Disclaimer- I own Yu Yu Hakusho…..:angry lawyers begin moving towards DFA: eeep!…I mean I own Yu Yu Hakusho DVD's…:angry lawyers back off: whew! That was a close one. Nope don't own it, If I did I would have Hiei chained to my bed snicker . I claim ownership to any characters not in the series and manga.
Warning- slight citrusy goodness in this chapter.
Recap from last chapter:
Sweat was tricking down his face, and when he turned to face her, she could see a strange haze in his eyes. One that she had never seen before. His chest heaved in labored pants, his breath whistling through clenched teeth with every exhalation. He dropped the rest of the way to a floor with a cry of pain.
She assumed it was his wounds that were causing the reaction. She knew she had to do something to stop the blood flow. He may be a demon and therefore more resilient than a human, but he still could die from blood loss. She ripped his bloodstained cloak the rest of the way from this body. She knew he would be more than likely pissed about her destruction of his clothes, but she figured that was a bridge that was better left uncrossed for now. It wasn't as if there was much left of it anyway. She began tearing strips from it so she could begin bandaging his wounds.
That's when she saw it. On his back a strange pinkish-green mark could be seen. It ran from the junction of his left shoulder and neck to half way down his back and arm. Its sickly color throbbed in time with his heart. She knew this wasn't good, but focused her energies on bandaging the bleeding wounds first. She would consider the implications of this later.
With Hiei still on his knees in front of her, she continued her work. She had just finished wrapping his the wound on his broad chest, when another wave of what she thought was pain passed over his body. What she thought was pain continued to shake his form as she finished bandaging his torn body.
Chapter 5- Intentions Revealed, Effects Known
"Hiei, can you hear me?" she asked as she gazed at his crumpled form on the floor.
"O..oonna…What is hap..happ..ening to me?" came the low stuttering reply from the shaken figure on the cavern floor.
"I don't know. You are injured from fighting the beast, and you have lost some blood. But none of the wounds I bandaged should be causing a reaction like this."
He ached. He was finding it hard to breathe, and it was all that he could do to not reach out. He could feel the blood coursing through his body with every beat of his heart. It was like he was hyper sensitive to everything around him. Even though Botan was sitting a few feet away from him, he could swear that he felt her breath rushing over his body in warm waves. Hiei was sure that he could hear the beating of her heart.
Botan was getting very concerned. She could find nothing wrong with him. She mentally checked and checked again the wounds that she had bandaged. None of this made sense. How could he be reacting like this to a few simple cuts? She had tried to use some of her limited healing powers to alleviate his symptoms, but it was to no use. She couldn't very well leave him here to go get help. They were trapped in the cave, and she refused to leave him alone in the first place.
Then it hit her. The mark, on his shoulder. That had to be it. But what was it? Was it something that the monster had done, some poison that had been in the monsters clawed hands or saliva?
Think Botan! Think!….But I don't know anything about the monsters! I don't even know what they were. I can't ask Hiei, he is barely coherent as it is. What am I going to do? …. I wish Kurama were here, he knows almost every type of poison that exists in the Makai, and what he doesn't know Youko seems to. With his 500+ years of experience he is bound to pick up something.
That's it! I have my communicator with me…I'll just call Kurama! …Hold on Hiei! I just hope this thing will work in here.
With fingers crossed she flipped open the communicator compact and punched in the code to reach Kurama. Please let him be in. Please let him be in. She kept repeating the phrase like a mantra while rocking herself back and forth.
"Hello Botan!" came the greeting as the red-haired young man appeared on screen.
She snapped back around from looking back at Hiei's still trembling form to face the communicator screen. Her face held an expression of pure concern, with an underlying look of fear.
"Botan, what's wrong? You look shaken," questioned Kurama, with a look of unease in his eyes.
"I..I …I don't know…Something is really wrong with Hiei. I bandaged his wounds, but he's just lying there on the floor shaking. Then …Then I found this strange mark on his shoulder and back. I don't know what it is Kurama. I don't know what to do!" stammered the obviously panicked girl.
