(Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts. All of their characters belong to Disney and SquareEnix. It didn't take me very long to write this, but it gave me a headache because most of the lines within the paragraphs rhyme as a poem, so don't read over it too quickly and I hope you appreciate the fact that it rhymes and such. Hope you like it!)


Holding On

I sat on the beach one day and stared up at the glaring sky, and quickly became bored, darkness swelled over my eyes. I think I had a dream, for it seemed as such daze, but the more I thought of it, I wondered the truth of this haze. The warm sand so comforting as though a blanket for a slumber, but on this particular afternoon on Destiny's Island in the scorching summer, I thought of my friend, Riku, and then of Kairi and his intentions, and so often, I'd be jealous, but I had no words to mention.

"I wanted to be like you

I wanted everything.."

I don't know why I envied you so, Riku, I suppose because you were older and seemed strong, and so brave and courageous that Kairi's choice of myself should be wrong. When I dreamt, I dreamt I was floating at sea, lost in the darkness, no one there but me. I've been having these weird thoughts lately, as though things are fake, and the nightmares I cherished, I hoped for her sake that they were, indeed, only nightmares.

I saw Riku standing far off from the shore, his back turned on me, a tension I never felt before. A tsunami rose in the distance and he turned, still to stand, and I shielded my eyes to see him lift up his hand. I wondered if he had something for me, so quickly, I fled, then I couldn't turn back as the wave crashed on my head.

"So I tried to be like you

and I got swept away."

As I swam and felt drowned as the current pulled me down, you held out your hand, your face in a frown.

"I didn't know that you were so cold

And you needed someone

to show you the way.."

I reached for you and screamed out your name, but the words could not come but in the form of pain and I swallowed salt and sea and I reached further still, and you seemed to back further, but though against your will. I later found out of your envious thoughts of I and for Kairi each night, I knew when you cried, but I didn't know it was because I seemed such a threat, and I wondered the nights when you woke in cold sweat.

"So I took your hand and we figured out

That when the time comes,

I'd take you away."

I got so close within your reach, but when I woke, I knew that my thoughts of leaving all this behind were your intentions, too. We talked to leave it all behind, and promised not to part, but I still couldn't heal the wounds that were concealed deep in his heart. His heart seemed gold, but each has darkness that needed be unfold, our hearts, that is. I wanted to free you of the walls that were built around your heart, but Kairi seemed to interfere, and I unaware from the start.

"If you want to,

I can save you,

I can take you away from here.

So lonely inside,

so busy out there,

and all you wanted

was somebody who cared."

I then dreamt that I was by Kairi at the ends of the shore, and then I saw something strange I'd never dreamt before. Above my head and in the skies, a twin of me fell, and in my mind, I was confused, these thoughts that seemed to dwell. I turned to Kairi and found myself falling before her eyes..

"I'm sinking slowly,

so hurry, hold me.."

You turned to grab my hand so quick, but I caught you by surprise.

"Your hand is all I have to keep me holding on."

I was falling endlessly and didn't understand, and I watched above as ripples concealed your outreaching hand.

"Please can you tell me

so I can finally see

where you got when you're gone."

I wanted to speak to her again, but alas, it was too late, and I didn't know when my fall would stop, and I then dreaded my fate.

"If you want to,

I can save you,

I can take you away from here.

So lonely inside,

so busy out there,

and all you wanted

was somebody who cared."

I heard the voices on the outside, out of my dream, calling on the shore, but I wanted to see how the dream ended as before. But even in the darkness, I still saw Riku's face, and I felt that I had betrayed him in some way of pure disgrace. I guess I envied he and also wanted what was his as well, and so as I sank endlessly into darkness, my heart, it also fell.

So now, I'm separated from both of them, and feel I'm still at fault, for I couldn't bring the walls crashing down that were built around his heart. But now in darkness, he yearns for light. Me? I yearn for she.

"Please can you tell me

so I can finally see.."

And I wish to return to her side, and have Riku, too, with me. Who knows tomorrow? No one can say, but the sun still shines afar, and this feeling I have when I think of her..

"Where you go when you're gone.."

Cannot die within my heart.