Title: It's About Time
Summary: Someone is at Sara's door.
There was a knock at the door for the second time today. Wondering who it could be this time, she looked through her peep hole and smiled. Two visits in one day - Grissom sure was full of surprises.
"Hey, Griss," Sara said shyly. Nothing like bearing your soul to make you feel naked. "Did you forget something?"
"No, I just wanted to check and make sure you were going to be ok. How are you holding up?" He asked looking deep into her eyes to see if she would tell him the truth.
Why lie to the man now? He already has seen you cry. That is humiliating enough, Sara thought as she looked away from his penetrating blue eyes.
"Better now that I finally told someone besides my PEAP counselor. She has actually been trying to get me to tell you every since my DUI. I just couldn't find the time. I was also scared. Scared that everyone would find out and try to fix me. But I am not broken. Just scarred…but human. You know what I mean?" Sara said looking at him briefly then looking away.
"Sara, you went through some bad times. I wish that you had told me sooner. I would have understood more and not been so…the way I was with you all those times. I didn't get it. I am so no good at these types of things, Sara, but I really am trying. Ecklie breaking up my team…my family…has gotten me to look at my life. Not just my work. What I want to do with my life and with who." Grissom reached for Sara's hand then.
Sara let him take it. She was nervous. She had waited so long for him to show her something - anything, and now that he was, she was scared. She didn't want him to tell her that he couldn't be with her. Even now.
"Sara," Grissom started but she put her fingers to his lips.
"Just listen to me for a minute ok?" Sara replied softly. "I didn't ask you out after the lab blew up because I was scared or felt indestructible. I was following you around before the lab exploded around me to ask you the same question. I don't have a school girl crush on my teacher, Grissom. It has never been that way with you. I feel things for you that I never knew I could feel. I was so afraid that I had read more into the way you felt about me until I overheard your confession to Dr. Lurie. That is when I knew that you cared for me just as much as I care for you. You just didn't know what to do. Probably still don't. I didn't mean to listen in on your conversation. I thought I was going to see the standard interrogation, but I was wrong. I should have walked away. I felt like I was spying on you. I tried to believe what you said about "not being able to", but I couldn't forget that look on your face. Even then you were struggling. You wanted me to know, but didn't want to lose you by being with me. I understand that, Grissom. I really do…but I have to know one thing."
With that she paused giving him time to process her confession.
"What do you need to know, Sara?" he asked without releasing her hand.
With a deep breath, she plowed on.
"I need to know if I am worth risk now. Could you give us a shot and see what happens there? I need you. Hell, Grissom, I love you. This is the last time that I put my heart out there for us. I can't give anymore if you aren't willing to give back."
"Honey, you were worth the risk back then. It was all me…still is. But if I have to choose you or work, I choose you, Sara. I don't want to wake up another day and wonder what you are doing, with who you are doing it, and what you are thinking. I want to wake up with you and go to bed with you. I want to hold you and tell everyone that you, a smart, sexy, beautiful, and not to mention, young woman are with me, a reclusive, drab, boring old man. I want to make you smile and damn it, Sara, I want to make you mad, because your eyes light up and burn when you are mad. Not so mad you wanna kill me mad, but mad none the less. BUT I never wanna make you cry. I wanna be there when you have a nightmare and hold you and rock back to sleep again. I don't want to be without you anymore."
With that Grissom stood and pulled Sara to her feet, then pulled her into his arms to hold her. They stood that way for awhile, neither wanting it to end, but scared to make the next move. The stood like this until finally Grissom spoke.
"May I kiss you, Sara?"
She looked at him stunned. No one had ever asked her that before. They just sort of did it.
"Yes" she whispered.
With that he took his finger and pulled her face up to look at him. He looked into her chocolate pools and melted his lips to hers. He was gentle at first, but then kissed her deeper. He didn't want to let her go. Nor she him. But eventually, they had to come up for air.