"Calm down Botan. It will be alright," he said while trying to calm the tears that were threatening to spill from the Botan's amethyst eyes. He wasn't sure if things would be, but he couldn't very well let her know that. He didn't know what was going on at the moment, but it had to be very serious to affect Hiei and to scare Botan like this.
"Botan. Could you let me look at the mark? I might be able to figure out what is wrong if I can see it."
"Alright. Just a second." she replied as she scooted over to Hiei's form.
"Hiei. I need to roll you over onto your back for a second, so Kurama can look at something. I'm sorry if it hurts you." Botan told the trembling figure.
"Go ahead onna. It doesn't hurt to move." came the low reply as he slowly rolled onto his stomach. The press of her hands on his shoulder caused a low moan to escape from his mouth.
"Ok Kurama, back now. Here it is," she said as she turned the communicator mirror to face the glowing wound.
"Thank you Botan, I've gotten a good look at it now."
Turning the mirror back to face her, she questioned the fox as to what it might be.
"You did say that Hiei was injured by a creature of some sort, didn't you?" questioned the emerald eyed detective.
"Yeah. Is that what is causing the reaction?"
"No. I don't believe so. There appears to be a small bump at the junction of his neck and shoulder from which the glowing pulses seem to be originating. I've never seen anything quite like it before, but don't worry. I may have an idea as to what is going on," he quickly added before panic could enter the girl's eyes again. "Let me go look in a book really quick, to see if I am correct. I will let you talk to Shizuru while I go look. The whole team is over here for the afternoon. I'll be right back, ok Botan?" he questioned with concern filling his voice.
"I'm alright Kurama. Please go check."
With that he handed the communicator over to Shizuru, and quickly headed up the stairs to his room.
(In Kurama's room)
He had seen a picture of a wound like that before, he knew it. But when had he seen it, and where? His emerald orbs scanned the book covers on the table by his chair. Finally, he came to the book he had just been reading the other day. That was it. It had to be in that book. It was the only book he had that related to the Makai.
Quickly he flipped through the books pages, only glancing at the pictures. His finger stopped on the picture of a strange vine like plant. Its thorny pink edged leaves hung down like a curtain around the stem of the plant. Something told him to read the passage below the picture. Never one to go against his instincts, he lowered his eyes to the words on the page.
The Oniechiyo Fetura. This plant is well known for its characteristic pink and green color and thorny leaves. Found only in one area of the Makai, it is consider to be very rare and dangerous. If pricked by its leaves, the any organism that comes into contact with the plants thorny leaves will begin to exhibit symptoms that include labored breathing, high temperatures, a flush on the skin, and sweating. A small bump will form at the site of contact, and a pinkish-green bruise will begin to spread outward as the plants toxins begin to take effect.
What he read next chilled him to the core. He dropped the book and rushed out of the room at a speed that even Hiei would have been proud of.
(Back down in the living room)
Shizuru was still trying to calm the shaken Botan. Visible to Botan in the back of the room stood the rest of the tantei. Worried expressions could be seen on the faces of one and all. The force at which Kurama came bursting back into the room with caused a collective gasp of surprise. Whatever it was that made Kurama come back with that grimace on his face had to be bad was the general consensus of the room.
Shizuru wordlessly handed the communicator back to the grave faced Kurama. She knew whatever Kurama had found out in one of his books must have been serious, and now was probably not the time for questions.
Kurama moved silently away from the others before he turned back to the communicator.
"Did you find anything out?" anxiously questioned the blue-haired girl.
"Well what is wrong with Hiei? Is the mark something the cave creature did, is it what is causing the reaction?" she interjected before Kurama could really even finish his statement.
"Botan, can you tell me if Hiei has been acting strange lately?"
"Well now that I think of it, yeah he has. He was late waking up this morning, and he had this strange flush to his face. It was almost as if he was blushing. It also seemed like he was breathing heavy. Does that help any?" she asked.
What she had just said confirmed his suspicions. He had really hoped she wouldn't have described any of those symptoms to him. There was nothing he could do now but tell her.
"I know what is wrong…" came the slow quiet reply.
"Kurama…What is it? Is Hiei going to die? Please don't tell me he is going to die. Please don't." she choked out.
