Charley box. At least he was keeping it company," Elsie teased.
Lily smiled. "Thanks guys."
"So…shall we get snacks from the kitchen?" Mia asked. Lily nodded and the four other girls left.
Lily slowly looked through the things in her box, even finding it easy to smile a little.
Two days later, Mia and Lily were walking around Hogwarts. "Alright, so I was thinking that maybe today we could do homework just later in the afternoon instead of all day. How about if we just hang out, eat junk food, and talk. It'll be empty since most of Gryffindor will be at the Quidditch game and so-"
"I want to go," Lily said, stopping to turn to Mia.
"Go where?" Mia asked.
Lily took a deep breath. "I want to go to the game."
"Why?" Lily wondered.
"Gryffindor is playing."
"So he will be there," Mia clarified.
"We're talking you know who."
"Oh my gosh!!"
"What??" Lily asked, alarmed by Mia's enthusiasm.
"Oh my gosh!!"
"Calm down," Lily insisted.
"You're getting back together!!"
"Hey guys!" Elsie said, walking over with Madison and Kayla.
"What's up?" Kayla wondered.
"They're getting back together!!" Mia exclaimed.
"Who?" Kayla asked.
"Sonny and Cher," Mia joked, rolling her eyes. "Who do you think??"
"Ooooh! Oh my gosh! When did this happen? Why? How?? I need details!!" Elsie exclaimed.
"Nothing's happened. I don't even know why I'm going to the game exactly," Lily said with a shrug.
"This is still exciting!" Madison exclaimed, jumping up and down.
"Stop jumping!" Lily insisted. "I don't even know what he's thinking. I mean, who knows? Maybe he's burned the pictures and stuff that reminds him of me and he's moved on. But I'm going."
"I so want this. I love you, but you've been mopey dopey and-"
"And sneezy, and sleepy, and grum-" Elsie started.
"What are you talking about?" Kayla wondered.
"Sounded like she was naming dwarves," Elsie said with a shrug.
"Anyway," Madison said. "You've been moping for so long, that's it's about time this happened. I miss the old Lily."
"I miss the old me too," Lily said with a smile. "Alright…so are we going?"
"Of course!" Mia exclaimed, and the five of them walked towards the Quidditch field.
"That was a great game!" Elsie exclaimed.
"Yeah, James did a pretty good job, huh Lily?" Mia said with a smile.
Lily smiled back. "One of his best."
"So, are you happy you came?" Madison asked.
"Yeah, I'm glad that I-" Lily stopped mid sentence and just stared ahead.
"Lily? What's wrong?" Kayla asked.
They all turned to see a fifth year Gryffindor, Tara. She happened to be up against a wall talking to James. The girls watched as they laughed and she brushed his shoulder.
The four girls sighed. "She's just a teammate," Mia informed.
"What?" Lily asked, getting out of her trance. "Oh yeah. Right, I know."
"I'm sure it's nothing. Just one of those things where the girl likes James because he's so popular but he can't stand the girl," Elsie said with a shrug.
"Right," Lily said, looking down. "C'mon. Let's go."
"Don't you want to talk to him?" Madison urged.
Lily sighed. "No," Lily said softly, looking down at her shoes.
"You came to his game, but you don't want to talk to him?" Elsie asked. "I thought maybe you two were going to try and get bac-"
"Can I ask you guys a question and you have you be totally honest," Lily interrupted.
"Of course," they all agreed.
"Have you seen him with that girl outside of Quidditch?"
"No," Elsie answered immediately.
"Elsie…" Lily warned.
"No," she said firmly.
"You'd tell me, right?" Lily wondered.
"Yes," Elsie said and then sighed. "Okay, no. But only because it would break your heart."
"But we swear we haven't," Madison chimed in.
"Totally swear?" Lily asked.
"He's miserable," Kayla said with a smile.
"Suicidal," Mia finished.
