Disclaimer: Yeah so I don't own any of the characters, sadly. Ohhh … The things I would do to Nathan Scott/James Lafferty… hmm.. anyhow, let me stop dreaming. I don't own One Tree Hill or the characters involved until otherwise noted.
Summary: My take on the episode "With Arms Wide Open" This is the way I think it should have gone, and guess what. It's my story! So that's how its gunna go! Actually, maybe not how it should have gone – but just how I would have liked to see it go!
Haley James sat on the edge of her bed as she dialed her boyfriend Nathan Scott's number for the umpteenth time since she'd gotten home from the basketball game. As soon as it rang, it went directly to his voicemail. She sighed as she ended the call and laid back. Tears began to trickle down her cheeks, falling to her bed spread. As though she had just gotten an idea, she stood up quickly and dialed a new number into her phone.
"Hales" Lucas Scott, Nathan's half-brother, and Haley's best friend, said as he answered the phone. "I've been worried completely sick about you. How are you holding up"
At his comment, Haley broke down in tears. She couldn't help it, nor could she stop the tears from flowing freely as if rain was pouring from her eyes in torrents. "I'm not" she choked through her uncontrollable sobs. "I'm so worried about Nathan. He'd been so cranky lately, and I noticed it. How come I'm not a good enough girlfriend to get on his case when he tells me nothing is wrong, and I disagree" she managed to ramble.
"Haley, calm down. You're lucky it's me you're talking to, or else someone else wouldn't have been able to understand the Crying Haley language" Lucas joked.
Haley forced a smile, which comforted her a bit and quieted her sobs, although the tears were still rolling down her cheeks with no sign of letting up anytime in the near future unless the impossible happened. "Thanks, Luke" she sighed as she wiped her face with the sleeve of her shirt. She held the sleeve to her face for a moment, realizing it was one of Nathan's long sleeved Tree Hill Raven's T-Shirts. "Luke, I just really care about him. I feel like somehow, it's MY fault…"
"It's not" a scruffy, mumbled voice said from behind her. Haley spun around to see Nathan standing in her bedroom doorway.
"I'll talk to you later" Haley whispered into her telephone as she hit the off button. The phone slid out of her hand to the floor as Nathan slumped down on her bed. She hurried to his side. "Oh Nate" she cried as she gently pulled his now fragile body into her arms. "I was so worried about you"
Nathan slowly tipped his head up to look into her eyes. A tear rolled down his cheek. "I'm so, so sorry…" he choked.
"Sh" she cooed into his ear. "Its okay, baby."
Nathan slowly sat upright, wrapping his arms around Haley weakly, but as best as he could. "No, Haley" he said sternly. His voice was raspy and he sounded exhausted. "It's not okay. I let you down." He cried softy as his tears rolled from his cheeks and settled on her shoulder. "When I fell to the floor tonight, I was so scared; I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get up, and walk over to you, and tell you how much I need you, how much I want you, then nothing else mattered."
Haley pulled away and looked deep into his eyes. She saw, in that moment, all the love she'd ever need in her life. She kissed his lips gently. "Haley, I love you" he whispered. "Promise me you'll never let me go."
"I promise" she whispered as they held each other for a while longer, until they fell asleep in one another's arms.
Haley woke up to the feel of unusual warmth cuddled in her arms. She opened her eyes to see her own two arms tangled up in a mess of light purple bed sheets and mixed with another pair of arms. She looked up, and looked to the body laying still next to her. She smiled and sighed happily as her eyes roamed up past a bare muscular chest, and onto her boyfriend's gorgeous sleeping face. She grinned so bright the sun paled in comparison. Nathan's eyes fluttered open slowly, and he looked into her eyes. "Good morning, beautiful" Nathan whispered as he nestled his face between her neck and collar bone.
"A very good morning it is" she replied with a slight giggle. She brushed her fingertips down the length of Nathan's chest. He smiled. "How are you feeling" she asked him, suddenly concerned and quite aware of the reason he had spent the night.
Nathan groaned. His whole body ached, from the tips of his toes to the tip top of his head. In short, he felt like shit, but just waking up next to her took a lot of that physical pain away. "I feel like every muscle in my body is mad at me."
"Good" she retorted with an underlying tone of anger in her voice. Nathan sighed. "Baby, you know we're going to have to talk about this sometime."
"I know… I just wish sometime wasn't now" he grumbled. Haley sat up and turned to face him. He had expected her to be angry, but by the look on her face, he knew she was just concerned. "He was just pushing me so hard, Hales. I didn't know what else to do. I had to be better. He's always telling me I'll never be better. I wanted to prove that I had always been the better player."
Haley kissed Nathan's lips lightly. "Nate, I think he's always known you were better – that's why he pushes you so hard.