"No, its nothing like that. Let me explain. What Hiei is experiencing is the effect of a rare Makai plant called the Oniechiyo Fetura. It can only be found in the area surrounding the Cave of the Lost Souls, right where you happen to be located," he explained.
"Alright. Is there anything that we can do?"
"Yes, there is, but I don't know how to tell you this…."
"What's wrong Kurama? Is this plant dangerous? Just tell me what to do and I will do it."
With a gulp and a deep breath he began. "Botan. This plant is known to cause the effects that you told me. But, it also acts as an aphrodisiac on the body. The plants toxin will cause the host body to be overcome with a burning desire, and if nothing is done, the toxin will cause the host to literally cook alive from the heat." He paused; he really did not want to say the next part. He sincerely hoped that she wouldn't make him say it more than once.
My body is burning up. Its getting harder and harder to draw breath. I don't know what's wrong with me. I can hear the onna's lilting voice from a distance. She must be talking to Kurama on her communicator. He is sure to know what is wrong with me.
Ahh…There it is again. That tightening in my lower abdomen. I licked my lips. I don't now why, but I feel as if there is a tension building inside me, and it is begging for release. I don't know how to stop it. I desire something, but what? What is happening to me?
I want…I want… My eyes flicked over to where she was standing with her back turned to me, and in that moment I understood.
"Botan. Do you understand what I am telling you?" questioned Kurama.
"I'm not sure, but I think so."
"You have to go to him. You are the only one that can help him now."
Complete comprehension dawned on the kind hearted ferry girls face.
"I understand." she quietly replied.
"I'm sorry Botan. I know how you feel about him, that you two don't exactly get along very well at times. I would never have wished this on you."
"It's ok Kurama. I can do this. Would you let me speak to Shizuru for a few moments?" came the somber request.
"Yes, of course. Don't worry, I wont tell the others and I will work on getting us a portal to where you are at so we can get you out of there as soon as possible." And with that he handed the device over to the waiting young woman.
"Botan, what is it? Is everything ok? The way Kurama came bolting down the stairs made everyone think that something really bad was going on."
"Yeah, everything is going to be fine Shizuru, Hiei is going to be fine now."
Botan quickly repeated what Kurama had told her a few minutes ago, causing a small gasp to escape the older girl. Well that was an unexpected revelation girl.
"I don't know what to tell you hun. This is going to be tough on you. Are you sure you can do this?"
"I have to. I'm the only one who can save him."
"I know, but…will you be ok? I know you care about him, but he doesn't feel the same does he?"
"I don't think so. I have to put my feelings aside for now. After, having a long talk with myself earlier today, I realized how deep they ran. There is nothing I can do. I can't wait for him to return my feelings; I have to reverse the effects. This is not a time for modesty."
"I understand Botan. Just be careful, ok. I don't want you to get hurt anymore than you have to. Don't worry, everything will work out. You'll see." Shizuru hopefully told the girl, even though doubt was niggling at the back of her head.
"I have to go now Shizuru."
"Be careful kid. Good luck."
The communicator screen went dark. As Shizuru walked back to the group, she hoped that Botan wouldn't be too hurt by what would happen next. But, it would be tough, especially since her feelings were involved. She couldn't tell the others what was going on. Not right now. It would be up to Botan if she wished for anything to be known.
(In the cave)
"Onna…What did the fox say?" Hiei said with a raspy voice.
With a quick gulp, she turned around to face him. "He said that you have been infected by the toxins of a Makai plant. It acts, as a sort of aphrodisiac, and the only way to reverse its effects are to carry through with the feelings that the plant is producing. If we don't, you will die."
"I see…. I had expected as much."
He lifted his head to look at her. She knew what Kurama had said was true; lust was burning in his crimson eyes. Even in now more dim light since the pendant had been removed from the pedestal, the light shined off of his hair. It gave the raven locks at blue sheen, and made the white starburst in the center stand out in stark relief.
His beauty made her turn away. She didn't deserve him, not even for just this one night. After this, she was going to ask Koenma if she could go on vacation. It would hurt not to be able to see him, even if from a distance, but her feelings would not allow her to remain near him. Especially since she knew that he didn't feel the same way. Every glance would be a reminder of what was to happen next. She didn't know if she would be able to stand the heartache.