Lily grinned as Elsie continued, "And in dire need of a haircut."
"That has always been the case," Lily said with a smile and then frowned when she looked over and saw James laugh at a joke Tara told.
"He's kind of s-" Madison started but abruptly stopped. They all stopped because James turned his head and had to do a double take when he saw Lily standing just a few feet away.
"Uh oh," Mia muttered under her breath.
"Lily?" James asked, totally ignoring the end of Tara's sentence.
"Gotta go," Lily said quickly, and then practically ran the other way.
"Why are you so happy?" Sirius asked, as James came practically skipping into their room.
"We won," James said with a smile and a shrug.
"There's got to be something else," Sirius said, sitting down on his bed.
"Why would you say that?"
"Because we've won most games this year, and you've been miserable for many of them," Sirius explained.
"I haven't been that miserable," James said, still not being able to frown. Instead, his smile got bigger.
Sirius looked at him strangely and then it dawned on him, "You asked Tara out, didn't you! You're finally going to stop moping around. I saw you two walking out together from the game, and I knew she had a thing for you but-"
"She asked me out, yes," James said. "But I said no…well actually, I didn't say anything because then I saw L-"
"You said no?!" Sirius exclaimed. "James, you've been moping around for almost two months now. You have to get over Lily."
"Sirius," James said firmly. "I know what I'm doing."
Sirius looked at him skeptically and then he thought he understood, "Ohhh, you're playing hard to get…"
James rolled his eyes and ignored Sirius. "Guess who was at the game, Si?"
"Almost the entire population of Hogwarts..."
"No…" James said slowly. "Lily was there."
"Your Lily? Lily Lily? The girl who you haven't seen for nearly a month Lily??" Sirius exclaimed.
"That's the one," James said with a smile.
"So, she's over you?" Sirius asked, confused.
James threw his pillow at him. "Thanks a lot."
"Sorry, but I don't get why this is such good news…" Sirius wondered.
"Never mind," James said, regretting telling Sirius anything. "So, let's talk about your girl of the week."
"Madison?" Sirius asked.
James practically fell off his bed. "Excuse me??"
"Oops…" Sirius mumbled.
"You and Madison?? How did this happen? And how come I didn't know about this?"
"It just happened a week ago. We both had detention from that awful Professor Krinkle and yeah…" Sirius trailed off.
James got up from his bed and hit Sirius over the head. "OW! What'd you do that for??" Sirius asked, rubbing his head.
"You can't date a friend. With you, like it always is, you'll have a bad break up and then we'll never see her or her friends again!"
"Like you and Lily??" Sirius responded.
James slowly sat back down on his seat. "Oh…wow."
"Face it Prongs, that's already happened," Sirius said. "Plus, Madison and I aren't really going out per say, we're just friends…with benefits."
"That's what you always say," James mumbled with a grin, throwing another pillow at Sirius.
"You think she wants to get back together?" Sirius asked Madison, two days later.
"Well, why else would she have gone to the game?" Madison asked.
"Because she's over him…" Sirius explained.
"Oh, no way. That is definitely not the case," Madison confirmed.
"So she wants to get back together with him huh?" Sirius stated, not as a question, but as a statement. "Is this good? I mean, if they break up again we'll all have to go through the hell of not talking to the enemies, etc."
"I don't think they'll break up again though…" Madison said slowly. "I mean, after seeing how horrible it is to be apart, I don't think they'll ever fight again."
"Well, we're not even certain that they are getting back together," Sirius said with a shrug.
"Yeah, especially after she saw him with Tara."
"Oooh, she saw that?" Sirius asked. Madison nodded so Sirius continued. "Not good. But James didn't say yes to Tara."
"Wait…Tara asked James out??" Madison exclaimed. "And he said no? I just thought they talked. Maybe there is hope for Lily and James."
"Who knows," Sirius said with a shrug, slinging an arm around Madison's shoulders. "Oh, by the way, James knows."