Nathan shook his head."No, he's so conceited and full of himself. I wanted to – no, I had to prove him wrong."
"Oh" Haley looked directly at him so hard Nathan felt as if she was staring a black hole right through his head. "I wasn't aware that taking drugs was the way to go about that."
Nathan looked down. "Haley, I know I let you down. I screw up a lot, ok? And I don't want to be that guy anymore."
Haley stood up from her spot on the bed and looked at him. "Nathan you have to decide who you want to be, then, and how you're going to get there."
He looked into her eyes from across the room. "I want to be somebody who is good enough to be seen with you."
Haley smiled. "You already are – minus the drug issue, you know. You got your one screw up out of the way. You only get one, the whole relationship."
"So you mean for the rest of my life… I can't screw up" he said laughing.
"Exactly" Haley replied as she sat on his lap, straddling him. She bent her head down and kissed him, rocking her body back and forth as they kissed. Haley stopped, and Nathan looked up at her. She smiled and began to slip her shirt up and over her head. She discarded it by throwing it on the floor beside her bed.
"Haley" he questioned. He knew she wanted to wait until marriage to have sex, and was completely surprised by this motion. "What are you doing" She smiled again as she began kissing down Nathan's neck and chest. She left a trail of kisses down one side of his chest, around his belly button, and back up his chest again to his mouth. He began kissing her back, and taking her remaining clothes off her slowly. Nathan repositioned the two of them so that he was on top of her, his thumbs hooked on the top of her pajama pants. He looked up at her, as she smiled at him sexily. "Haley, are you sure" he questioned her once again. She nodded her head and kissed him deeply. He slowly slipped her pants off, and also discarded those to the side of the bed in a messy pile of their other garments. The two laid in front of one another completely naked.
Instead of getting embarrassed and trying to hide her body from Nathan as she had done all the times when her shirt had lifted and showed some bare skin of her stomach or back. Instead she ran her own finger down her chest to her tummy, and smiled. "I want you" she whispered huskily. Nathan grinned and kissed her forehead, her nose, and down to her mouth. The two kissed, their tongues entering one another's mouths, exploring the deepest depths possible. "Nathan" Haley purred"I need you…"
Nathan slowly opened Haley's legs as she smiled up at him. He positioned himself in between her legs, and scooted forward a bit. "Are you sure you're sure" he said.
She nodded and pulled him into her by his back. Haley gritted her teeth and dug her nails into his back. He slid into her slowly, and then back out. Nathan bent his mouth down as they kissed and thrust into one another. The two were that way for quite a while, and then Haley let out a cry of ecstasy. She arched her body upward allowing Nathan to enter her more deeply. Their breaths both quickened, and Haley experienced her own orgasm until Nathan came and collapsed on top of her, their breathing heavy and their bodies sweaty. He brushed Haley's matted-with-sweat-hair out of her face, and kissed her sweetly. "I love you" he whispered into her ear.
She smiled. "I love you, too" she cooed. "Thank you."
Nathan wrapped the comforter around the two of them and looked at her oddly. "For what"
"Being my first everything…" she whispered. She snuggled her head into his shoulder.
Nathan smiled and laughed lightly. Haley looked at him as if to say 'What?' He just smiled again. "We just fit perfectly together. In everyway" he said as he gently kissed her cheek. The two drifted off to sleep in one another's arms again.
Haley awoke to a knock on her bed room door. "Hales, it's just me" a female voice said through the door. "Haley, I know you're in there – your car is outside."
Haley grumbled as she unfolded Nathan's arms from around her and gathered up some clothes. She quickly slipped on her clothes and exited her bedroom. "Hey, Peyton" she said with a smile.
"Oh my god" Peyton giggled. "I know that look."
"What are you talking about" Haley said shocked.
"You've got a new glow about you, Haley James… and I know that kind of glow" she said grinning. "Come on, let's go downstairs. I'll make you some coffee, and you can give me all the steamy details."
The two girls laughed and headed downstairs. Peyton made the two some coffee and Haley told Peyton all about her morning with Nathan, in juicy detail. Peyton just laughed. "Why are you still laughing" Haley asked her.
"I'm just so happy for you, Hales" Peyton grinned as she pulled Haley into a hug. "It's about time."
"Peyt" Haley whispered. "He told me, last night, that he loves me."
"Aw" Peyton squealed. "I love it. Oh, I really love it. My two best friends… together, and in LOVE"
Suddenly Peyton and Haley heard footsteps coming from upstairs. "Who's in love" Nathan said as he rounded the corner into the kitchen, now fully dressed. Haley blushed as Nathan walked behind her and kissed her neck. "Other than me, of course."