She felt his hands on her shoulders, and she dropped her head to stare at his hand. His long slim fingers gripped her shoulder. He had grown taller since he had first joined the detective team, and he now was just an inch or two shorter than her. She could hear the desire in his voice as he spoke next.
"I do not wish to hurt you onna."
"I know Hiei, but there is nothing we can do to stop this."
"You must leave, find a way out. I will not force myself on you." he replied with a tinge of shame laced into his desire laden statement.
"No…I wont leave you here to die. Not when I can save you."
"Don't be stupid onna. I will not hurt you. I refuse. I will find another way. I do not need your help. Leave." he managed to spit out between clenched teeth as tremors wracked his sweat soaked body.
"Now who is being the stupid one Hiei? We have no choice, and as much as we wish it, there is no other way. I'm not particularly excited about all of this, but this has to happen." Botan said as she whipped around to face him, her finger poking his bare chest as if to punctuate every word.
Her eyes drifted to his lips. Big mistake. His pink tongue moved over them in a sensuous motion that would be her undoing. She slid her hand up his neck and into his thick black hair. Time seemed to stand still for them both. She moved her gaze up from his mouth to connect with his crimson eyes. Their intensity seemed to burn right through her, sending a shiver up her spine. She wordlessly unbuttoned her long sleeved shirt as he continued to lock his eyes with hers. The fabric dropped to the ground, leaving the cool breeze to caress her bare skin that her light blue tank top did not cover. At the sight of her skin, whatever control he had left shattered into a million pieces.
He reached his bandaged hand up to pull her neck down as a low sensuous growl was ripped from his throat and his mouth met hers in a crash of unexpected pleasure. The force dropped her to her knees, pulling him down with her. She clutched at his neck in an attempt to keep herself upright, from drowning in the waves of pleasure, as his soft lips moved over hers. He moved his mouth down to the base of her throat, and she tipped her head back to accommodate him. Small whimpers slipped from her throat.
His whispered plea for forgiveness was her snap back to reality from her pleasure-laden state. She broke away from his fevered gaze to stand a few feet away. She gazed into the darkness with her back to him.
Turn down the lights.
Turn down the bed.
She didn't want this to happen. No. She knew she was lying to herself, but even if this was what she had always wanted. She didn't want it to happen this way. She wanted to feel love in accompaniment with the passion that Hiei was stirring in her now.
Turn down these voices inside my head.
He soundlessly walked up behind her, and with gentleness she never knew he possessed, he turned her to face him and slowly removed the band in her hair. Her powder blue hair spilled over her shoulders. She knew it was time, and tipped her head as she leaned into him.
Lay down with me.
Tell me no lies.
Just hold me close.
Her lips met his and her body pressed up against him. It was as if every curve of their bodies were made to match each other. His tongue plunged into her mouth, and it seemed as if he was trying to completely consume her. His calloused hands ran up her shoulders to tangle in her hair. With great effort he removed his mouth from hers to nibble on the shell of her ear. His tongue darting out to taste her smooth skin every now and then.
"Shh…No talking, please. It will only make it harder." It was the first time he had ever used her name, and it was only to express the regret that the situation was causing. The irony of the situation was overwhelming. It was like one of those soap operas on TV. 'Welcome to the Days of Our Lives'.
Don't patronize. Don't patronize me.
He relaxed his body as he gently lowered her to the floor with his head holding her head. Their clothes were long gone now. He gently caressed her face with his right hand as his left slid down her side with a ghost of a touch. The combination of the roughened bandages of his right on her face, and the smooth skin of his left was overwhelming the poor ferry girl. Even if she could have backed out, there was no way she wanted to stop this now. A shiver ran up her spine as he slowly raised his head up from where he had been sucking on her pulse to gaze into her eyes. She could feel something building in her lower body like a knot of tension that was waiting to explode.
She longed to run her hands across his muscular chest and bury her head at the curve of his neck so she could breathe in the woodsy scent that was completely Hiei. A scent that reminded her of the forest that he spent so much of his time in, and the underlying smell was something that was unique to him. She could drown in his smell, his taste, and his gaze. This was not how she had imagined it, but the reality of what she was feeling now was better than any dream she had ever had.