"About us," Sirius explained.
"About how we're just friends?" Madison teased, kissing Sirius on the lips.
"Right, of course," Sirius joked back, kissing her again. "So…my room?"
Madison smiled and nodded. As they neared the room, they stopped abruptly. There was Lily, just standing outside of the boy's room.
"What's she doing here?" Sirius hissed. Madison shrugged and looked just as puzzled as Sirius. They went back around the corner so Lily couldn't see them.
Just then, the door flung open and James and Lily came face to face.
"Oh…hi," Lily muttered.
"Hi," James said back.
There was an awkward silence so Lily asked, "How's Tara?"
"Who?" James asked and then realized what she was talking about. "Tara's fine…I guess. I only see her at practice and games."
Lily nodded. "Okay."
Sirius turned to Madison and rolled his eyes. "This is pathetic," he mouthed to her. She nodded in agreement.
"So…why are you here?" James wondered.
"Because I have to take a poll for one of my classes," Lily fibbed.
"Huh?" James asked, obviously not buying it.
"Do you like your living situations? Are the rooms comfortable enough for you?" Lily started. "Do you like the people you room with? Is there-"
"Give it up Lily," James said, rolling his eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"You are not here to ask me about my room," James informed her.
"Oh, why do you say that?" Lily asked smugly.
"You haven't even come near here in ages. And then you come by all of a sudden?" James exclaimed, resting his arm against the edge of the doorway. "Why can't you just admit you're here to see me?"
"Oh, everything's about you huh?" Lily cried out.
"Well right now it is!" James exclaimed, not understanding why he was getting so angry.
"I know you have an ego problem and you have to convince yourself that every person at Hogwarts is here for you, but get over yourself," Lily shouted. Lily then sighed and calmed down. She sated softly, "Why don't you go find Tara, I'm sure she'd make everything about you."
James sighed and looked down at his feet. "We're not dating.Plus, why would you care? I mean, you're the one who moved on and started dating Snape."
"We aren't dating! And never did!!" Lily exclaimed. "Ugh! Coming here was such a bad idea!"
"I thought you had to, for that made up class assignment," James exclaimed grumpily with a smirk.
"I've got to stop this," Sirius whispered to Madison, and he rounded the corner with Madison to face James and Lily.
"Speaking of dating," James muttered.
"What are you doing here?" Lily asked Madison.
"They're dating," James explained.
Lily whipped her head around to face Sirius and Madison and noticed them holding hands. "You are?"
"We're not really dating per say…" Madison said, biting her lip.
"We're not here to talk about us," Sirius interrupted. "What I want to know is what the hell is wrong with you two?"
James and Lily crossed their arms across their chest, but refused to look at each other. Sirius sighed and continued, "You-" pointed at Lily, "-came to see him-" turned to James, "-and you are happy that she did. So give it up already!"
"Yeah. Hug, kiss, make out, and be done with it," Madison continued.
"Ha!" Lily exclaimed. "You two are doing enough of that for the both of us." Sirius and Madison just sighed but didn't say anything. James looked at Lily and he also sighed. Lily spoke up, "I'm going now." No one said anything, so Lily walked down the stairs and left.
"Dude, go after her," Sirius insisted.
James exhaled. "Yeah right," he muttered and then turned to walk back into the room.
"James, she obviously came here to see you, so just go talk to her," Madison urged.
"No," James said firmly.
"You have to! You've been moping around for god knows how long, and it's time you did something about it," Sirius insisted.
"Why do you care so much?" James mumbled. Sirius and Madison shrugged. "Oooh, I get it. You guys want the room to yourself, so you're telling me to go so I'm out of your hair."
The three of them just looked at each other, and then they all burst out laughing. "Fine, I'm going," James said with a smile and a roll of his eyes.
James took a deep breath and walked over to where Lily was sitting. "Hi," he mumbled.
