Yeah, yeah….a new story. I'm sorry for not updating my other story Silent Whispers, but after watching so many Inuyasha episodes (my mom got me the whole thing) I got really pissed at Inuyasha for always going after Kikyo. For the love of ice-cream, she's freak'in dead! Ok, so Inuyasha still has feelings for Kikyo, but you'd think he's actually get a hint that she never really liked him when she wanted him to turn human, wanted to kill him and started helping Naraku, but noooooooooooo, he just has to think that they're both in love and go googly-eyed every time he sees her. I feel really sorry for Kagome. After all, she saved Inuyasha's butt from death oh-so-many-times and she loves him :sweat-drop: Ok, enough of my ramblings and on with the story.


Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha. If I did, I would have married Sesshomaru and Inuyasha wouldn't be as stupid as to ditch Kagome time and time again for Kikyo. Sue me if you want but all I own a gallon full of ice-cream! You WILL NEVER GET MY ICE-CREAM! NEVER!

Something you should know before reading the story

I love ice-cream. someone thinking

I love ice-cream. flashback/end of flashback

"I love ice-cream." someone talking

(I love ice-cream) my ramblings

hanyou -half demon

youkai-demon

-sama –a term used for respect (lord, lady, etc.)

-dono –a term for respect that is even higher than -sama

Miko –priestess (?)


Beautiful Disaster

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By: Sanguine Dreams

Prologue

It was never fair from the beginning. He always had to run to her in the end. It was always her. She never came close; but then again, when was life ever fair? A tear rolled down the delicate features of the brunette. She quickly wiped it away when another followed. Why? Why can't I ever be good enough? The petite figure slumped onto the group as she finally gave in to the battle between her mind and heart; she started doing something she did every night when people told her that she was a reincarnation and nothing more, something she wished she would never do again, she cried.


Chapter 1

A soft smile appeared on Kagome's face as she saw Sango and Miroku once again fighting. The monk probably groped her again. They had just recently come back from fighting a cricket(cricket? OMG! A CRICKET! AHHHHHH!) youkai and they were currently sitting in the hut of Keade. Everything was practically normal. …but not everything is okay. At least not with me…

Kagome reluctantly stood up and walked towards the main entrance of the hut.

"Kagome-sama, where are you going?" asked the "holy" monk, Miroku

"Oh! I just wanted to go for a some walk if that's ok with you." answered Kagome without turning around

"Yes, that's fine, but don't go out for too long. We don't know what other kind of youkai linger out there." came the reply. Kagome barely even walk a meter when a loud smack echoed through the air. She may have laughed, giggled or maybe even smile again if she wasn't so occupied with her own thoughts.


The walk was quiet, scary maybe even. She stopped near a river at the foot of a hill and sat down. The stars are so clear here…if only they were like that back home. Home. That was a place she never really found. She had a home in the modern era and one in the feudal era, but which one was the one she truly belonged in?

"Oi! Wench, are you going to stay out there forever?" came an annoyed voice. Kagome almost jumped out of her skin from the sudden noise. Inuyasha popped down beside Kagome and snorted.

"Inu…yasha? What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with the others?" asked a startled Kagome

"Feh! I can say the same thing about you!" countered Inuyasha

That's right. He wasn't in the hut when I announced that I was going for a walk. Where did he- Kagome spotted a few white-like-dragons flowing in the sky and she answered her own question. He was with Kikyo. She was angry. In fact she was more than angry, but she didn't say anything about it. So Inuyasha, you don't want me to know? Then I have no reason to care. After all, I can't possibly compare to somebody that can have eternal youth and is walking among the living when she's already dead.

"Well, I just decided to take a walk. I didn't want to stand in the way of some people. Why are you here?" replied Kagome

"Well…I err…felt the presence of something…so I decided to check it out."

"That's nice." And that ended their conversation. So Inuyasha won't give up on Kikyo. Kikyo still loves him though. How can I stand a chance? They're both in love. Face it Kagome, life was never fair for you in the beginning. thought Kagome. Tears blurred her vision as she remembered unwanted things.


Flashback

Sirens filled the air as an eight-year-old Kagome sat in her room crying onto her used-to-be-dry pillow.

"Kagome, honey, we're going with your daddy to the hospital. Would you want to come along?" asked her mother

"No! I hate daddy! He promised he would stay with me today!" screamed the young girl as she pushed her mom out of her room and locked the door.

Hours later Ms. Higurashi finally came home with red-puffy eyes. She walked up the stairs and knocked on Kagome's door.

"Honey. Sweetie, please open this door." came the desperate voice of the mother. A little girl opened the door. The mother collapsed onto the young girl with a hug of comfort.

"Daddy. Where's daddy?" asked Kagome with a quiver

"Daddy…daddy isn't ever coming home. Kagome, daddy didn't make it." And that soon sent the females into another fit of tears.

End of flashback


I really should have gone with mom and Souta to see Dad…but I was too scared to see him go…but daddy might have had something important to tell me. A pair of honey-brown eyes fell onto the moon. Daddy, why did you have to go? Didn't you promise that you promise that you'd always be there for me?

"Are going or not?"

"Huh?" Kagome snapped out of her thoughts and looked at, a now standing, Inuyasha

"I asked you if you were going back." snapped Inuyasha

"Oh! Not right now. I'd like to stay out here for a bit." answered Kagome

"Feh! Don't stay out for too long." And with that he turned around and walked to the hut. Kagome doesn't seem like her normal perky self. I wonder what's wrong. Did she see Kikyo and me talking?


Flashback

"Inuyasha, I know that you are watching me." came the cold voice of Kikyo

"K-Kikyo. Why did you run off like that last time?" asked Inuyasha

"It seemed that you and my reincarnation didn't want to be bothered." replied Kikyo

"What! Why would you bother us?" questioned Inuyasha

"You seemed to have developed certain feelings for that girl. And it seems that I am no longer in your heart."

"Kikyo, you will always be in my heart no matter what." He pulled Kikyo into a hug and whispered into her ear. "I wish I could hold you like this forever."

End of flashback


A blush roused upon the hanyou's face. Kikyo…she was so cold. That was the only thing that reminded me of her death…she felt so human.


"I guess I was never really needed in his life." sighed Kagome. The truth hurts and what Kagome just realized hurt her a lot more. "Why can't I just have at least something done right in my life? I'm going to drop out of high school and currently everyone around me has someone in his or her life to live with. Why can't I ever do anything right?" whispered Kagome into her arms. She closed her eyes and willed the memories she had with Inuyasha away. "Why?"

So that is the Miko said to possess the power of the Shikon no Tama. She is truly pathetic. And to think that I have been once wounded by her…


Bwa Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha! A mini-cliffhanger. So what do you think? Not bad eh? That relieved a lot of my stress. So review! I worked very hard on this chapter! REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW…please! (I hope that stood out)

Sanguine Dreams