I can't make you love me if you don't.
You can't make your heart feel something it wont.
Here in the dark,
In these final hours…
Her next thought was silenced by a demanding kiss. The sheer intensity of it made her hips buck up in a wave of pleasure. The movement of his hands on her body had become more insistent, and she finally relented to her desire to touch him.
As she drove her tongue into his mouth, the heat of it seemed almost scorching. It was a welcoming warmth though. Her hands slid across his chest, lightly tracing his scars with her fingertips. She pulled her mouth away from his in a gasp for air, and lowered her eyes to follow the path that her hands were now taking.
I will lay down my heart.
And I'll feel the power.
But you wont…No you wont.
'Cause I can make you love me…
If you don't.
She dropped her head so she could trace her tongue over the scars. They stood out in white lines in contrast to his tanned complexion. With a seductive glance upward, she stared into his crimson eyes, licking the length of a long scar as she did so. At the sharp intake of his breath she knew she wanted to remember this as long as she could. She wanted to commit every nuance of his body and this night to her memory.
I'll close my eyes, and then I wont see.
The love you don't feel, when you're holding me.
She licked her lips and returned her gaze to his lust darkened eyes. The light from the cave ghosted over his high cheekbones, and she found herself no longer able to resist. With a deep breath she threaded her hand into his hair, and plunged with him into the unbridled passions that would consume them that night. Her fall could be heard echoing on the walls of the cave, and his own tumbling pleasure filled descent was soon to follow.
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right.
Just give me till then to give up this fight…
And I will give up this fight.
I can't make you love me if you don't.
I can't make your heart feel something it wont.
Here in the dark, in these final hours.
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power.
But you wont…No you wont.
'Cause I can't make you love me…
If you don't…
Hiei sleepily nuzzled her neck, his breath fanning her cheek in warm puffs. His arms were wrapped around her in a protective embrace, and it felt so right to be in his arms. The night had been everything she had dreamed of, except that she knew it couldn't last. The team would be here soon, and it wouldn't do for them to be caught in a position like this. She was sure Hiei would not want what happened to be known by everyone. He probably would want this to be completely forgotten. Save for them, only Kurama and Shizuru knew at this point, and that would be would be far more than Hiei would wish. She knew she would always have the memories of the night, and she supposed that would have be enough for her.
Carefully removing his arms from around her stomach, she almost cried out when she felt the loss of his warmth. Slowly getting up so she would not wake him, she walked over to where her clothes had been dropped and put them on. With a sorrow filled eyes, she looked back over her shoulder at the sleeping fire demon and made her way over to the pedestal where the Pendant of the Souls had sat a few hours before. He was so beautiful that it literally took her breath away. His color had returned to normal and the mark that had marred his shoulder was now gone. It was almost as if everything had never happened.
It seemed odd that such a small object could cause so much trouble. That this simple mission would be the cause of a force that would be great enough to bring even the great Hiei Jaganshi to its will. As she heard him wake up, she maintained her gaze on the spot where the pendant had rested. She wanted to look at him like this just one more time, and fought to keep her eyes averted. The rustling of cloth, followed by the sound of footsteps signaled to her that he was dressed and ready to go.
With neither saying a word, they headed back down the corridor to where they had encountered the first demon. The silence between the two was defining. As luck would have it, their teammates had already arrived and had just finished clearing the passage of debris.
The mood was somber as they stepped into the portal for the Reikai once they had reached the outside of the cave. As of yet, no words had been spoken. No one wanted to be the first to say anything; the looks on Botan and Hiei's faces were enough to tell the group that this mission was something that was not to be discussed. Only three people in the group knew the truth of the matter, and were not about to tell the other two.
(Kurama's House two weeks later)
"Hiei…I know what happened in the Makai with you and Botan." calmly stated the green-eyed detective. Since he had admitted his feelings to Shizuru a few days ago, he had felt that he should do something to help his obviously distressed friend.
"Hn..I know not of what you are talking about."