Lily groaned when she saw him and starting turning away.
"No, Lily, look," James urged. "I want to talk to you."
Lily sighed, "Fine."
"You don't have to respond. Just hear me out," James said. "I don't know why you were standing in front of my door, and who cares? That's your business. And I know when we broke up I said I wanted to date other people, but that's not true. I couldn't date other girls even if I wanted to…not after you. And I understand that things are different between us. But things can't remain the same, you know that. I'm still in love with you, probably more than I ever have been. And I'm sure you've probably moved on and that's fine. But…yeah, that's it."
Lily just looked down at her feet, but didn't say anything. After a minute or so of awkward silence, James turned around to leave.
Lily tried opening her mouth to say something, but nothing came out. James sighed and walked out of the room.
Three days later, Lily and James were still avoiding each other as much as possible. James was avoiding Lily because he was embarrassed that she didn't respond to what he had said and Lily just couldn't bear to see James.
"Come on," Madison whined. "It's been three days since he's confessed his love for you and you've done nothing."
Lily sighed. "Look, it's complicated okay?"
"How?? You love him, he loves you. End of story," Madison said simply.
"It's not that easy!" Lily cried out.
"That's bullshit Lily. You know you're just making up excuses," Madison said. "Now, I'm going over to talk with Sirius and-"
"You guys will not be talking," Lily mumbled with a grin.
Madison shrugged. "Well anyways, that means that James will probably be kicked out of the room, which means he'll be alone…wherever he is, so…"
"I don't care," Lily said firmly.
"Ugh!" Madison exclaimed, throwing her hands up in the air. She left the room and walked over to the boy's room. Sirius opened the door as she knocked and turned to look at James.
James looked up to see who was at the door, groaned with a slight smile, and gathered his things. "How do you guys know exactly when Peter and Remus won't be here?"
"We have impeccable timing," Sirius said with a grin.
"You guys are seriously going to have to find a better place then this. Some of us do like to work at times," James said.
"Nah, some of us like to bury our face in the books so some of us can avoid Lily," Sirius clarified.
"You wouldn't be talking about me, would you?" James joked and then left the room.
Half an hour later, Lily walked into the commons room hoping that James wouldn't be there, but at the same time, hoped he would be there. Sure enough, she noticed that the only person in there was James. Lily sighed and slowly walked over to him. She stood behind the chair so James would have no idea that she was there. She took a deep breath and said, "I still love you too," Lily whispered.
James quickly turned his head and stared at her. "Um…what?" James asked.
Lily smiled sheepishly and shrugged. James gave a giant smile. "Really?" was all he could think to say.
Lily rolled her eyes. "Of course I still love you, you dolt." James gave a tiny smile.
Before James could stop himself, he stood up, took one big step towards Lily and kissed her. They pulled apart and looked at each other. Lily smiled and pulled him towards her again.
Just then, Remus walked in and right behind him was Mia. "Oh…hi," Mia said awkwardly.
Remus didn't say anything; he just hurried over to the couch when he was abruptly stopped when his gaze went over to…
"Lily and James kissing?" Mia hissed. Remus's mouth hung wide open.
Just then, Kayla, Peter, and Elsie walked in.
"But that's not true. He said that-" Elsie stopped brusquely. "What the…"
"Oh my gosh!" Kayla hissed.
"How long have they been together now?"
Remus and Mia shrugged. Sirius and Madison skipped downstairs. Madison was smoothing down her hair, while Sirius was attempting to put his robe on the correct way.
"Hey guys!" Madison exclaimed.
"Wow, why are you so peppy?" Mia asked.
"Geez…do those two come up for air?" Sirius asked, glancing over at Lily and James.
"They never have before," Madison said with a giggle.
Remus, Mia, Kayla, Elsie, and Peter just stared at the two of them.
"Um…hello? Aren't you two surprised about the two of them being together??"
"Oh, well...no, not really," Sirius said with shrug.
"You should be. It's been almost two months since they've spoken to each other," Mia pointed out.
"Oh right but…" Madison trailed off, biting her lip.
"Hold on a minute," Peter said slowly, piecing it together. "Where exactly were you two just now?"
"Oh god. Please don't tell me…" Remus trailed off.
Before anyone else could say anything, James and Lily walked over.
"Oh, good is the room free?" James teased Sirius and Madison.
"Ew, ew, ew, ew," Remus repeated over and over again.
"Wait…you two?" Mia asked Sirius and Madison. "And…you two?" Mia asked James and Lily. "I need to lie down."
"I wouldn't do so on Sirius's bed," Elsie snickered.
"EW!" everyone but Sirius and Madison exclaimed. Sirius and Madison just rolled their eyes and laughed along with everyone else.
"Well now that we're all one big happy family again…who wants to go out by the lake?" Sirius asked. Everyone shrugged and agreed.
"I think I'm just going to stay here…" Mia said slowly.
"Oh yeah…we're not one big happy family," Sirius mumbled, looking back and forth from Mia and Remus. "Why is our group so complicated??" Madison rolled her eyes and grabbed his hand. Everyone but Remus and Mia left to go down by the lake.
"Look, I don't even remember what I said that day…I was so upset to see my friend in pain," Mia said with a shrug.
"I know…and I shouldn't have tried to avoid you after we had that awkward conversation," Remus explained. "I mean, we never really did resolve anything."
Mia smiled. "I know."
"But I think you were right. Maybe we should just…" Remus trailed off.
"Just be friends?" Mia squeaked.
Remus bit his lip and shrugged. "Could you imagine if what happened to James and Lily happened to us? You're such a good friend and I don't think I could handle that."
"But we're not James and Lily…" Mia justified.
"No, no. I know that," Remus said. "But I think it's better anyway. I mean, we've been apart for a month now and nothing bad has come of it."
"Right…yeah," Mia muttered.
"I mean, we weren't really dating before anyway…"
Mia fake smiled. "Right, oh yeah, of course. Sure, we'll just be friends."
"The best of friends," Remus confirmed.
"Yeah, sure. Whatever," Mia mumbled, looking down at her shoes.
"So, wanna go join the others down by the lake?" Remus asked.
"What? Oh no, I think I'm going to get some work done," Mia said with a shrug.
"Oh c'mon," Remus urged. "This is big. I mean, James and Lily back together? And Sirius and Madison, well that's just…"
"Unusual," Mia finished.
"Exactly. But to celebrate I'm sure by now, Sirius has stolen some wine."
"Shouldn't you take that away? You being Head Boy and all?" Mia asked, with a slight smile.
"Yeah, which is why I'm delaying going down there so they can all have their fun," Remus said with a shrug and a smile.
Mia shrugged. "Well, I guess it can't hurt to join in the party."
"Alright, hand over the wine—ooh, you got champagne this time," Remus said, obviously impressed.
"Oh c'mon. This is a time to celebrate," Sirius exclaimed.
"No, a wedding is a time to celebrate. A graduation is a time to celebrate. All of you guys being together…that's just a time to pat each other on the back," Mia confirmed.
"Aren't you guys happy that we can all hang out again?" Madison wondered.
Mia sighed. "Of course. Sorry," she said with a tiny smile."So here's to the best of friends!" Sirius said, raising his glass. As he did so, Remus took it away from him. Sirius pouted and the others quickly put their arms down. They all laughed and Remus handed Sirius back his glass.
"Here's to us!" Lily repeated. Everyone raised their glasses and clinked them together.
"Here's to the best year ever," James said with a sincere smile, wrapping his arm around Lily. Sirius grabbed Madison's hand. Elsie, Kayla, and Peter put their arms around each other. Mia glanced over at Remus and just stood there. But then she smiled, it truly was going to be a great rest of the seventh year.