"Fine Hiei. You can deny what happened in that cave, but you can't deny what you are feeling. I don't know if you have realized it yet, but you care for Botan. I can see it in your eyes, and Youko has known it for longer than probably both of us combined. But, if you keep this up, whatever chance you two might have had is going to be lost."
"I do not deserve her."
Slamming his fist on the desk, the normally calm and collected young mans emerald eyes burned in outrage. "Bullshit! Don't pull that forbidden child crap on me Hiei. I don't give a shit. The only reason you wouldn't be worthy of Botan and your sister's love is because of your own self-pity. You are to wrapped up in your own self-wallowing that you can't see what is right in front of you."
"Shut up!… You will listen to me. I know you care for her. Don't delude yourself into thinking that she doesn't have any feelings for you. Shizuru and I have talked about this, and she told me that Botan has spent every night since then crying over you." Cutting off Hiei's next remark he continued. "Crying because she loves you with all her heart, and wished that you could return those feelings."
He had never heard the kitsune talk to him with such emotion in his voice, and with such anger in his actions. Hiei was quiet for a few minutes before he carefully selected his next words. "I never knew."
"Well now you do. Now go to her Hiei. Don't make the biggest mistake of your life by letting her slip away." urged Kurama.
In a blur of black, Hiei disappeared. Kurama hoped for his friend's sake that he wouldn't blow it.
Silently staring out the window sat the blue haired girl in question. Her amethyst eyes were dimmed by a sadness that looked so out of place on her normally cheery face. So deeply lost in her thoughts was she that she never heard the approach of the figure behind her until he cleared his throat. She knew without looking who it was. There was no way that she would ever forget that scent, woodsy but with a tang to it that was completely unique.
"….." His words caught in his throat. He had no clue what to say to her to make up for all that had happened. Nothing that he could say could make up for the pain that she had felt because of him. He was always causing others pain distress. Just one more reason as far as he was concerned to stay away from her. She would be better for it, but he had to tell her that he was sorry and to forget him. Even if it would do no good, it had to be said.
"Botan…I am sorry for your pain."
"Hiei, don't be sorry. It wasn't your fault, you couldn't have helped what happened." calmly replied the girl.
"I want you to be with me. I have realized much since that night. I have realized that there was more to my heart than what I was showing to myself. I realized the hidden intentions that my heart held for me. The path that it intended for me to take. I know I am the Forbidden Child and that I am not worthy of love, but I beg you to forgive me. I am sorry." He said with a sorrow filled voice and turned to walk out the door.
"Hiei no baka."
Whipping back around to face her, astonishment crossed his face. She had just called him an idiot. No one had ever done that before.
"Did you think that all that mattered to me? As are as I'm concerned, your sins are all in the past and do not hold weight now. No matter what you do, I wont love you any less. You are not forbidden in my eyes. Don't be an idiot and screw up this with your attitude. Don't make me tell your sister what an idiot her brother is because he can't figure out that a girl likes him?" she said as she waved her finger at him with a smirk on her face.
No more words were wasted as he flitted over to her in a blur of demonic speed. His lips closed over her mouth muffling the gasp of surprise she tried to utter. Her gasp of surprised quickly turned to a moan of pleasure as she wrapped her arms around his slight figure.
He was going to teach her a lesson. No one called him an idiot and got away with it. She would be begging him for mercy later. Mercy that he would be more than glad to give her, he thought as he smirked against her neck.
A/N- Well folks, that's it. Tear…you all have been so wonderful, and it was fun writing this story. The song lyrics that I used were Bonnie Raitt's "I cant make you love me", one of my all time favorite songs. The first time I heard it I knew that it would be perfect for a fic, and ever since then the idea has been pounding away at my head. Sorry, if my romantic little cave scene wasn't up to par. I was trying really hard to behave myself and not write something that was NC-17. My hentai plot muse was pretty much beating me over the head trying to get me to type something naughty. If anyone would like to read the un-cut version of this chapter, let me know. I will try to post it on either mediaminer or adultfanfiction if I get enough requests for it.
Yeah, I know the ending was a little bit on the sappy side, but I couldn't resist a little bit of fluff.
Thanks to all those that inspired me to finally get up off of my hiney and write. Couldn't have done it without you. I hope you all enjoyed Hidden Intentions.